I'm having a moment

[jmc11511]

I've mentioned before my brother and his wife are expecting their first baby. She is due about a month after I was due. From the moment I found out I was pregnant I had a strong feeling that I was having a girl. So did DH. Neither of us had that with my first pregnancy with DS. This is where I sound crazy, but I also had a dream where DH's Uncle who passed away suddenly last fall told me "She's ok." So I have always felt that the baby we lost was a girl. Fast forward to today when my brother texted and said they found out they are having a girl. I fell apart. My baby and theirs would have been almost exactly a month apart. I'm just sad thinking about all of the wonderful experiences we were so looking forward to and this just stings a little more. For the record, I love my sister in law so much and am so thrilled for them. And I'm so excited to be an Aunt. But I'm also just really sad.

[eaglewife]

I'm so sorry, jmc11511. It's so sad and I know that there's nothing that I can say to "make it better." Gentle hugs and hair pats and know that you are not alone. Thinking of you and your baby girl today.

[leahks77]

I'm so sorry. It's so hard. Know that it's okay to have those feelings together. It sucks, but let yourself feel what you need to. You will be an amazing aunt to this little one, but it's okay to be so sad for you too. ((Hugs)) because this is such a hard spot to be in...

[ls2012]

I'm so sorry, jmc11511. There's no good way to hear news like that. It's totally normal to feel conflicted. Big hugs to you.

[soultrane]

jmc11511, it's so tough to imagine what might have been. Just know that you aren't alone and that you are going to be an awesome aunt to that little one. Big hugs!

[jmc11511]

Thanks for the kind words everyone. It's just sort of a "salt in the wound" kind of thing. And thanks for not thinking I'm crazy with the dream thing. I don't tell many people about that IRL because it sounds insane. It was actually a really calming, reassuring experience when it happened. And it brings me peace and comfort to think about that on days like today.

[boobacat]

I'm sorry, although pregnancies of others are wonderful they can stir emotions and it makes it hard. Thinking of you today.

[Ace]

I'm so sorry. ((Hugs))

[PiradicalMaid]

I'm sorry you're having a tough moment. Of course that stung. I think we all think about the might-have-beens.

I've had dreams that my deceased grandparents have appeared in and whether or not that was actually communication with them, I like to think that it was, and it gives me peace. So I don't think you're crazy at all.

[ellebelle]

I'm so sorry. I don't think you're crazy for having that feeling. I always "knew" my first loss was a boy. Trust your intuition. ((hugs)) for the tough reminders.

[fabk]

Big big hugs.

[garnetter]

I'm sorry to hear that. Ofc there's still pain but just dont give up.

[rosiejames]

Hey girl, don’t worry. You do not sound crazy at all you pretty woman. It is totally okay to feel this way. Keep your hopes high. You will have your baby one day soon. Don’t frustrate and stress. Stay happy as this also affects the conceiving factor. You will be an amazing aunt to this little one, but it's okay to be so sad for you too because this is such a hard spot to be in.