PAIF/PgAL Check-in 12/19-12/25

[bepandnick]

How is everyone doing this week?

[AmazingTulip]

So I caved and bought a doppler. My head kept going to bad places last week because of the spotting I was having and I was nearing one of my loss milestones. It took me a long time, but I finally found the heartbeat. So now I have officially passed the first of my two loss milestones. Today's also the 1 year anniversary of my due date for my third pregnancy. I feel like I'm in a much better place than I was this time last year. Really looking forward to 2017.

[akraus2015]

Dec 19, 2016 8:33:22 GMT -5 AmazingTulip said:

So I caved and bought a doppler. My head kept going to bad places last week because of the spotting I was having and I was nearing one of my loss milestones. It took me a long time, but I finally found the heartbeat. So now I have officially passed the first of my two loss milestones. Today's also the 1 year anniversary of my due date for my third pregnancy. I feel like I'm in a much better place than I was this time last year. Really looking forward to 2017.

I also bought a Doppler and was able to find baby's heartbeat at 9+4 and again yesterday, which is really cool and reassuring. I feel like it's putting me in a much better place emotionally.

[MissSally]

I'm in the waiting room for my NT scan. I'm really excited to see the little squish again but I didn't but realize how nervous I was until I got here!

[rosey06]

I hit 8 wks today, and only 2 days away from my next apt. I doubted if I'd make it this fair but I'm here! But now I can not get a missed miscarriage out of my head. My loss was a spontaneous one but I'm worried we can still have a big let down happening and don't know.

I might beg and plead on my knees in my gown on wed for her to atleast try the Doppler, even though it's early.

[MissSally]

Ahh. Squish measured perfectly at 12w. Wiggling all over the place!

I'm so bummed though, we don't find out the sex with the bloodwork that my doctor ordered! Guess I'll have to wait.

[bepandnick]

That's so awesome you guys have been able to find the heart beat AmazingTulip and @akraus. My friend gave me her Doppler but I haven't tried it yet.

((rosey06)). It's so hard not to be scared about a loss happening again, even when you've passed your milestones.

Yeah for a wiggling squish MissSally!

[bepandnick]

I'm doing ok. I see my MFM for my level 2 scan and to get a plan for keeping this LO cooking longer than DS on Wednesday. Appointments always make me nervous now, but hopefully everything will be ok.

[ldubhawksfan]

Dec 19, 2016 8:33:22 GMT -5 AmazingTulip said:

So I caved and bought a doppler. My head kept going to bad places last week because of the spotting I was having and I was nearing one of my loss milestones. It took me a long time, but I finally found the heartbeat. So now I have officially passed the first of my two loss milestones. Today's also the 1 year anniversary of my due date for my third pregnancy. I feel like I'm in a much better place than I was this time last year. Really looking forward to 2017.

((Hugs)) EDD and milestones are hard but I'm so glad it seems like you are doing well!

[ldubhawksfan]

My MMC stopped growing at 8 weeks, so I'm a little bummed about not having another appt until 12+ weeks, but seeing my gummy last week put my mind at ease. I keep reminding myself that my MC was a BO and although my loss milestone hasn't passed, the formation of a baby is further than we made it with the loss. I also r Alize's that I think I feel a little more at ease this time around because I have my grandmother in heaven watching over me now. I feel like she will make sure I'm ok, whatever happens.

[rosey06]

Dec 19, 2016 13:35:11 GMT -5 ldubhawksfan said:

My MMC stopped growing at 8 weeks, so I'm a little bummed about not having another appt until 12+ weeks, but seeing my gummy last week put my mind at ease. I keep reminding myself that my MC was a BO and although my loss milestone hasn't passed, the formation of a baby is further than we made it with the loss. I also r Alize's that I think I feel a little more at ease this time around because I have my grandmother in heaven watching over me now. I feel like she will make sure I'm ok, whatever happens.

Sending hugs, hope 12wks comes fast.
You sound a lot like me. I've been telling myself the same.. although it was an early ultrasound, it showed more than the scans with my loss. Just keep thinking of that little one you saw.
Also, I've been thinking of my gram watching over me and baby a lot. My TCF name is for her.. and I magically finally ovulated (after weeks) on her bday.. I just know she's with me this time.

[rosey06]

MissSally waiting is hard. But glad everything went well!

Hugs AmazingTulip on the EDD today, that's tough I'm sure.

[JustJudy]

After a horrible week of MS that lasted all day everyday I feel normal today. I'm eating my second meal of the day and I went in to work for a meeting. I'm still supposed to be on bed rest but I couldn't miss this meeting. Thursday is our next follow up to make sure baby is good and SCH is smaller again. It cannot get here soon enough.

[bepandnick]

I found the HB on the Doppler today!

[ldubhawksfan]

I shared our news to one of my best friends ahead of time today. They have had two failed FET TTCA.

I just was texting another friend that I suspected they were moving on to IF treatment soon and she opened up about it, along with a 3rd loss. I'm heartbroken for them, but also feel emense guilt for being pregnant again. I remember how hard it was for announcements following our loss and going through IF; I'm dreading telling her. 😢

[akraus2015]

Dec 20, 2016 19:06:20 GMT -5 ldubhawksfan said:

I shared our news to one of my best friends ahead of time today. They have had two failed FET TTCA.

I just was texting another friend that I suspected they were moving on to IF treatment soon and she opened up about it, along with a 3rd loss. I'm heartbroken for them, but also feel emense guilt for being pregnant again. I remember how hard it was for announcements following our loss and going through IF; I'm dreading telling her. 😢

Hugs. Try not to feel guilty...if the situations were reversed you would be thrilled for your friends. It's okay for them to be happy for you and sad for themselves. At the same time, it's okay for you to be happy for yourself while still feeling sad for them.

[ldubhawksfan]

Dec 21, 2016 8:59:07 GMT -5 eameselephant said:

Dec 20, 2016 19:06:20 GMT -5 ldubhawksfan said:

I shared our news to one of my best friends ahead of time today. They have had two failed FET TTCA.

I just was texting another friend that I suspected they were moving on to IF treatment soon and she opened up about it, along with a 3rd loss. I'm heartbroken for them, but also feel emense guilt for being pregnant again. I remember how hard it was for announcements following our loss and going through IF; I'm dreading telling her. 😢

Hugs. My BFF is due in Feb, one month after I would have been due. Honestly, it was difficult for me to see her growing belly this year. She also made a few insensitive comments because I just don't think she knew what to say. This is her 3rd and she never had any difficulty getting or staying pregnant. She said some things like, oh maybe we could travel to Europe while we have the chance, she would love to, but she'll be "too busy" next year. I did say something and she didn't realize and felt terrible. Anyway, what I really needed was some space from her. I was really happy for them, but just needed some time with other people talking about non-baby things. You are aware and thinking about the sensitivity of the topic, so you're already ahead of the game. You sound like a great friend.

I totally know. We had friends due within a week of our EDD and I just couldn't be around her growing belly and took almost a month before we went to meet the baby. It wa hard, and I expect it will be the same for this friend. I honor and respect it. I'm just dreading telling her, and just sad for them. They will make amazing parents.

[ldubhawksfan]

My MS has pretty much been non existent the last 3 days; cue PGAL anxiety

[MissSally]

Dec 22, 2016 17:01:36 GMT -5 ldubhawksfan said:

My MS has pretty much been non existent the last 3 days; cue PGAL anxiety

I'm sorry. PgAL is so hard. Maybe it's just starting to ease up? Mine has been gone for a week now.

[ldubhawksfan]

Dec 22, 2016 17:24:52 GMT -5 MissSally said:

Dec 22, 2016 17:01:36 GMT -5 ldubhawksfan said:

My MS has pretty much been non existent the last 3 days; cue PGAL anxiety

I'm sorry. PgAL is so hard. Maybe it's just starting to ease up? Mine has been gone for a week now.

I'm hoping so. It lasted until 11 weeks with DDz it disappeared at 8 weeks with my MC, which is when the BO stopped growing, so that doesn't help my mind. I've got to just try to stay positive