Intro (LC mentioned tangentially)
Jan 20, 2015 18:11:46 GMT -5
Post by doublegator on Jan 20, 2015 18:11:46 GMT -5
Hi everyone! I have been lurking (here and at TB) since my diagnosis with a missed miscarriage on 12/29, so I thought it might be time to introduce myself.
I got my BFP on November 9, the day after my grandmother passed away. I felt like something was off from the beginning, but I convinced myself that it was just the mixed emotions because losing my grandmother and finding out we were pregnant happened so close together. However, I was diagnosed with a missed miscarriage at my 12 week appointment. It appeared that the baby stopped growing between 6 and 7 weeks and there was no heartbeat. At the first appointment, they discussed possible options, but I was in disbelief and denial and not really able to process anything that day. I went in for a second ultrasound (to convince myself that this was really happening) on 1/2 and I was given Mysopropol to induce a miscarriage. I started bleeding heavily and passing tissue, but when I went in for my follow-up on 1/5, they found retained tissue and I was admitted to have a D&C later that day. Subsequent to the D&C, I had bleeding varying from spotting to heavy bleeding while passing clots/tissue (never bleeding enough to justify going to the doctor or ER, though I did call).
I went in for my two-week follow up today (still bleeding heavily and passing tissue) and the ultrasound showed some sort of mass, which they believe was the cause of the miscarriage and the continued bleeding. The mass has blood flow, but they (the OBGYN, ultrasound tech and nurse) seemed perplexed as to what it could be. The OBGYN mentioned that it could be a polyp that developed due to a small amount of retained placenta from my first pregnancy, a possible inflammation from an infection (I have no other symptoms - no fever, etc.) or a result of endometriosis. They also found a cyst on my right ovary that they believe may be a normal pregnancy supporting cyst that just hasn't gone away yet. And, to top it off, they found a few cysts on the left ovary that they think could be several eggs developing simultaneously or could be small cysts due to some diagnosed condition. I am now on a round of antibiotics to address the possible infection and am starting birth control to try and even the hormones out and stop the bleeding so they can perform a hysteroscopy to address the mass and cysts. I have a follow up ultrasound in one week and we will hopefully be scheduling the hysteroscopy at that appointment.
I went into the visit today just wanting to be finished. I want to stop bleeding and begin healing physically and emotionally (and start TTC when we are cleared to do so). I just feel so drained and the uncertainty of what is wrong is really difficult for me to deal with. My DH doesn't understand why I feel that way (after all, it could be totally benign), so I thought today was a good day to intro and get some support from those who have had similar experiences. I also have found that I am having some body image issues since my diagnosis. I gained five pounds during the pregnancy and it hasn't gone away (which I know intellectually is fine and normal), but I think the general feeling of my body not working properly is being reflected in the way I feel about my body image. Overall, these past weeks have been a very difficult time.
If you have made it through my novel, thank you! I just had so much built up inside and needed somewhere to let it out. Thank you for providing a safe place to do that.
I got my BFP on November 9, the day after my grandmother passed away. I felt like something was off from the beginning, but I convinced myself that it was just the mixed emotions because losing my grandmother and finding out we were pregnant happened so close together. However, I was diagnosed with a missed miscarriage at my 12 week appointment. It appeared that the baby stopped growing between 6 and 7 weeks and there was no heartbeat. At the first appointment, they discussed possible options, but I was in disbelief and denial and not really able to process anything that day. I went in for a second ultrasound (to convince myself that this was really happening) on 1/2 and I was given Mysopropol to induce a miscarriage. I started bleeding heavily and passing tissue, but when I went in for my follow-up on 1/5, they found retained tissue and I was admitted to have a D&C later that day. Subsequent to the D&C, I had bleeding varying from spotting to heavy bleeding while passing clots/tissue (never bleeding enough to justify going to the doctor or ER, though I did call).
I went in for my two-week follow up today (still bleeding heavily and passing tissue) and the ultrasound showed some sort of mass, which they believe was the cause of the miscarriage and the continued bleeding. The mass has blood flow, but they (the OBGYN, ultrasound tech and nurse) seemed perplexed as to what it could be. The OBGYN mentioned that it could be a polyp that developed due to a small amount of retained placenta from my first pregnancy, a possible inflammation from an infection (I have no other symptoms - no fever, etc.) or a result of endometriosis. They also found a cyst on my right ovary that they believe may be a normal pregnancy supporting cyst that just hasn't gone away yet. And, to top it off, they found a few cysts on the left ovary that they think could be several eggs developing simultaneously or could be small cysts due to some diagnosed condition. I am now on a round of antibiotics to address the possible infection and am starting birth control to try and even the hormones out and stop the bleeding so they can perform a hysteroscopy to address the mass and cysts. I have a follow up ultrasound in one week and we will hopefully be scheduling the hysteroscopy at that appointment.
I went into the visit today just wanting to be finished. I want to stop bleeding and begin healing physically and emotionally (and start TTC when we are cleared to do so). I just feel so drained and the uncertainty of what is wrong is really difficult for me to deal with. My DH doesn't understand why I feel that way (after all, it could be totally benign), so I thought today was a good day to intro and get some support from those who have had similar experiences. I also have found that I am having some body image issues since my diagnosis. I gained five pounds during the pregnancy and it hasn't gone away (which I know intellectually is fine and normal), but I think the general feeling of my body not working properly is being reflected in the way I feel about my body image. Overall, these past weeks have been a very difficult time.
If you have made it through my novel, thank you! I just had so much built up inside and needed somewhere to let it out. Thank you for providing a safe place to do that.