Intro *loss and living child mentioned*

[singingsea]

Hello. My name is Megan. This will be jumbled as my thoughts are all over the place right now.

H and I have been TTC #2 for ten months now. Last Wednesday we got a BFP and we were so happy. Then I started spotting on Monday and I went in for betas that day. My HCG and progesterone levels are very low and was told the pregnancy was not viable and that I would miscarry soon. I've started to bleed now. This is my first loss and I'm not sure what to expect or what this will be like. I'm supposed to be 5 weeks 3 days.

*living child mentioned*

I feel so stupid for telling my two year old about the baby. I was just so excited about it. He is still occasionally asking about the baby and it breaks my heart. I feel like I failed him.

Hugs to everyone here going through a loss.

[doodler]

I am so sorry. So, so sorry. I can't help with what to expect but I am here with hugs.

*Living child mentioned*
My almost two year old son also knew about my pregnancy. He came home one day after hanging out with his cousins and told me there was a baby in his belly. My two nieces love to pretend they are pregnant. I couldn't resist and told him that Mommy had a baby in her belly. Don't beat yourself up about it. You are a wonderful Mom and he is lucky to have you. You did not fail him.

[babyzebra]

I'm really sorry for your loss. ((Hugs))


*LC mentioned*

I'm so sorry for what you're going through with telling your DS. I didn't experience that with my losses because my DS is too young to understand, but I do understand the incredible guilt and the feeling of failing your child by having a loss. It's a really emotionally complicated place to be in. singingsea and doodler (and anyone else in this situation) you should join us in the Loss after Living Children board. It's a sub board in Parenting after Loss. We're a small, but supportive group.

[singingsea]

Sept 16, 2015 7:48:16 GMT -5 doodler said:

I am so sorry. So, so sorry. I can't help with what to expect but I am here with hugs.

*Living child mentioned*
My almost two year old son also knew about my pregnancy. He came home one day after hanging out with his cousins and told me there was a baby in his belly. My two nieces love to pretend they are pregnant. I couldn't resist and told him that Mommy had a baby in her belly. Don't beat yourself up about it. You are a wonderful Mom and he is lucky to have you. You did not fail him.

Thank you. I wish I never told him. I feel like I got his hopes up. He was so excited. He was convinced he was getting a baby sister. Next time I don't think I'm going to say anything until after the 20 week anatomy scan.

[singingsea]

Sept 16, 2015 8:29:56 GMT -5 babyzebra said:

I'm really sorry for your loss. ((Hugs))


*LC mentioned*

I'm so sorry for what you're going through with telling your DS. I didn't experience that with my losses because my DS is too young to understand, but I do understand the incredible guilt and the feeling of failing your child by having a loss. It's a really emotionally complicated place to be in. singingsea and doodler (and anyone else in this situation) you should join us in the Loss after Living Children board. It's a sub board in Parenting after Loss. We're a small, but supportive group.

Thank you I'll definitely check it out.

[hollyberry]

I am sorry for your loss, I also have no advice as with both my losses were a bit further along and I had D&Cs. Don't quote me on this but as far as I have read, it will be likely like a heaver AF, with cramps I am sure. I dont know exactly how long you would normally bleed for. I have also read that if you go through a pad a hour you should call your dr. I am sorry I am not too helpful. Imhope others will beable to give you better advice. Plenty of hugs!

[singingsea]

Sept 17, 2015 9:57:03 GMT -5 hollyberry said:

I am sorry for your loss, I also have no advice as with both my losses were a bit further along and I had D&Cs. Don't quote me on this but as far as I have read, it will be likely like a heaver AF, with cramps I am sure. I dont know exactly how long you would normally bleed for. I have also read that if you go through a pad a hour you should call your dr. I am sorry I am not too helpful. Imhope others will beable to give you better advice. Plenty of hugs!

Thanks. I started to miscarry last night. It was like a horrible period. I think I passed most of it last night but I'm still bleeding this morning. I have an appointment with my OB today so hopefully I'll learn some more information.

[hollyberry]

singingsea, thats good you have an appointment today and you can get all your questions asked! Good luck and keep us updated!

[likethewheels]

I'm so sorry you're going through this, singingsea. Please don't feel like you failed your son - it's only natural to want to share these things with the people we love the most. ((Hugs))

[Deleted]

I'm so so sorry you're going through this. The Advice and Experience sticky at the top might be a good resource. There haven't been a ton of posts on it, but there are still some. Take care.

[singingsea]

Thanks ladies. My OB did an ultrasound today and it looks like I passed everything so I don't require a D&C. She also wants to do some blood tests on CD21 of my next cycle for different hormone levels (progesterone etc.)

[hollyberry]

singingsea, thanks for the update,glad to hearno D &C for you. Take care!

[zimni]

Dear singingsea, so sorry about your loss. Please hang in there. Time heals.
Much love.

[doodler]

singingsea I'm glad to hear that you don't need the D&C. (hugs) and have a nice weekend!