The April Thread

[freezorburn]

Late again ... anyone else seeing glimpses of spring in your part of the world?

[freezorburn]

Today begins DS's spring break, which he is spending with his dad. So, it's a rare child-free week for me. I debated maybe taking a trip somewhere, but ultimately decided I would be much happier if I could just stay at home and knock things off my to-do list. So, that's what I've been working on today.

I'm still in rough shape, mentally and emotionally. We had a status conference with our divorce coach this week, and he thinks I may be experiencing some PTSD from the divorce. So, we're going to try to do some brainspotting/EMDR therapy and see if that helps.

Work is going well. Hopefully I can make some progress on my list this week and feel less like I'm treading water through life.

[lolo918]

freezorburn, I hope you get to enjoy Spring Break and that therapy helps.

Hang in there- my experience was different in getting here but I've definitely had that feeling of just treading water through life. It sucks, but gets better. I still have some days here and there but they are way fewer and farther apart than what they were at one point.

[lolo918]

Life is going good here. I'm feeling like I'm in my groove as a substitute teacher and that changing careers is going to be a good move. I had to send in official transcripts from my dual enrollment courses to the dept. of education so I still don't know what the status is on my teaching license, nor have I heard from the school district that I interviewed with so there's still some hope. In the meantime, I'm also studying to finish my personal trainer certification which can be another source of income if I choose. On a side note, ordering those materials kind of hurt a lot even though I reminded myself that I could get it back eventually. Money is one of those things that continues to be something that keeps me on edge, though being able to stay on at Kohl's + the college + subbing has helped make it less of an issue.

In my personal life, I'm running a marathon in November so I can knock that off of my bucket list. DD turns two next month, and I have no plans. I'll definitely have a small group of friends and family but have nothing past that in mind. I think I want to get her some of those my fisher price learning skates because she's always playing with my older nieces roller skates. Trying to stand in them and move around, etc. A part of me gets anxious at that thought but she would love them I think. She already has a hand me down tricycle and water table, more toys than she knows what to do with inside.

[jennaleigh23]

It's finally spring here! Also hello everyone I fell off the board for a while but I'm graduating from college in a couple weeks and hoping to have a bit more time to pop in. Hope everyone's been well!

[lolo918]

Apr 9, 2017 8:57:05 GMT -5 jennaleigh23 said:

It's finally spring here! Also hello everyone I fell off the board for a while but I'm graduating from college in a couple weeks and hoping to have a bit more time to pop in. Hope everyone's been well!

Hi and Congratulations!! I hope that you and L have been well also.

[freezorburn]

Great to see you back jennaleigh23! Congratulations!

[jennaleigh23]

Thanks lolo918 and freezorburn how have you guys been?

[freezorburn]

Apr 11, 2017 10:28:36 GMT -5 jennaleigh23 said:

Thanks lolo918 and freezorburn how have you guys been?

Mostly good here. I started working part time in January, just two days a week. Floral dept at my local supermarket. It's perfect for right now because I feel like I'm only operating at 60% brain power. So I felt like I just needed something to help me settle into my new life (divorce was finalized in November), and this is it.

DS has been asking about the divorce and it's been challenging to figure out how to talk to him about it. This week he is on break with his dad and his GF, which pisses me off bc I wasn't informed she would be there until the last minute.

.... and I keep having mini panic attacks thinking I've lost my wedding band because my hand feels lighter and I keep touching my finger where it was. This is new this week. I felt like this for a couple of weeks in 2015 when I first took it off, and now it's back with a vengeance. Good times.

Therapy on Friday