Post by buggy158 on Mar 1, 2015 10:33:21 GMT -5
A few ladies from my BMB suggested I head over here as they found it a great place for support.
This is my first MC. I started what I thought was my period the first week of February. By the time it should have ended I developed incredibly painful and life stopping cramps. I thought I had a cyst but this pain was much worse. A BMB friend mentioned she thought she had a cyst when she found out she was pregnant, so on a whim took a test and got a surprise BFP. Completely unexpected. Made an OB appt for the next day, the dr left right before my appt and I wasn't seen or rescheduled - was told my urine test was positive so I was pregnant and I could come back in a month for follow up. Found a new OB, they scheduled me for two sets of blood work, rhogam, and an ultrasound.
Hcg levels decreased btw the two tests, so I knew. Went to an OB appt the next day where the nurse who took my weight was nice enough to ask if I felt the baby kicking yet, clearly she didn't think to look at my chart but it certainly didn't help to have that happen. At the appt OB said the pregnancy wasn't viable bc of blood work and ultrasound and scheduled me for a D&C. Within an hour the office called me to say my insurance wouldn't cover the D&C and the dr recommended natural MC instead.
The roller coaster ride of emotions has really gotten to me and I'm struggling. Especially since this feels like it's still not over, I've been bleeding and cramping for a month with no end in sight. I have a follow up OB appt in the morning and just feel like it's going to be another waste of time with no answers, no solutions, and just something to make me even more upset. I know I need to go but I just don't want to.
DH wants to be supportive but doesn't get it, he has no ability to relate to anything not happening to him. And with his work travel schedule it's just me and DD by ourselves most weeks, so he's certainly not around to just hold my hand through this. Whenever I try to talk to him it turns into a tantrum from him because I'm not talking about how we're both going through this, God forbid I speak about myself and my feelings as we aren't both going through this the same way.
Another BFP in my BMB this morning had me in tears, I'm super happy for her don't get me wrong, but I can't help but feel sad. I just feel lost and like this feeling is never ending. Will I stop feeling like this if this ever stops?
This is my first MC. I started what I thought was my period the first week of February. By the time it should have ended I developed incredibly painful and life stopping cramps. I thought I had a cyst but this pain was much worse. A BMB friend mentioned she thought she had a cyst when she found out she was pregnant, so on a whim took a test and got a surprise BFP. Completely unexpected. Made an OB appt for the next day, the dr left right before my appt and I wasn't seen or rescheduled - was told my urine test was positive so I was pregnant and I could come back in a month for follow up. Found a new OB, they scheduled me for two sets of blood work, rhogam, and an ultrasound.
Hcg levels decreased btw the two tests, so I knew. Went to an OB appt the next day where the nurse who took my weight was nice enough to ask if I felt the baby kicking yet, clearly she didn't think to look at my chart but it certainly didn't help to have that happen. At the appt OB said the pregnancy wasn't viable bc of blood work and ultrasound and scheduled me for a D&C. Within an hour the office called me to say my insurance wouldn't cover the D&C and the dr recommended natural MC instead.
The roller coaster ride of emotions has really gotten to me and I'm struggling. Especially since this feels like it's still not over, I've been bleeding and cramping for a month with no end in sight. I have a follow up OB appt in the morning and just feel like it's going to be another waste of time with no answers, no solutions, and just something to make me even more upset. I know I need to go but I just don't want to.
DH wants to be supportive but doesn't get it, he has no ability to relate to anything not happening to him. And with his work travel schedule it's just me and DD by ourselves most weeks, so he's certainly not around to just hold my hand through this. Whenever I try to talk to him it turns into a tantrum from him because I'm not talking about how we're both going through this, God forbid I speak about myself and my feelings as we aren't both going through this the same way.
Another BFP in my BMB this morning had me in tears, I'm super happy for her don't get me wrong, but I can't help but feel sad. I just feel lost and like this feeling is never ending. Will I stop feeling like this if this ever stops?