***PgAL/PAIF Check In 08/02***

[littlelion]

Welcome! This is a weekly check in for those of us who are pregnant after loss and/or infertility. This check in is a safe place to share all things that come with being PgAL and/or PAIF, and to give support to others.

***Loss warnings are not necessary here.***
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~~~If You’re Just Joining in This Week~~~
What is your loss and/or IF history?
What is your EDD?
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How far along are you?

How are you doing physically? Emotionally?

Any appointments or milestones this week?

QOTW: What's your favorite way to celebrate (ann, bday)?

mrswillie PgAL / PAIF: 2 M/C, Clomid + TI, DS1 born/2 IUI's = 1 M/C and 1 ectopic, IVF#1 = freeze all, FET#1 = DS2 born/FET#2 / EDD: 12/3/16
trufflefries PgAL / PAIF: TTC for 2 years / Dx: PCOS / Tx: Metformin / Healthy pregnancy, DD born 11/13 / MMC 10/15 @10w5d / EDD: 12/4/16
requiressnacks PgAL / PAIF: TTC since October 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / IUI ended in MMC @ 8 weeks / 3rd IUI EDD: 12/5/16
babycowbell PAIF: First BFP on cycle 33 with IVF w/ ICSI / Dx: Unexplained IF, now assumed egg quality issues / EDD: 12/5/16
Becca PAIF: TTC since June 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / IUI #3 / EDD 12/6/16
mommytoava PgAL: Daughter passed away suddenly about 20 months ago in her sleep at age 3 ½ / EDD 12/6/16
mrsmatt PgAL/PAIF: 2 previous IVF transfers ended in m/c (one blighted ovum in February and one c/p in September of last year). EDD 12-11-16
hmr11913 PgAL: MMC @ 10 weeks / Dx Low Progesterone / Rainbow born 6/15 / EDD 12/13/16
littlelion PgAL: MC #1 @ 9wks 12/12 / #2 @ 6wks 12/13 / #3 @ 9wks 3/14 / #4 @ 9wks 9/15 / #5 ectopic @6wks 11/15 / Rainbow baby #1 12/1/14 / EDD: 12/15/16
lastnamewithheld PAIF: TTC since 2012 / H has MFI and I have PCOS / IVF EDD: 12/17/16
graychloham PgAL: TTC since August 2014 / MC @ 12 weeks in 2015 / EDD 12/17/16
tbonequeen13 PgAL: 2 MC's 5 wks and 1 loss @11.5 wks partial molar pregnancy. Rainbow baby #1 Dec'12. EDD 12/18
legalbeagle PgAL: MMC @ 8 weeks in December / One DS who is 3.5 / EDD: 12/23/16
crimpgirl PgAL: MMC @ 8 weeks in September 2014 / CP February 2016 / EDD 12/23/16
WineNChocolate PgAL: MC Feb 2014 / Feb 2016 / EDD: 12/25/16
sdgal PAIF: TTC since November 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / Clomid + IUI # 3 / EDD 12/25/16
cahistoryteacher PgAL / PAIF: TTC for 2+ years / 6 IUIs / MC @ 7 weeks / EDD: 12/25/16
Whitney PAIF: TTC for 31 months / Dx: Unexplained IF / EDD: 12/26/16
emilie PAIF: NTNP since March 2014 / TTC since June 2014 / Tx: polyp removals and 4 IUIs / EDD: 12/26
Sunny75 PAIF: TTC for 15 months / Dx: Unicornuate Uterus / Two failed IUIs / Hysteroscopy to remove a cyst / BFP on first natural cycle after that! / EDD: 12/28/16

[hmr11913]

How far along are you? 21 weeks tomorrow! WOW.

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm doing good, although the heartburn has kicked in the last week or two.... sometimes it's unbearable. I don't remember it being this bad with my daughter (although it did seem bad then also)... emotionally I am doing well. Feeling the baby move ALOT so that is really reassuring.

Any appointments or milestones this week? None

QOTW: What's your favorite way to celebrate (ann, bday)? I'm not really a big celebrator... being with family and just doing dinner is all we normally do.

[requiressnacks]

How far along are you? 22 weeks today! It seems like the time is crawling lately though.

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically I am good. Emotionally, last week was hard for me. A beloved member of TCF lost one of her twins unexpectedly at 16weeks. It really hit home for me and I didn't know how to react. It gave me all the feels.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Nothing for a while.

QOTW: What's your favorite way to celebrate (ann, bday)? I usually just go out to dinner and order things that are more expensive than normal.

[WineNChocolate]

How far along are you? 19w1d - come on week 20!!!

Physically/Emotionally? I am okay. My emotions go up and down from happy to sad sometimes. My workouts help regulate that and getting good amounts of sleep. I have had to up my food I was eating, I am trying to eat healthy which means I have to eat more to get that energy and not need to eat in another hour. Physically I am tired...I need to make sure to keep things on the weekends to a manageable level where I have time to decompress. Otherwise I am just so tired come the beginning of the week.

Any Appointments or milestones this week? @3pm I have my Dr. Anatomy scan and 2nd step to my 2step testing. Next week is half way point that makes me very excited.

QOTW: What's your favorite way to celebrate? Travel, we have not gotten to travel like I would like but the last year has been really busy. I am hoping in the coming years that we will get to get out more with the lil ones..weekend excursions. We are looking at getting an RV to allow more opportunities to get out with the lil ones for longer periods of time.

hmr11913, oh HB is never a good thing.  I think that second pregnancies bring on things worse than the last. I have had much more issues this time around..such as fully lactose intolerant.

requiressnacks, Many hugs to your friend in TCF. I know that sometimes that happen with twins. Just take it day at a time. You are getting down this road beautifully. You think time is crawling for you!! I am 3 weeks behind you. bah.

[littlelion]

How far along are you? 20w+4d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically and emotionally I have been a wreck lately.  Physically my sciatic pain has improved so that's good. But I've been feeling very overwhelmed these past few weeks.  I had a fight with DH last night and I started to cry and could not stop.  Went to bed crying, woke up crying.  He thinks it's just the fight but it's everything.  Him, the pregnancy, having a toddler to not only keep up with but help develop, money (or lack thereof).  I know it's the hormones that escalate the feelings so I don't want to talk about it with DH.  And I don't think he'd understand.  

Any appointments or milestones this week? Yes, my a/s appt is this Friday.  It's been a month since I've heard baby's HB so I really hope that seeing he's doing well will help some of my anxiety. 

QOTW: What's your favorite way to celebrate (ann, bday)?  Anniversary is usually fancy dinner at a steakhouse with as many martini's as I can handle (usually 2, lol). Birthday's I like to make a long celebration.  I take the day off work to spend alone and however I want (usually baking cupcakes, mani's and wine). Then, a night out with DH.  Plus a special dinner with my family (bday boy/girl gets to request the menu and the rest take care of it). 

[littlelion]

hmr11913 , sorry for the heartburn but yay for baby movements!

requiressnacks , It's hard to see a fellow TCF'er have any kind of loss but I can imagine this was esp emotional for you.  Keep having faith that things are well with your LO's. 

WineNChocolate , GL at your appt today! I agree that 2nd pregnancy feels much harder for me.  I can't tell if it's just that, or my age, or the fact that I have a toddler around.  

[requiressnacks]

hmr11913, I feel you on the heartburn. All I've eaten today is yogurt and an English muffin and I have HB. WTF!

WineNChocolate, GL at your Anatomy Scan! So exciting!

littlelion, I am so sorry to read about your fight. I blame the hormones too, but H and I haven't been getting along that great. I stress about money and he is carefree. I can't even imagine if we had a toddler in the mix.( (hugs))

[hmr11913]

requiressnacks, many T&P's out to your friend and big hugs to you.... it's never easy to go thru that, or to watch someone else going thru it. I remember when I was pregnant again after my m/c I just kept thinking.... if I can just make it to 27 weeks, more than 90% of babies survive if they are born then.... I know we don't have any control over these things, I guess what I'm trying to say is know that every pregnancy is different and sometimes we just have to take things day by day... your babies have such a nice home made inside of you, they're not going anywhere anytime soon!

WineNChocolate, good luck at your appointment today!!!

littlelion, I'm sorry that you're feeling down. I've definitely been more moody this time around... instead of feeling emotional like I was with G, I'm feeling more pissy most of the time. The littlest things annoy me (like DH drinking coffee, it's like he slurps it in the beginning which is SUPER annoying!) .... and I agree, sometimes they don't always understand however we are all here if you need to vent and most likely can relate! Hugs to you!

[hmr11913]

Aug 1, 2016 10:53:52 GMT -5 requiressnacks said:

hmr11913 , I feel you on the heartburn. All I've eaten today is yogurt and an English muffin and I have HB. WTF!

I wish I knew what it was that sets it off.... yesterday all I had ate was a bagel/cream cheese, some pasta salad and a pb&j... it was so hot out I wasn't very hungry... I woke up this morning with TERRIBLE heartburn. Now this morning I figured F it and ate some spicy southwestern hashbrowns and still haven't had any HB yet today. What the fudge!  

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How far along are you? 19w3d

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Emotionally I'm ok. I really want to feel movement consistently. Physically my sacral pain is back and I've had some fatigue. My sacral pain was enough to actually motivate me to schedule an appointment with the acupuncturist.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Nothing this week except by Friday I'll be halfway done!

QOTW: What's your favorite way to celebrate (ann, bday)? We tend to keep things lowkey and just go to a fancy(for us) dinner.

[tbonequeen13]

How far along are you? 20 weeks! I cannot believe it!

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically, I'm ok...emotionally I'm a wreck...our 20 week scan is this week and I'm terrified (no reason to be- just another milestone to get past and since we didn't think anything was wrong when we found our last loss, the milestones make me super nervous)

Any appointments or milestones this week?anatomy scan Wed and normal OB appt Thurs

QOTW: What's your favorite way to celebrate (ann, bday)? Food, lol. DD's is really the only the only b-day we celebrate, otherwise we just go out to eat.

[mommytoava]

How far along are you? 22w

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? physically okay, emotionally, this is a tough month. I wish I could just fast forward to September.

Any appointments or milestones this week? I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon.

QOTW: What's your favorite way to celebrate (ann, bday)? I don't enjoy celebrating my birthday anymore. For our anniversary we normally go out to a nice restaurant. This past year we had dinner where our wedding was held.

[Winnifred]

How far along are you? 21 + 2

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Doing pretty good! I've been keeping my anxieties away for the last few weeks. It really helps to feel baby moving around. I feel a lot less dependent on my doppler to confirm that she's still in there! I do get a little nervous sometimes because I feel like the last few weeks have been the best of this pregnancy. Lots of outdoor walking, feeling good, not too large yet - and I'm nervous about what will be around the bend (cue the Pocahontas river bend song - you're welcome). I need to stay away from the 3rd tri check-ins.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Nope

QOTW: What's your favorite way to celebrate (ann, bday)? If there's something worth celebrating, I really enjoying going out of town for the weekend or even just one night.

requiressnacks, this community has really helped me get through some difficult times in the last couple of years, but we also have to admit that sometimes seeing what others are going through can wear us down, too - especially if our situations are similar and we never know what will happen next with any of us. Take good care of yourself! Everything will be fine.

WineNChocolate, good luck at your A/S! And I'm super jealous of your RV. We just can't do it at this time but I'd love to get one if it becomes possible in the next few years. It would be a great way to just get out of town with the kid/s!

littlelion, I'm sorry to hear of the physical and emotional struggles of the past week. Sometimes everything just comes to a head at one time and it can feel extremely overwhelming. Please just be good to yourself and give yourself some grace - you'll get through this time and things will get better.

@cahistoryteacher, sorry to hear that - I hope you feel better soon!

tbonequeen13, woo hoo for 1/2 way! I hope your scan goes great and gives you lots of reassurance that your little one is doing great! I was very stressed out before mine as well, so I get it!

[tbonequeen13]

Just wanted to follow up....LO didn't really cooperate with the anatomy scan, she had our back to us and wouldn't move. They saw the spine, kidneys, leg and arm bones, hands, feet, and brain and they all looked good but we'll have to go back to see all the stuff they need to see from the front (nasal bone, heart, etc)...I have an anterior placenta which is news to me b/c I feel like I've been feeling pretty consistent flutters lately, but luckily we have a 3 vessel cord this time (DD only had a 2 vessel cord)...also, it's good we had the Panorama done b/c LO didn't want to give up the goods...I'm proud to announce that....

[littlelion]

tbonequeen13 congrats!