I just need to commiserate with people who know what it's like. I am broken right now. Nothing sounds fun or interesting. I'm not even excited about pumpkins... This probably sounds lame but there's just something about the color of pumpkins that just looking at them makes me so happy every year, and I love carving them for Halloween. This year, nope. I'm slow at work and I always feel like a failure when I'm not busy. Embarrassed and ashamed to ask people for more work. And so stressed and tense about it I pulled something in my neck yesterday and it still hurts today. I'm a mess! I'm at home but should be working or at least doing chores, but I can't bring myself to do anything. Mostly I just hate being broken and I hate knowing it's never going away, I just have to get better at "managing" it.
Post by bocaburger on Oct 30, 2015 15:45:00 GMT -5
@rocknrollfriend, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Mental illness is so hard. I know exactly how you feel. I almost had a panic attack in therapy today and I just finished a nice ugly cry, so I am here to be broken with you. You are a wonderful person, please be kind to yourself. ((((HUGS))))
Thank you bocaburger. I'm sorry you're having a hard time too! I know you know how it feels. Sometimes I feel like the lone weirdo in a sea of normals. And I miss feeling "normal." And I hate dragging my family down with me. I hope you're feeling a little better now that you let it out, and you are being kind to yourself too.
Better today. DS was so excited for Halloween this year, we spent the day doing fun stuff as a family. Three-year-olds are really good at being present and finding joy in the moment.
Better today. DS was so excited for Halloween this year, we spent the day doing fun stuff as a family. Three-year-olds are really good at being present and finding joy in the moment.
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