Guys, I'm really struggling tonight. I feel like an incredibly shitty mom for being so completely unable to deal with both of these kids on my own. My MIL even took DS for a few hours each of the past 3 days and I still am so far out of patience and find myself yelling and swearing at them. Not, like, constantly but at least once a day. Wtf is wrong with me?
I'm drinking wine and it's only making me feel shittier because no matter how hard I work out I don't lose any weight and this is obviously not helping. I'm kinda ready to just say fuck it at this point.
Sorry to dump on you guys. Supposedly H is on his way home (remember that he didn't come home from work at all yesterday) and I need to pull myself together because he's really stressed and doesn't need to hear me bitching.
MH is off for the next two weeks, before he is deployed for the 5 months. So I go from having him around all.the.time to not at all, it's such a mindfuck. I'm just trying to keep our schedule as much as possible and when he leaves just try and get through the days.
That is nuts. I'm really sorry, it must be so tough on both ends.
Since switching to formula last weekend, MH said he'd feed H in the MOTN in order to give me a week off. (I still go in there for paci insertion & if M wakes up.) He's been such a grump all week and was complaining about how tired he was last night. No shit dude, getting up in the MOTN sucks. I don't need your bad attitude though.
That's nice of him to volunteer but lol. Did he think it would be fun? Or easy?
I sometimes thing our H's think it's no big deal. But when in the midst of it, it's killer and they whine more. I hope he appreciates you more after this @tgrimes2980!
She's been up since 1:45am. It's 4am. Wide. Awake. Because H tried sleeping in here with AB again after couple weeks of not doing so and after her bottle as she drifted off AB let out a cry that scared her since she was no longer used to it and the rest is history.
She's currently flailing arms and legs on the bed. My back is turned to her bc I've tried everything and she just wants to be awake/hard time falling asleep.
I'm so annoyed.
dashook Please don't feel bad, when we're sleep deprived and stressed we all do and say things that are out of character. As far as the wine, I am personally of the mind frame that the wine isn't going to make or break a diet/weight loss goal. Maybe you can make up for it somewhere else.
kleigh, that sounds brutal! If it makes you feel any better, I have regularly set D down next to me, rolled over, and gone back to sleep while she's just kind of laying there wide awake and kicking her legs. She isn't crying and doesn't need anything; she's just awake and I don't want to be haha
Hopefully you and vinolove are sleeping right now!
I've been the mom who turns at a red light just to keep driving to keep my baby asleep vinolove
I've been the mom who turns her back on a flailing child in my bed because I'm at a loss of what to do next kleigh
I've been the mom who unfairly loses her cool and yells at the kids and then had to apologize dashook
Anything you've done that you feel bad or weird about, I've probably done too. Most people will at some point in their parenting. Just keep on getting on!
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