AW This is just so strange!!

[dukegirlsc]

I just need to vent a little bit to the only people that know we are doing a DE cycle. Our donor started stims yesterday. While this is the most awesome thing it's still so very very strange. I feel for this woman who has never done anything like this before, she's injecting every day for a stranger! I know she is being compensated but I'm in awe of what she is going through for someone else. At the same time I feel very set apart from everything. I won't even need to travel with DH when he goes to give his sample on ER day, as a matter of fact I'm not allowed to be at the clinic when she is there. Because we are doing PGS I'm not prepping for ET or anything right now. So I don't feel like I am a part of anything that is happening, all I have done is sign paperwork and pay for all the things!!

On top of everything else I'm trying to write a letter to our anonymous donor. She would receive it after her retrieval and coming up with the right words is almost impossible. 

I know I will feel differently when PGS results are back and we are prepping for FET but right now everything feels very surreal and I feel so detached. Ugh awful!

Thanks for listening ladies!

[longhornwino0907]

So many hugs, girl! It's such a surreal feeling. I know when kaliRN and I were in CZ, we kept looking at each other and saying, "Oh my gosh, our donors could be in the same building as us RIGHT NOW." So bizarre. I felt a little more attachment than I imagine you're feeling now just because we were doing a fresh transfer, so vag pills all the way for me, but it's still so unreal. Even when they emailed our fert report, it was so hard to wrap my brain around our babies being formed but me having nothing to do with it.

Sending good, fertile vibes to your donor and FX for great PGS results!

[kaliRN]

Feel all the feels. This is an insane process and there's a lot to work through. It was so weird at first and I was worried how I would feel when it all happens but let me tell you that it is so amazing to think about that embryo being implanted. Maybe it's not your genes but holy crap that doesn't matter when you are puking bc of that little squish! Lol. I'm so excited for you and we are here for you through this process! Congrats on the beginning of this cycle!!