FET cancelled again

[bootsorhearts]

I am a ball of tears at the moment. My FET got cancelled for a 3rd time because my lining is shit. My RE said she's willing to give it one more go with a new protocol. And then what? What happens to my little embryos? I love those little balls of cells, I feel like they've always been future child(ren) waiting for me. Now I'm letting them down. I guess we give them up for adoption? I don't like the idea of a surrogate, I doubt we could afford that anyway. So not only might Isaac be our only biological child, but I might not even get a chance to try for another with our snowflake babies. I want to scream and throw things.

[scimomma]

Oh sweetie, I don't know much about it but what does your RE mean by only giving it one more try? It seems like they should keep trying until you say you're done and not the other way around. Hang in there and fingers crossed the next cycle goes better for you.

[bootsorhearts]

I don't know either. It could just be that I have too much scar tissue. I don't know if that's a fixable problem or not.

[MoreThanSparrows]

So many ((hugs)) for you. I'm so sorry you're dealing with all this...

[puglife5869]

I'm so so sorry. It's just not fair. Big HUGS!

[docamy]

Oh boots!! I'm so very sorry!!! I would feel the same way about the snowflakes! I don't know how I would feel about a surrogate either but I don't think I could handle adoption.....oh I hope it doesn't come to you having to make that decision!! HUGE hugs!!!!

[wifey]

I'm so sorry Boots. I can only imagine the disappointment. This cycle has been such a roller coaster for you, but I'm glad your RE is not forcing things while not being optimal. I understand this result was what you were dreading, and I think about it for myself, and the fate of my embryos. It's a very emotional thing to have to decide on.

You are absolutely not letting them down! You are jumping through hoops to give them a chance, and that is so incredibly loving. I hope this protocol is exactly what you need to move forward. Was it still a 6, or less? Everything you said, are things I have said to DH, and we just told ourselves to take this one step at a time, and not jump too far into the future with worse case scenarios. Easier said than done. Huge hugs. I know it blows.

[taberbtb]

That is the shittiest of shit. I am so sorry, but you aren't out yet. (((HUGS)))

[muirmaid]

I'm so, so sorry you're facing this. I have no words of wisdom, but I have big squishy hugs for you. I'll be keeping you and your family in my thoughts as you process the news and think about possible paths.

[scimomma]

Mar 2, 2015 11:21:48 GMT -5 bootsorhearts said:

I don't know either. It could just be that I have too much scar tissue. I don't know if that's a fixable problem or not.

Again - not an expert here - but I had a bunch of stuff in my ute after my third (and probably second) m/c. I had a hysteroscopy to remove it. It's worth asking about.

[lilmizsunshine68]

This made me tear up boots. So many ((hugs)) to you and so many T&Ps to you. You are loved.

[bootsorhearts]

Mar 2, 2015 14:11:58 GMT -5 unringthebell said:

Sorry this is happening to you. Fingers crossed the new protocol will result in a nice squishy (is that an appropriate adjective? if not you know what I mean) ute.

My RE calls it fluffy. She likes to see a nice fluffy lining haha

[luciddreamer]

((Hugs)) I'm so sorry that you're going through this.

[doglover31]

Sending you hugs....so sorry that is happening.

[chknma]

I'm so sorry. ((Hugs)) and T&P for a nice fluffy ute!!

[lunabug924]

I am so, so sorry, Boots. Big squishy (((HUGS))). I hope you and your RE can come up with a new plan.

[leopardgurl831]

I'm so sorry boots. I hope you get a nice fluffy lining next cycle and don't have to worry about anything. ((Hugs))

[oldbaylover1024]

I'm so so sorry, boots {{creepy internet hugs}}

[dragonfly1809]

I'm so sorry. *hands you something to throw*

[linzeeh80]

I'm so sorry, Boots. Huge ((hugs))

[ksyknelvr73]

I'm sorry Boots. I hope your ute gets with the program sooner rather than later. Sending hugs.

[roxycc55]

I'm so sorry. That is total shit. I wish there was more I could say to make it better. (((Hugs)))

[mommaashley12]

Hoping this cycle yields a nice fluffy ute. In the meantime positive thoughts, hugs, and prayers for you!

[mrsbutton]

I'm so sorry Boots... I really hope the new protocol gets your ute nice and fluffy and ready for embabies!

[KMW08]

Ute drill sergeant reporting. LISTEN UP BOOT's UTE, GET YO SHIT TOGETHER. New protocol #UteGotThis

Sending massive hugs (((boots)))

[madameovary]

Well shit. I'm sorry, Boots.

[bethelgal42]

I'm sorry Boots.

[Maggie0424]

(Hugs). I'm so sorry!

[peggels24]

I'm so sorry

[bootsorhearts]

@kma08 I'm LOLing at #utegotthis