Post by dukegirlsc on Mar 5, 2015 19:24:05 GMT -5
Hi ladies. I recognize some familiar names from The Bump where I was active on the TTC>35 board. I am sorry to be joining this board but I know how wonderful you all are and I'm thankful for the support. About me, I am 41, DH is 37. We had our first IUI in December 2, 2014, we had a BFP that ended in MMC at 5 weeks. We immediately went into the second cycle and I had my second IUI on January 8, 2015. We got a BFP on January 23 and my betas were doing extremely well, doubling as they should be, everything looked great. I had brown spotting for one day on February 9 and so I had my first ultrasound on February 10. My ultrasound had been scheduled for February 11 so I had high expectations. During the first ultrasound we saw a gestational sac and yolk sac but no baby. I was terrified. I had to return the following week for a follow-up ultrasound. On that ultrasound there was a baby with a heartbeat measuring 6W2D, so 10 days behind. But everyone at the RE's office was jubilant, we received a photo of our bean and my hopes just soared. Last Tuesday I went for my third ultrasound and we were back to just the gestational sac. I was devastated beyond belief. I opted to take cytotec to avoid a D&C and took the first dose that evening. It did not work and I took the second dose the following day again with no results. On Thursday I returned for an ultrasound to see the gestational sac still in place and so I had a D&C last Friday. I am alternately numb, devastated, crazy emotional and feeling somewhat hopeless. We are waiting on my hCG to drop (from 59,000 where it was the day before my D&C, it is 3400 as of Monday) to 0 so that we can begin more rounds of genetic testing. All of my lab work prior to our IUI (FSH AMH, genetic testing, clotting factor) was perfect and so I feel like I've been blindsided. I realize that I'm giving the extremely streamlined version of events but it's all I can manage at this time. I so my acupuncturist today and she is amazing and acts as a counselor as well so I feel more positive than I have previously, I'm also going to see the counselor that works with my RE's office because I don't think I've ever dealt with anything this difficult.