Tuesday TFAS check-in 4/26

[sleepymonkey]

irish14, I totally understand using possible pregnancy as an excuse to not be healthy. I can't tell you how many times I have started and stopped WW in the past year. I have gained so much weight since having DD 2 years ago but I just keep telling myself it's not worth the struggle to lose weight if I'm just going to GKU again (I lost 70 lbs right before getting pregnant and then gained 50 during pregnancy). But of course now that I'm facing unexplained secondary IF, I can't help but think that maybe my weight is what is causing the problem. I got pregnant with DD in the second cycle when I was a healthy weight but now that I'm 55 lbs heavier, I'm struggling.

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Hugs sleepymonkey this shit is hard

[siouxsieq]

sleepymonkey, irish14, I want to hug you both in solidarity. Sorry for the novel ahead, but you have given me all the feel.s

We started with the RE a few months ago, and while having a game plan is encouraging, hearing the diagnosis was really hard for me. I was diagnosed with IR PCOS, and there is a definite link to obesity there, which just floored me. I keep having these thoughts that I did this to myself. I gained a LOT of weight for kid 1 and only lost about half of it. I'm so mad at myself. So fucking mad. Similarly, DH's current treatment plan involves him cutting alcohol and losing weight and upping his Omega 3s. The fact that our plans to grow our family could possibly be stunted because of our lifestyle is something that just kills me. How did we get here? I would never have described either of us as obese, not in all our years together, and not even now. I'd call us average, but apparently our insides say otherwise.

Having said that, if you're on the fence about seeing an RE, I would highly recommend it. I haven't found it to be nearly as scary as it was in my head, and I really enjoy the personalized attention I am getting. When I go in for appointments, we have my exam and then I get dressed and go sit down with him in his office, and he spends a lot of time explaining things in terms I understand and going over my options. The nurses are very encouraging about me calling any time you have questions (even stuff like charting questions, CM, supplements, anything), and anything they can't answer they have the doctor call you back with. I'm not sure if this is everyone's experience, but mine has been super positive.

On a good note, once I got set up with the Metformin and cutting carbs, the weight has been melting off. I'm down around 15 lbs so far, and it's a great feeling seeing that scale finally budge. I can totally relate to the feeling of backsliding because what's the point if you're going to be pregnant, but then they told me I'd have to continue the Metformin and watching my weight throughout pregnancy as well, so that kind of ended that train of thought for me as well. Just keep swimming.

[siouxsieq]

Apr 27, 2016 8:21:45 GMT -5 @irish said:

I'm late to this! Hi!

Age of LO(s): 5, 3



Cycle/Month: 5/7



CD/DPO: 15/4

**TW: loss mentioned**

RRCS: so many today. Lol. I have a lot on my mind about contacting an RE if this cycle doesn't work out (I'm AMA and have had insanely wonky cycles). I'm feeling some kind of way about the fact that I'll be testing right before Mother's Day. I don't want to be sad that day. I've gained so much weight since my loss, so today is day 1 on WW. I get putting things off like "well if I'm not pregnant this cycle then I will do something about it". But then every time AF came I would just feel sad and not do anything. I decided to stop using possible pregnancy as an excuse to not be healthy bc that's just ridiculous.



GTKY: What's something funny/cute your LO has learned or done recently? 

My 5 yr old lectured me about tossing gum out my car window. For 20 min. She told me I'm ruining the earth and if everyone doesn't take care of the earth we will have to live in a different world. She said next time I need to hold my gum in my mouth and put it in the garbage when I get home. And that when she grows up she will clean the earth. She was pretty pissed about people throwing garbage on the ground lol. It was cute.

In the end, she is right! Lol. I won't be throwing gum out my window anymore that's for sure! Lol

I am convinced that this is how cigarettes will finally become extinct.  Have you ever heard a child shame someone for smoking?  PRICELESS.  Who the hell would ever light up after hearing a lecture like that from an adorable tiny person?!

[amandamh2]

lightside I find myself testing every month or so right now for the slightest thing that might indicate a pregnancy because I don't want to miss it just in case.

BabyStandish my LO currently feeds about 4 times in 24 hours: wake up, nap, bed, and one MOTN. He's down to 5-10 minutes at a time too so both frequency and length have dramatically dropped in the past couple months. Since he's been slowing down on his own I haven't been pushing anything and just hoping soon it will be enough to get my body back in gear.

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siouxsieq so many hugs. Don't be too hard on yourself. I'm so glad to hear how well you're doing!

[lightside]

Apr 27, 2016 15:11:52 GMT -5 amandamh2 said:

lightside I find myself testing every month or so right now for the slightest thing that might indicate a pregnancy because I don't want to miss it just in case.

BabyStandish my LO currently feeds about 4 times in 24 hours: wake up, nap, bed, and one MOTN. He's down to 5-10 minutes at a time too so both frequency and length have dramatically dropped in the past couple months. Since he's been slowing down on his own I haven't been pushing anything and just hoping soon it will be enough to get my body back in gear.

My son also feeds 4 times but not overnight (wake up, after lunch, after work, and bed). I thought having that long stretch at night would get things going but nothing yet after over a month. I'm going to try to drop the after work feed over the next few weeks to get down to a solid 3/day...

[wilmaroo]

Age of LO(s):
Almost 3.5 ahhh
Cycle/Month:
Stopped counting
CD/DPO:
Lately the only way I have a cycle is if it is induced by provera.
RRCS:
Still trying to lose weight to go to RE. Also trying to save $ to go.
GTKY: What's something funny/cute your LO has learned or done recently? He opens the door for me and saying I'm a good helper

[wilmaroo]

Apr 27, 2016 8:48:16 GMT -5 sleepymonkey said:

irish14, I totally understand using possible pregnancy as an excuse to not be healthy. I can't tell you how many times I have started and stopped WW in the past year. I have gained so much weight since having DD 2 years ago but I just keep telling myself it's not worth the struggle to lose weight if I'm just going to GKU again (I lost 70 lbs right before getting pregnant and then gained 50 during pregnancy). But of course now that I'm facing unexplained secondary IF, I can't help but think that maybe my weight is what is causing the problem. I got pregnant with DD in the second cycle when I was a healthy weight but now that I'm 55 lbs heavier, I'm struggling.

I feel like I wrote this!! I was just telling myself I better check when WW auto renews so I can get my shit together or cancel payment.