Post by crazycatlady6 on Apr 6, 2015 11:23:20 GMT -5
So I'm at my parents for the week and have a lot of fun things planned with mom. My dad and I have always had a rocky relationship and he pissed me off something major today.
My mother has a counseling session with her therapist today and she asked me multiple times over the last week if I want to go to her appointment with her. No, thank you. She mentioned it to me again this morning and I told her that if I do speak to someone, I want to talk to someone who has personal experience so she can relate. I also told her that I have been meeting up with a friend once a week who has struggled with infertility and had 2 losses and she has given me some great insight.
Then my father tells me that I need to go since I'm overreacting about the whole thing and 2 big red flags are that I named my daughter and I bought a necklace that is a butterfly with a heart in the middle and a halo to remember her. He also claimed that I am not moving on with my life. I had my D&E less than 3 weeks ago.
My personal beliefs are that she had a heartbeat and was a living being. It doesn't matter that she never took a step on this Earth. Yes, I am handling it different than my parents did when they had their miscarriage back 40 years ago. Theirs was a surprise pregnancy, they miscarried, then they got pregnant 2 months later and had my sister. They did not have the infertility issues. At this point, I have 4 years, multiple treatments and multiple surgeries invested into trying to have a baby.
He wouldn't let it go, even when I told him the answer is no and time to drop the subject. Thankfully, I had my running gear on and told them it was time for my run and I was going to the park. Now I am sitting here after my run killing time until the appointment so I don't try to get pressured into going when I get back.
I am not back at work yet which I think that is part of what my dad is referring to. I took a leave of absence when I was having complications in the pregnancy and took leave until the beginning of May. I could go back if I wanted to but I am taking some time for me. I have another musical that starts in 2 weeks, I am training for a half marathon the first weekend in May, and I am meeting up with friends for lunch on a regular basis. I am also doing massive spring cleaning to our house since MH and I haven't had the time or energy to go through things in quite some time and we ran out of space to put things. I still cry on occasion but that is normal.
Thanks for letting me vent.
My mother has a counseling session with her therapist today and she asked me multiple times over the last week if I want to go to her appointment with her. No, thank you. She mentioned it to me again this morning and I told her that if I do speak to someone, I want to talk to someone who has personal experience so she can relate. I also told her that I have been meeting up with a friend once a week who has struggled with infertility and had 2 losses and she has given me some great insight.
Then my father tells me that I need to go since I'm overreacting about the whole thing and 2 big red flags are that I named my daughter and I bought a necklace that is a butterfly with a heart in the middle and a halo to remember her. He also claimed that I am not moving on with my life. I had my D&E less than 3 weeks ago.
My personal beliefs are that she had a heartbeat and was a living being. It doesn't matter that she never took a step on this Earth. Yes, I am handling it different than my parents did when they had their miscarriage back 40 years ago. Theirs was a surprise pregnancy, they miscarried, then they got pregnant 2 months later and had my sister. They did not have the infertility issues. At this point, I have 4 years, multiple treatments and multiple surgeries invested into trying to have a baby.
He wouldn't let it go, even when I told him the answer is no and time to drop the subject. Thankfully, I had my running gear on and told them it was time for my run and I was going to the park. Now I am sitting here after my run killing time until the appointment so I don't try to get pressured into going when I get back.
I am not back at work yet which I think that is part of what my dad is referring to. I took a leave of absence when I was having complications in the pregnancy and took leave until the beginning of May. I could go back if I wanted to but I am taking some time for me. I have another musical that starts in 2 weeks, I am training for a half marathon the first weekend in May, and I am meeting up with friends for lunch on a regular basis. I am also doing massive spring cleaning to our house since MH and I haven't had the time or energy to go through things in quite some time and we ran out of space to put things. I still cry on occasion but that is normal.
Thanks for letting me vent.