Post by Deleted on Oct 17, 2016 9:45:33 GMT -5
We are relaxing today after pumpkin picking yesterday.
The following is long, but I need to get it out:
I've decided that my breastfeeding journey is coming to an end. I'm so conflicted because I wanted it so bad for DS1 and couldn't do it and after all of the struggles DS2 is gaining weight and eating like a champ. But I mentally can't do it. My toddler is acting out big time for my attention and the baby eats about 14x a day. I'm worn down and exhausted. I know it's what I want when I completely broke down last night when he wouldn't take the bottle with formula. In reality I don't think he was that hungry because he took 4 ounces this morning. I'm going to slowly switch because I would like to keep giving him breastmilk until 2 months and I'm going to start pumping during some of the formula feeds to help extend that as well. I haven't really enjoyed the baby yet and he is 7 weeks old and my temper has exponentially increased with my toddler.
Short story:
I'm mentally over BF, and I'm both sad but relieved that I'm going to start transitioning to FF. I need my sanity back.
Sorry it didn't work out for you like you wanted.
I kind of know how you feel. I feel that my breastfeeding journey is also over as I have incredibly low supply and flow. DD gets bored at the breast almost immediately so I have to do compressions and switch nurse. Then supplement right at the breast. Feedings take over an hour if not more. It's just not worth it anymore.
I wanted to breastfeed so badly and couldn't with my first at all.