The 14 day agonizing nerve wracking mindfuck 5/18-5/25

[vh2014]

tat2mami, GRRRRRRRR.... all the ice cream, wine, chocolate, or whatever indulgence of choice you like to you.

luvmyponies, FX....and I get it, I'm the google queen.

[lennonkdc]

luvmyponies, I've got everything crossed you!! and I am right there with you! I keep googling "high temp 9dpo" "10dpo" etc....

I woke up feeling like AF is on her way soon, but my temp was still high today, and I was so tempted to test this AM. I am holding off for a few reasons. I want to avoid the heartbreak of a CP, and we're seeing ILs tonight, My parents tomorrow and I suck a secret keeping, and it wouldn't even be able to call my Midwife till Tuesday anyway. But mostly I don't want to test until I'm 'late' because right now I like feeling like there's still a chance I could be KU...I don't know if that makes sense, but I like living in my little "maybe I have a chance" world right now...

[wannabmama]

lennonkdc I totally do that...it's the only way I can postpone POAS, if I get a bfn I know I'll miss the "what if" and "maybe" thoughts. Good luck to you and luvmyponies and everyone still in the running!!

[luvmyponies]

lennonkdc That's totally what keeps me from testing too... I feel like nothing good can come of testing too early. If I get a positive, I'll just worry that my beta will be low and it won't be viable anyway, if I get a negative I'll be devastated. As excruciating as this wait is, in a strange way I like living in my little world where there's still hope...

[lennonkdc]

vh2014, totally chart stalking- YAY a high temp again today!! So hopeful you get solid CH's soon!!

[vh2014]

May 21, 2015 8:05:57 GMT -5 lennonkdc said:

vh2014, totally chart stalking- YAY a high temp again today!! So hopeful you get solid CH's soon!!

Is it sad that the temp TOTALLY made my day?  I won't get solid CHs because I didn't track other symptoms.  I did have EWCM about that time followed by non EW but I can't remember what day and I was in a bleh mood so I didn't mark it.  Sooooooo kicking myself for that. 

[lennonkdc]

luvmyponies, wannabmama, I'm glad I'm not the only one who likes living in my own little 'what if' world.

[lennonkdc]

May 21, 2015 8:10:58 GMT -5 vh2014 said:

May 21, 2015 8:05:57 GMT -5 lennonkdc said:

vh2014, totally chart stalking- YAY a high temp again today!! So hopeful you get solid CH's soon!!

Is it sad that the temp TOTALLY made my day?  I won't get solid CHs because I didn't track other symptoms.  I did have EWCM about that time followed by non EW but I can't remember what day and I was in a bleh mood so I didn't mark it.  Sooooooo kicking myself for that. 

Not at all! I was so excited that my temp was still high today too. In my prev tracked cycles my temp dives below cover the day before AF, but this one was still high so I feel like I still have a chance...

[vh2014]

lennonkdc, I know the one dip temp is an open circle for you, but when I pulled up this thread and looked at your chart in the signature I thought, "what a beautiful triphasic chart". Yeah... IF and TTC definitely changes your outlook on what beautiful is. LOL.

FX yours stays up too!

[lennonkdc]

vh2014, Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and I love beholding high temp charts in this group!! The open circle was a temp taken much earlier than normal (damn cat that HAD to be fed at 5:15am...) 

ETA- or if I was a troll, then that temp is tots an 'implantation dip' and I should start working on the nursery...

[vh2014]

lennonkdc, FFFC... I'm a dirty chart stalker. LOL... I see you are up again today (me too). I seemed to remember a test in your future.... or are you just enjoying the temps and the possibility for your bday weekend?

[lennonkdc]

vh2014, I was chart stalking you today too YAY 5DPO!!!

Today I am enjoying the high temp and the possibility. I might test tomorrow, if my temp is still high...I honestly haven't decided when to test yet... I've only been using FF for a few months, and it predicted today would be CD1, based on a 10 day LP. When I entered my temp it gave me today as a suggested test date. I've also been using Oviuview for a few years and its predicting CD1 tomorrow based on an 11 LP. Both apps say I have an average 12 day LP, so IDK... I think I might wait to see what happens this weekend and maybe test Monday, which would be 14dpo.

WWTTC>35 do?

[vh2014]

lennonkdc, If it wasn't my birthday I would totally just do like luvmyponies mentioned above and enjoy the hope. BUT if it WAS my birthday (not like it's anyone we know's birthday) I'd test if I decided to go crazy wild celebratory.

I'm doing the happy dance for both of us...but cautiously for myself. Prepping that a small dip in the next few days is normal and ok, glad that I see my acupuncturist today, and not counting it as "real" TWW until I hit 8dpo and it's still up there. At this point in my journey AF will make me happy too (obviously BFP would make me happier) so... we'll see.

[lennonkdc]

vh2014, I'm not planning on going wild, maybe a glass of wine with dinner. I just worry that at only 11DPO the tests wouldn't be that accurate yet... or maybe I'm just feeling a bit scared to see a BFN...

[mom2boxers]

May 22, 2015 8:37:47 GMT -5 lennonkdc said:

vh2014, I'm not planning on going wild, maybe a glass of wine with dinner. I just worry that at only 11DPO the tests wouldn't be that accurate yet... or maybe I'm just feeling a bit scared to see a BFN...

On my first go round, I think I got a squinter on 10 DPO using a FRER. By 12 DPO, it was dark enough, you knew it was there. But I have no willpower when it comes to POAS.

GL with whatever you decide.

[wannabmama]

lennonkdc it's a tough spot, you're right you're on the early side right now, but you're definitely in the window where lots of people test...and a bfn today wouldn't mean you're out (for better or worse). I can definitely see waiting today and just enjoying the Bday...but I think if temp is up tomorrow, I would POAS. I'd never be able to wait to 14DPO...I thought I was patient person but not when it comes to POAS!! Ha!

[vh2014]

May 22, 2015 8:37:47 GMT -5 lennonkdc said:

vh2014, I'm not planning on going wild, maybe a glass of wine with dinner. I just worry that at only 11DPO the tests wouldn't be that accurate yet... or maybe I'm just feeling a bit scared to see a BFN...

At 11DPO a glass of wine wouldn't make me feel guilty if it came up positive later.  It's tricky call... if DID test I'd definitely uses a FRER not a cheapie.  But I think you should just go with your gut.  Maybe a birthday isn't exactly the best time to test... 


I am like mom2boxers... no will power.  I have put myself on POAS restriction though and won't buy one before 12DPO so that I have to wait to 13 or 14... but if I find one laying around the house all bets are off.... 

[mom2boxers]

Has anyone ever picked up the quick response ones that are made by First Response? I saw them and thought "Yay! They process in 60 seconds. This has to be better than waiting 3 minutes for results", but then I read the box further when I got home and realized you had to wait until the day of your missed period for them to work the best. I returned those the next day. They would have required me to be patient and that wasn't happening.

[lennonkdc]

Since it's also a big moment for MH, I know I want him to be here with me when I test, so I think that if my temp is up tomorrow AM I will test with the FRER I have (shoved in the back of my linen closet where I am trying to forget it exists...) in the morning.

Thanks as always for the feedback ladies

[callmeKD]

so, just like last month, I'm slightly crampy but AF hasn't started yet. Today should be CD2. I have wine and tampons packed for the weekend at the cabin. Wondering if I should bring a stick to pee on too.....

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lennonkdc, not gonna lie, if I didn't know how long my lp was I'd test today and everyday until a clear BFP or red flow. I get not wanting to mess with your birthday vibe, but not really as you don't know your typical lp... so for me a negative wouldn't be too upsetting. best wishes for a great day/weekend, etc1

[wirt2cute]

vh2014, I am totally chart stalking. Yay for 5dpo!
lennonkdc, I will be stalking waiting for your update. Your chart is very pretty.
callmeKD, have fun this weekend at the cabin.


I am pretty sure that the estradiol gave me a yeast infection. That damn little blue pill. I called my nurse and she said I could switch from vaginally to orally and get some monistat cream.

[lennonkdc]

Well, my temp was still high this AM so I broke down and used that FRER. BFN... I know I'm not out till I'm out, but I have a feeling I'll be sticking around here for another cycle

luvmyponies, I have all my fingers and toes crossed for you tomorrow!!!

[wirt2cute]

lennonkdc sorry about the bfn. But like you said your not out until your out. Fx still crossed.

[vh2014]

lennonkdc I am so bummed for you. I logged in just to get the update. Fx is early. Maybe the brought side is longer luteal phase? Trying to be positive.

[wannabmama]

lennonkdc ugh sorry for bfn hope it's just too early!

[lennonkdc]

Thanks wirt2cute, vh2014, & wannabmama,. I'm hoping it was just too early but only time will tell at this point. I thought for sure with today's high temp I'd get a squinter.

**child mentioned**

I'm being comforted by my 7mo 'nephew', whom I'm babysitting while my cousin and her H are at their home inspection. Not as good as a BFP, but I'll take it

[mom2boxers]

bunny - I don't concern my DH with the charting stuff . He just know I'm not on BC. I think it makes it more fun for him.

Sorry about the BFNs bunny & lennonkdc.

[wannabmama]

bunny my DH knows I temp and now is sort of into the info it provides, I only tell him when he asks and slowly he's become more into it. I think it helped not making it a big deal and letting him get used to it. Now he's always asking if it's baby making time ha! In order for it to not be pressure, I use the broadest definition possible for when it could be (about 8 days before I usually O). I hope you can talk to him about it, maybe just suggest trying it for one cycle and see how it goes? Good luck!

[vh2014]

bunny I explained everything to my DH but we don't really talk about it anymore unless there's a major decision he needs to be a post of (like the potential DE discussion). He hears the alarm go off and the beeps of the thermometer, he knows I go to the acupuncturist, knows I take supplements but really doesn't know what and why much anymore. It isn't because he doesn't want a child... the mechanics of the process (except HIO) just don't excite him that much so unless I need his support we just don't talk about it. My mom is a nurse and my sister gets it so I share with them when I need someone to tell me how interesting that all is. Lol