Post by rae80407 on Aug 2, 2015 0:41:12 GMT -5
Hey everybody, I have been m.i.a. for awhile. I just wanted to check in with all of you wonderful ppl, see how you all were doing and let you all know the same.
So some of you may remember, @usernameedit thank you for checking on me btw
that I was having some issues with anxiety and depression flare ups and had went the route to begin CBT. My first real appointment isn't until the 10th of August so no update there just yet. As far as the a&d I have been doing a lot of self work and seem to have gotten back on a good track for the moment. I have been keeping my house clean, cooking (both things I enjoy) I notice that I'm singing again while doing these things and having a lot more laughter. My relationship with my fi is much better right now. We had a long talk about my feelings as well as his and we seem to be flowing nicely together for right now.
As for why I haven't been around, at first it was for me, I needed to step back from internety things and focus on pulling enjoyment into my real life, step away from google and constant searching of all of the things online. Then when I had had my little break for my sanity, my internet was down and since I'm 100% mobile 100% of the time, I was out of data. We had a few detrimental expenses that needed to be managed with one of our vehicles, so the cell phone renewals was put on hold while we sorted out more important bills. Then on top of all of that, my future fil has been in the hospital since Monday. He's doing ok but he is diabetic and is being treated for a serious infection on his foot.
So that's where I am. I'm finding a lot of happiness atm and trying to remain positive. I'm trying to keep all negative thoughts away and calm myself down when I need to. I remind myself that I've battled a&d for awhile now and I've won every time so far, there's no need to give up now. I'm still having the fleeting terrifying anxiety about the therapy but I stop it every time I feel it and force positive thoughts. Also, night before last, I couldn't take the elevator on my own, no idea why it just gave me that swooping fear signaling an anxiety attack and I regretfully avoided the whole scenario. Oh well, one day at a time.
I hope all of you are doing well and I want to thank all of you again for your encouragement and support during my dark lonely time. You all helped me put a lot into perspective. I'm glad to be back and able to be active again!
So some of you may remember, @usernameedit thank you for checking on me btw
that I was having some issues with anxiety and depression flare ups and had went the route to begin CBT. My first real appointment isn't until the 10th of August so no update there just yet. As far as the a&d I have been doing a lot of self work and seem to have gotten back on a good track for the moment. I have been keeping my house clean, cooking (both things I enjoy) I notice that I'm singing again while doing these things and having a lot more laughter. My relationship with my fi is much better right now. We had a long talk about my feelings as well as his and we seem to be flowing nicely together for right now.As for why I haven't been around, at first it was for me, I needed to step back from internety things and focus on pulling enjoyment into my real life, step away from google and constant searching of all of the things online. Then when I had had my little break for my sanity, my internet was down and since I'm 100% mobile 100% of the time, I was out of data. We had a few detrimental expenses that needed to be managed with one of our vehicles, so the cell phone renewals was put on hold while we sorted out more important bills. Then on top of all of that, my future fil has been in the hospital since Monday. He's doing ok but he is diabetic and is being treated for a serious infection on his foot.
So that's where I am. I'm finding a lot of happiness atm and trying to remain positive. I'm trying to keep all negative thoughts away and calm myself down when I need to. I remind myself that I've battled a&d for awhile now and I've won every time so far, there's no need to give up now. I'm still having the fleeting terrifying anxiety about the therapy but I stop it every time I feel it and force positive thoughts. Also, night before last, I couldn't take the elevator on my own, no idea why it just gave me that swooping fear signaling an anxiety attack and I regretfully avoided the whole scenario. Oh well, one day at a time.
I hope all of you are doing well and I want to thank all of you again for your encouragement and support during my dark lonely time. You all helped me put a lot into perspective. I'm glad to be back and able to be active again!
