Re-intro: 5th loss....need support
Mar 2, 2015 14:30:46 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Mar 2, 2015 14:30:46 GMT -5
Hi Ladies,
I am a regular on the IVF board and also bounce back and forth from this board due to my history. Looks like I will be here for a while.
A little about me: DH and I are both 35. We have been TTC for a little over 2 years and are currently going through our 5th loss.
We had two losses before visiting an RE. After we visited the RE, we tried a few cycles of clomid or injections with no success, and then we went to IVF. Our first IVF was a success, only to find out that our son had anencephaly at our 13 week ultrasound. He was normal otherwise, with no chromosomal issues. Our second IVF we got a BFP but with non-doubling betas. We were unable to do a transfer for our third IVF due to OHSS. We just did our third transfer, an FET last month. My betas have been 40, 32, 50, 132, 179 (today). I started bleeding on Saturday. The doctor is worried about ectopic because my level is still increasing. I go in for more blood work and an HSG Wednesday to see what the issue may be. A D&C or Methotrexate may be in my near future.
I would describe my feelings as going between being pissed off to being numb. I really don't know where to go from here. We have 2 embryos left and I am not sure if they are safe to use or if we are destined for failure once again. Our options going forward are to use the last two embryos, start the process with a egg donor, adopt, or not have children. We never thought we would be in this position. I guess the first step is to get through this first hurdle and get through this current loss. It is difficult to try not to think so far ahead.
So here I am. I am sorry we are all on this board, but am thankful that you are all here so we can be a resource of support and hope for each other.
I am a regular on the IVF board and also bounce back and forth from this board due to my history. Looks like I will be here for a while.
A little about me: DH and I are both 35. We have been TTC for a little over 2 years and are currently going through our 5th loss.
We had two losses before visiting an RE. After we visited the RE, we tried a few cycles of clomid or injections with no success, and then we went to IVF. Our first IVF was a success, only to find out that our son had anencephaly at our 13 week ultrasound. He was normal otherwise, with no chromosomal issues. Our second IVF we got a BFP but with non-doubling betas. We were unable to do a transfer for our third IVF due to OHSS. We just did our third transfer, an FET last month. My betas have been 40, 32, 50, 132, 179 (today). I started bleeding on Saturday. The doctor is worried about ectopic because my level is still increasing. I go in for more blood work and an HSG Wednesday to see what the issue may be. A D&C or Methotrexate may be in my near future.
I would describe my feelings as going between being pissed off to being numb. I really don't know where to go from here. We have 2 embryos left and I am not sure if they are safe to use or if we are destined for failure once again. Our options going forward are to use the last two embryos, start the process with a egg donor, adopt, or not have children. We never thought we would be in this position. I guess the first step is to get through this first hurdle and get through this current loss. It is difficult to try not to think so far ahead.
So here I am. I am sorry we are all on this board, but am thankful that you are all here so we can be a resource of support and hope for each other.
And the fact that you've been through so many losses already is just heartbreaking. I know it's hard not to try and plan, as I catch myself doing it as well, but give yourself some time to heal. I am having a hard time making any decisions past today, and that's OK. ((hugs))
