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Jun 4, 2016 21:12:57 GMT -5
Post by icequeen on Jun 4, 2016 21:12:57 GMT -5
*ED/LC mentioned*
Hi ladies. I know a few of you saw my update post about going to an intake appt on Friday. Since this is supposedly the best facility for treating eating disorders, I went in will the full intention of following their recommendations. I know I have been resistant in the past due to numerous reasons, but now those reasons are not valid anymore. After complete disclosure of all of my behaviors and symptoms, the recommendation was residential treatment 1000+ miles away from home.
Needless to say, I am terrified. I know I need this but what about my kids? What about their activities? What about MH's job? What about my mom? What about taking care of the house? What if his whole treatment doesn't work and I will just disappoint everyone more. God I seriously feel like I've lost everything. I am so sad and scared and helpless. MH is taking time off from a job that he just got hired for and spent 9 months training for. My mom is a physician and already a shit load of work to do. The two of them are supposed to manage while I am gone. I am supposed to manage without my kids, whom I spend day and night all week caring for.
I leave on Tuesday. I hope this will only be for a month, but I cannot be sure. There are no cell phones, no laptops. I will come back when I am ready. In the meantime, please continue with the weekly goal setting and weekly updates as usual. Anyone can start them. I love y'all and can't wait to get this overwith.
Hi ladies. I know a few of you saw my update post about going to an intake appt on Friday. Since this is supposedly the best facility for treating eating disorders, I went in will the full intention of following their recommendations. I know I have been resistant in the past due to numerous reasons, but now those reasons are not valid anymore. After complete disclosure of all of my behaviors and symptoms, the recommendation was residential treatment 1000+ miles away from home.
Needless to say, I am terrified. I know I need this but what about my kids? What about their activities? What about MH's job? What about my mom? What about taking care of the house? What if his whole treatment doesn't work and I will just disappoint everyone more. God I seriously feel like I've lost everything. I am so sad and scared and helpless. MH is taking time off from a job that he just got hired for and spent 9 months training for. My mom is a physician and already a shit load of work to do. The two of them are supposed to manage while I am gone. I am supposed to manage without my kids, whom I spend day and night all week caring for.
I leave on Tuesday. I hope this will only be for a month, but I cannot be sure. There are no cell phones, no laptops. I will come back when I am ready. In the meantime, please continue with the weekly goal setting and weekly updates as usual. Anyone can start them. I love y'all and can't wait to get this overwith.