TTCAL 7/12

[wannabmama]

Oh doodler I'm so sorry. Sending big big hugs.

[jlincoln]

doodler - I'm so sorry...big hugs.
mosdub - good luck on making your decision about your husband's job.
caer - I'm sorry about the baby shower. Those are always so hard, especially around what would have been our due dates. hugs!
ironbaby - hugs, were you put on progesterone for your IUI? I don't think I've every been tested, but for all my medicated cycles (IUI, IVF, I've been put on progesterone).
wannabmama - I bet fall in NE is beautiful!

[jlincoln]

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): TTC

Diagnosis (if applicable): poor quality eggs, thin lining

Updates/questions: CD9 - first cycle after loss. Had an SHG today and it was clear, so that was good. We will do an IUI next month with my left over meds from last IVF.

Debbie downer (a place to vent): I've been seeing a lot of pregnancy announcements on facebook and it's been driving me crazy. I've been hiding a lot of people.

QOTW: What is your favorite season of the year, and why? Spring! I love when the weather is starting to warm up. Fall is a close second, but it's second b/c that means winter is right around the corner.

[ironbaby]

jlincoln, no, my doctor has never mentioned or tested progesterone, not even for my IUI cycle. I am glad your SHG was clear. I have hidden SO many people lately on FB.

[caer]

I'm glad your SHG went well jlincoln! Add me to the hiding people on FB camp. I swear half my newsfeed is hidden these days.

[icedtea]

I've just been defriending people in a big spree. It's been freeing.

[irish14]

doodler no no no I'm so sorry, please take care of yourself and know that we're all here in creepy internet land to support you.

[mosdub]

doodler I'm so sorry. It's not fair. so many hugs.

[doodler]

Thank you everyone for riding that rollercoaster with me yesterday. This morning I am just very sad. DH and I were not kind to each other last night. I was testy and he said a few stupid things that set me off and sent me to my room to cry. That's unusual for us in this situation but luckily we talked this morning and he apologized.

I think this one is hitting me harder than I expected because DH was just so damn happy when I told him. We went out to dinner after I took the test and he had the biggest, goofiest smile on his face the whole time and just kept saying how excited he was. The last few times I got pregnant neither one of us was able to get excited, but this time it felt like more time had passed and we both were thinking this one would be it. **** OPP mentioned**** Also, one of my best friends just got pregnant after her third IVF/FET. They have struggled for so long and it is finally happening for them. We would have been due the same week. I'm so incredibly, over the moon excited for them, but it is just hard to think that our babes would have been born and growing up together and now that won't happen.

Thank you guys for all the love and support.

[ironbaby]

doodler, H and I are in that bickering phase now. The first few days we were incredibly supportive and kind, but now I am, like you said, testy. I am glad you were able to come back together this morning, and I hope you continue to be kind to one another. This is so hard.

[caer]

So many (((hugs))) doodler. I'm sorry for all the pain you and DH are feeling. I got my BFP a couple of days before one of my BFFs and I was so excited that we would have kiddos that would be the same age. It's really hard when you have to mourn not only your loss but all those dreams as well. Sending you love and light.

[mosdub]

doodler it's that much harder when one of your bffs is pregnant at the same time you would have been. I'm just so sorry.

[icedtea]

Hugs doodler, I'm glad you and your H were able to talk. It can be so heartbreaking when someone close is pregnant, even though you're happy for them. It all just sucks.

[wannabmama]

doodler I'm glad you guys talked and he apologized. I'm so sorry you're going through this now.

[akraus2015]

Lurking around and thinking about jumping back in....just wanted to send big huge hugs to doodler .

[akraus2015]

I need to jump back in...my mind is going nuts today and I can't concentrate on work. I at least need to sit here and make it look as if I'm working. :/

How are you doing? Meh.

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): TTC

Diagnosis (if applicable): MTHFR, Unrelated RPL, Unexplained Secondary IF

Updates/questions: Not much, just been kind of hanging out. After 4 failed rounds of Clomid, I finally get to stop taking that evil drug. Going in for a HSG tomorrow, which I'm not at all excited about.

Debbie downer (a place to vent): See above. Our insurance doesn't cover any infertility testing or treatment, so we're paying OOP for everything. The doctor's office called today to tell us the price of the HSG and H and I got into a huge argument about it. Obviously neither of us wants to be spending our money on this, but we have differing opinions of what it means for our current financial situation and how we should adjust.

QOTW: What is your favorite season of the year, and why? Summer or fall. I love summer activities (boating, swimming, etc.), but summer is my busiest time of the year at work. Fall is nice when the weather is still warm during the day and cool in the evenings. I love watching the leaves change.

[irish14]

akraus2015 it's so awful that money has to even be a factor in this process - sorry it made you guys fight.

Last hcg draw for me today, was 3.something last week so this one should be 0. CD1 yesterday. At least it feels like moving forward. My OB is doing the basic labs for repeat losses so we'll see how all that comes out.

***trigger on post-loss testing? Is this a trigger? I'd rather err on giving notice***

We got our chromosomal analysis back on the last mc, it was trisomy 3. It's good to know there was a reason, but I'm hopeful it was just a random error and not some weird genetic thing. Was doing fine until talking to DH about the results and broke down for a minute. Apparently still a little fragile about the whole thing.

I'm starting temping just so I can feel like I'm more in touch with what my ute is doing. Nursed for 20 mins in bed before I remembered though, so if I keep doing that, it's going to be a screwed up chart for sure...

[caer]

I'm sorry for the insurance issues and the fight with your DH akraus2015. I fucking hate the lack of infertility coverage in this country. I hope your HSG goes well. (((Hugs)))

(((Hugs))) irish14.

[wannabmama]

Hugs @samrs22 take care of yourself today, it's a tough reminder but I'm glad you have a great H and friends to help you get through it!