We said goodbye **trigger warning** XP

[longhornwino0907]

First, I want to thank all of you for all of your love and thoughts and prayers these last couple of weeks. Yesterday was easily the worst day of my entire life, but knowing that we have such a strong support system behind us is going to help us make it through the days and weeks to com.

We said goodbye to our beautiful Cathe.rine So.phia yesterday afternoon just before 4pm. She was stubborn until the very end and we still couldn't get a profile picture of her, but I know she's beautiful. It was relatively painful for me, but I just laid there and cried and prayed that she wasn't feeling any of the pain I was.

Our hearts are shattered, but we are so grateful that Oli.via is still doing perfectly well. I held on tight to the panda bear that we got at the Vienna Zoo the day after we knew their little embryos existed, I slept with it last night, and I'm still holding on to it. We just hope that Cate is at peace now; that she knows that we did the best thing we could for her and her sister, and that we will love her forever. We're not sure if we'll ever have a name to put with this, but we do feel in our hearts that we made the best choice we could in this really crappy situation.

I typed up my favorite poem to hang in the nursery next to the girls' ultrasound pictures.

I will carry Cate's heart in my heart for all the rest of my days. ❤️💔

[hollyberry]

So, so many hugs to you and your sweet angel Cate! You are a very strong mommy to make that decision. So much love heading your way!

[Evelyn3]

You are very strong, she will always be loved. Hugs to you and I'm thinking of you, the poem is beautiful as well. xx

[piccyami]

I can only imagine where you are right now. So many hugs and thoughts are headed your way.

[luvboston]

Hugs, I am so terribly sorry for you. I hope your grieving process is swift.

[housecarder]

My heart is so broken for you. I think you all made the best decision you could for everyone in a sea of shitty options. Take care of yourself and Liv. We are thinking about you and sending all the hugs.

[mrsmcsmith09]

I am so sorry for your loss. Sending hugs and thoughts to you and your family.

[Stringy]

Oh longhorn. I'm so sorry you are going through this. I'm glad that it was relatively physically painless for you as I'm sure it was for Cate as well. Thinking of you and sending you peace.

[RN1175]

I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for the update. I have been thinking of you a lot and worrying.

MH had a mothers necklace made for me when we found out we were having twins. He didn't give it to me until after we found out that one didn't make and had stopped growing at 9w. He want sure I would still want to wear it with two July birthstones (for the twins) along with our other two girls birthstones.

I will absolutely wear it everyday proudly and I will cherish it forever.
I love the poem you put up in the nursery. If you are a jewelry person maybe he will get you something like a moms ring or necklace!
Doesn't hurt to hint a little ha!
I will include you and your family in my prayers. Please stay strong and be good to yourself.

[Amelia]

I am so, so sorry for your loss.
I've always loved that poem, and I think that is such a beautiful tribute to your little Cate.

[amylev80]

My heart is breaking for you Longhorn. You are so incredibly strong and brave. Please take care of yourself and Liv.

[tikoberry99]

Sending a million thoughts and prayers your way. I am so, so sorry you and your DH are going through this. So happy to hear Olivia is doing well. (((HUGS)))

[requiressnacks]

So many hugs for you and your husband, Longhorn. I am so, so sorry for the loss of beautiful Cate.

[Smootiepie]

I can't even begin to imagine the amount of strength it has taken to get through this situation. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for thinking to update us, because we all know you have so much on your plate right now. ((Huge hugs)) both for right now and for down the road as you continue to heal.

[hannahbear]

Oh my gosh, huge hugs. I am so so sad that you had to go through this. Sending you thoughts of healing.

[MellyKnu]

What a wonderful poem. Again, I'm so incredibly sorry that you had to say good bye way too soon! Liv doesn't seem to be in any distress from the procedure?

[crazycatlady6]

Massive hugs. I'm so sorry that you had to say goodbye to your sweet Cate way too soon, the poem is beautiful.

[scrang92]

All the love and hugs to you and your family during this horrible time. I'm glad Liv is doing well but I'm heartbroken that you had to say goodbye so soon to your Sweet Cate.

[longhornwino0907]

Jun 23, 2016 15:32:29 GMT -5 MellyKnu said:

What a wonderful poem. Again, I'm so incredibly sorry that you had to say good bye way too soon! Liv doesn't seem to be in any distress from the procedure?

They checked Liv's heartbeat last thing and it was perfect. I go back in a week to make sure that she's still doing well, and at that point, the MFM will feel that were clear from any procedural complications. ❤️

[Sha259]

Everlasting love and hugs to you my friend. I am so incredibly sorry that you had to say goodbye to your precious Cate far far far too soon. But I think the way that you are honoring her and remembering her are wonderful. It's definitely reassuring that Liv is doing well. My prayers will be that you both continue to do so. Just take some time, to lean on your H, lean on your family, lean on your friends. And feel what you need to feel, when you need to feel it.

[eponine1007]

Oh friend.... Many, many hugs to you and to your family. I will forever remember you and your beautiful angel Cate. Thank you for updating us, and know that we are here for you whenever you need it. Constantly hoping and praying for your darling Olivia...

[rainbowbridge14]

I am so sorry for everything you have gone through and the difficult choice you had to make. Cate was so very loved. So many hugs for you and your family.

[dream2be3]

Sending all the hugs to you and your family.

[shananagins]

Oh Longhorn, I'm just so sorry that you had to say goodbye to your precious Cate too soon. I wish you peace your decisions and hope you find some measure of comfort in knowing that you and your DH did the best you could for both of your daughters. Sending so much love your way.

[angm123]

I am so sorry for all you have had to endure the last couple weeks. I hope you are doing okay. Take some time for yourself and your DH and know we will all be here to support you when you need it. Lots of hugs and prayers.

[hrushka]

Sending lots of love your way. ((Hugs))

[tiresiastheblond]

longhornwino0907, I'm so sorry for everything you've been through. You're already an amazing mom; it sounds like you did the best possible thing for both girls, even though I can't imagine how hard it must have been. I'm so glad Oli.via is doing well, and I'm wishing peace and healing for you and your family.

[Deleted]

Sending you so much love Longhorn. We thoughts are with you and your family.

[o2girl]

I am so sorry. There are just no words. Sending you lots of gentle hugs and prayers for peace.

[bocaburger]

I'm so sorry for what you've been through. I wish you peace and comfort in the knowledge that you did what was best for your family. (Hugs).