Well, I guess it is time for me to make my intro here. I found out that my pregnancy had come to an end this past Thursday. I went to the ER Thursday evening after starting to bleed on Wednesday. I got an ultrasound that showed no HB at 7 weeks of development when I should have been almost 10 weeks.
I've been pretty numb since I found out. I've cried, but more than that I just feel empty inside. DH has been feeling the same way I think. We ate dinner on Friday in complete silence. It's going to take some time to work through this, but we are both feeling a little better today.
Physically, I feel fine. I'm bleeding quite a bit (not emergency levels though) and have just minor cramping. I go on Monday to see my OB for a follow up ultrasound and exam and to talk about where we go from here. I'm going to have weekly blood draws until my beta levels are back to zero.
Sorry this is so long. It feels good just to get it all out though. I'm sorry that you all have to be here, but I am happy that there is a place where we can support each other.
DS (our little Clomid miracle) born Sept. 25, 2012 Baby #2 lost at 8w3d on March 4, 2015 (EDD Oct. 11, 2015) Baby #3 lost at 5w2d on April 16, 2015 (EDD Dec. 15, 2015) Baby #4 lost at 4w1d on May 20, 2015 (EDD Jan. 25, 2016) DS2 (our little rainbow miracle) born May 25, 2016
I'm sorry for your loss and your feelings are normal. I hate that anyone is here, but welcome. We all know and understand what you're going through and are here when you need us *hug*
Married 01-04-2013 *AMA* 40 in June 2015 **1-19-15 Childless, not by choice" 1st EDD- 12-02-13 MC 5/1/13 @4w6d 2nd EDD 11-13-14 MC 4/15/14: discovered 1st twin @5w 2nd twin @10w 3Rd BFP- 10-10-14 EDD 6/16/15: MC 10-16-14 @5w2d
Post by snakefisherbub on Mar 7, 2015 19:31:52 GMT -5
I am so sorry for your loss. I understand completely about feeling empty inside. I am a week out from my loss and I still feel that way. Big hugs for you.
Me-35 DH-36 Married since 9/21/2013 DX- Me- PCOS + MTHFR, DH- Perfect and Proven
TTC since 2007 (with a 2.5 year break due to "life restructuring") All BFN's until May 2014 (mc at 5w) and Oct 2014 (mc at 11w3d, 12/16/14), includes 2 failed medicated IUI cycles and 3 failed TI medicated cycles since May 2014
Totally understand the feeling of numbness and emptiness - all very normal. As painful and dark it was, what helped me through was allowing myself to mourn and feel sad for as long as it took, before I could move on and start trying again. This board is extremely understanding and patient - I hope you find comfort here.
I'm sorry for your loss. How are you feeling today? The first few days were the hardest for me.
Thanks for asking vballbaby. Physically, I'm feeling fine today with just mild to moderate cramps. I'm not doing as well emotionally.
I know some women really want a natural miscarriage at home as opposed to a D&C. I really did not and hoped to have a D&C early this week. Well, I had a natural miscarriage last night at home. I don't even know what to say about that experience except that I don't ever want to do that again. I really thought DH was going to pass out. I just need some time to process what happened, but I think I will eventually feel some closure with the way things happened.
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