WTF appt. / D&E pathology results.
Apr 1, 2015 19:01:27 GMT -5
Post by crazycatlady6 on Apr 1, 2015 19:01:27 GMT -5
Today was my WTF appt after my D&E two weeks ago. I had a beautiful perfect baby girl in which there is no medical explanation why I m/c. I knew it was a girl from the beginning since we did the PGS testing. What I didn't realize is that they only test a few cells of the embryo which could be fine, but there still could be an abnormality. Rare,but can happen just not in my case. They also tested the genes in those chromosomes as well and all was fine there.
Of course I am relieved there was nothing going on where I need to be concerned for future pregnancies but I am frustrated and having a really hard time processing the fact that I will never know what caused my daughter's heart to stop beating. My RE's best guess is that my body treated the body as a foreign object and created antibodies to attack it. My RE also confided in me that she had a m/c with no medical explanation and acknowledged how frustrating it was for her as well.
I will be doing a different protocol which will involve no medication leading up to the transfer of embie #2 since my body produces enough progesterone and estrogen on its own. I also have normal cycles and my body has responded very well to meds which is why my RE recommended this option.
The timeline is waiting for AF to arrive in 2-4 weeks, go on BC. Do sonogram to make sure no pollups have grown back (I've had 2 surgeries to remove pollups already).
Wait for another AF cycle, go off BC and through blood work, wait for ovulation.
Take trigger HCG, wait 5 days, transfer.
During 2WW and beyond (hopefully), take progesterone as well as a steroid and a blood thinner to reduce the chances of my body not treating the baby like a foreign object and creating antibodies to get rid of it.
All in all, it looks like June before anything will happen or longer if I am not ready emotionally. Not sure at this point since I'm still having more rough days than good days still. It didn't help that when I told my mother today, I started crying out of frustration and she couldn't understand why I was crying and that I should be happy that the results came back normal. It just brings everything back up from the past couple of months as well as the past year of fertility treatments.
Of course I am relieved there was nothing going on where I need to be concerned for future pregnancies but I am frustrated and having a really hard time processing the fact that I will never know what caused my daughter's heart to stop beating. My RE's best guess is that my body treated the body as a foreign object and created antibodies to attack it. My RE also confided in me that she had a m/c with no medical explanation and acknowledged how frustrating it was for her as well.
I will be doing a different protocol which will involve no medication leading up to the transfer of embie #2 since my body produces enough progesterone and estrogen on its own. I also have normal cycles and my body has responded very well to meds which is why my RE recommended this option.
The timeline is waiting for AF to arrive in 2-4 weeks, go on BC. Do sonogram to make sure no pollups have grown back (I've had 2 surgeries to remove pollups already).
Wait for another AF cycle, go off BC and through blood work, wait for ovulation.
Take trigger HCG, wait 5 days, transfer.
During 2WW and beyond (hopefully), take progesterone as well as a steroid and a blood thinner to reduce the chances of my body not treating the baby like a foreign object and creating antibodies to get rid of it.
All in all, it looks like June before anything will happen or longer if I am not ready emotionally. Not sure at this point since I'm still having more rough days than good days still. It didn't help that when I told my mother today, I started crying out of frustration and she couldn't understand why I was crying and that I should be happy that the results came back normal. It just brings everything back up from the past couple of months as well as the past year of fertility treatments.