Hello - new here:)
Apr 13, 2015 16:14:18 GMT -5
Post by muscari on Apr 13, 2015 16:14:18 GMT -5
New to the forum so a bit of an introduction is in order. 
I originally posted one in the Newbie Introductions but figured it may be nice to post one in the subfora as well so here's a more extensive hello (crossposting -slightly different versions- to TTC>35 and Pregnancy Loss)!
I go under the nickname muscari - a play-on-words of one of my husbands Dutch petnames for me plus I love the little bulbflowers! - and hail from The Netherlands where I live in one of the larger cities of the country together with my husband and a bunch of kittycats. I'm in my late 30s, the hubs will be turning 50 later this year. We've been together for little over 8 years and had originally planned to start ttc after getting married in 2010 but unfortunately we ended up having to postpone for several years due to my heart arrythmia issues [underwent 3 ablations surgeries over the course of 2 years, am happy to say three seems to have been the charm and am doing much better these days and have managed to stay med-free since].
Late summer 2013 we finally got the a-okay to start ttc and I went off BC right away. Had regular cycles within 1,5 month and we've been ttc since. Not much luck though.. Fall 2014 our GP suggested to refer us to a fertility clinic as we'd been at it for a year. While in the hospital mill for my heart issues I also been diagnosed with sub-clinical hypotheyroidism, so I've had yearly bloodtests for that. Last one came back pretty normal according to my GP so that shouldn't be playing a roll with the not-getting-pregnant or so she said - I have to admit I wasn't too sure myself and was jhoping/planning on getting things checked more thoroughly once we hit the fertility clinic. Due to life being quite chaotic with lots going on within our family as well as at work/studies, we figured we were already under enough stress and decided to wait till the New Year for that.
We had just discussed making the appointment at the fertility clinic after my next period when low and behold; early January I got my first ever BFP! I could hardly believe it, and it's taken me 7 hpts over the course of 4 days to believe it wasn't a faulty test
It wasn't until the CBdigital said 'pregnant' that I decided I really had to be pregnant haha. Sadly this pregnany ended in a loss; during our 9wk U/S there was no heartbeat to be found and the baby measured a lot smaller then it should have. Out of the three options we were given, we opted for the medically assisted miscarriage (cycotec) and the hubs&I got through that together in the comfort of our own home. Unfortunately this miscarriage was incomplete and things didn't progress as we hoped the weeks after so 3,5 weeks later I had to undergo a d/c after all. I felt really disappointed about that cause we had chosen cytotec partly also cause we really wanted to prevent a d/c, but at the same time I was glad that I could finally put the physical part of the mc behind me and move on to the next phase so to speak. I'm currently 6 weeks post-d/c and have my check up appointment with the ob/gyn who performed the d/c tomorrow.
These past weeks have been an emotional (and physical) rollercoaster. The whole MC sure threw me for a loop and has made this whole TTC and pregnancy thing quite confusing to me emotionally.. I find it difficult to talk about certain things with those closer to me, and so I'm reaching out online now. I used to be on TB/TD for a while but just when all the drama took place I was taking a break from the internet and when I came back after the MC it just didn't feel like home no more so I'm glad I found this site now. I am looking forward getting to know you and all
(edited: typos suck!)
I originally posted one in the Newbie Introductions but figured it may be nice to post one in the subfora as well so here's a more extensive hello (crossposting -slightly different versions- to TTC>35 and Pregnancy Loss)!I go under the nickname muscari - a play-on-words of one of my husbands Dutch petnames for me plus I love the little bulbflowers!
- and hail from The Netherlands where I live in one of the larger cities of the country together with my husband and a bunch of kittycats. I'm in my late 30s, the hubs will be turning 50 later this year. We've been together for little over 8 years and had originally planned to start ttc after getting married in 2010 but unfortunately we ended up having to postpone for several years due to my heart arrythmia issues [underwent 3 ablations surgeries over the course of 2 years, am happy to say three seems to have been the charm and am doing much better these days and have managed to stay med-free since].Late summer 2013 we finally got the a-okay to start ttc and I went off BC right away. Had regular cycles within 1,5 month and we've been ttc since. Not much luck though.. Fall 2014 our GP suggested to refer us to a fertility clinic as we'd been at it for a year. While in the hospital mill for my heart issues I also been diagnosed with sub-clinical hypotheyroidism, so I've had yearly bloodtests for that. Last one came back pretty normal according to my GP so that shouldn't be playing a roll with the not-getting-pregnant or so she said - I have to admit I wasn't too sure myself and was jhoping/planning on getting things checked more thoroughly once we hit the fertility clinic. Due to life being quite chaotic with lots going on within our family as well as at work/studies, we figured we were already under enough stress and decided to wait till the New Year for that.
We had just discussed making the appointment at the fertility clinic after my next period when low and behold; early January I got my first ever BFP! I could hardly believe it, and it's taken me 7 hpts over the course of 4 days to believe it wasn't a faulty test
It wasn't until the CBdigital said 'pregnant' that I decided I really had to be pregnant haha. Sadly this pregnany ended in a loss; during our 9wk U/S there was no heartbeat to be found and the baby measured a lot smaller then it should have. Out of the three options we were given, we opted for the medically assisted miscarriage (cycotec) and the hubs&I got through that together in the comfort of our own home. Unfortunately this miscarriage was incomplete and things didn't progress as we hoped the weeks after so 3,5 weeks later I had to undergo a d/c after all. I felt really disappointed about that cause we had chosen cytotec partly also cause we really wanted to prevent a d/c, but at the same time I was glad that I could finally put the physical part of the mc behind me and move on to the next phase so to speak. I'm currently 6 weeks post-d/c and have my check up appointment with the ob/gyn who performed the d/c tomorrow.These past weeks have been an emotional (and physical) rollercoaster. The whole MC sure threw me for a loop and has made this whole TTC and pregnancy thing quite confusing to me emotionally.. I find it difficult to talk about certain things with those closer to me, and so I'm reaching out online now. I used to be on TB/TD for a while but just when all the drama took place I was taking a break from the internet and when I came back after the MC it just didn't feel like home no more so I'm glad I found this site now. I am looking forward getting to know you and all
(edited: typos suck!)
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