TTCAL (8/2/16)

[Rama]

Aug 3, 2016 19:00:55 GMT -5 akraus2015 said:

Aug 3, 2016 18:46:24 GMT -5 Rama said:

We were on the same BMB, love. :)

And I mean...I know I'm a total outlier, because despite my loss, I just short of *needed* to be there. Leaving there, after making so many connections with so many lovely people, would have broken my heart twofold. I know I'm really, really on the unpopular side of that. But despite that, I ache for me. If that makes sense.

I feel like a huge ass for not knowing that. I only got to go there for like 2 days. And I was still so consumed with grief for Emmett, the entire last half of 2015 seems like a blur to me. I think it's great that you kept those connections.

No worries at all! No feeling like an ass, I'm just good with remembering these things. <3

[kayladawn91]

icedtea I'm sorry you're at this point {hugs}

@samrs22 I hope you and YH can come to a point of communicating better. Right after my loss, I remember having such a hard time expressing my feelings to MH in a way he understood. It's tough, but so important to have that correct and healthy communication in a relationship.

PepperPottsJ I second what everyone else said. There's no "right" way to feel right now. However you feel right now is completely okay. It's been over a year and a half since we found out we were going to lose our baby and I still have times where all I want to do is crawl into a ball, stay in bed, and cry because the pain of that memory is unbearable. And days where I just want to scream at the top of my lungs about how unfair it all is. You feel the way you need to feel. There's nothing wrong with that.

Hugs Rama and akraus2015. Please know that we're here for you in the coming weeks (and always) as you hit those milestones/anniversaries.

[icedtea]

Rama, I think that makes a lot of sense.

[ironbaby]

Rama, I just want to wrap you in hugs. The other girls here have said all the things, but know we are here, for you to vent any feelings. I can't imagine the pain you're in right now, and I wish I could take it away for all of us.

akraus2015, what a particularly hard time for you. Please be gentle with yourself and do what gives you peace.

I went to my BMB for about 5 days. I haven't clicked on a single BMB since. Nor the grad thread.

[kayladawn91]

ironbaby I was also only a part of my BMB for a short time. And then I cut myself off immediately because it was too painful. And it took me a while to be able to open the grad thread too.

[wannabmama]

I'm with y'all on the grad thread, too... I always went into the TTC >35 thread because it is a really small group and there is so much struggle that I went through with a lot of those ladies (kind of like what you were talking about Rama that your BMB is a bunch of ladies you feel really close to, even though it's hard)...but I don't comment much, just read through to keep up. I just barely started being able to do the GKU grad thread, it's overwhelming sometimes, still.