Monday is Back

[dmorgendorffer]

[dmorgendorffer]

It is a very grey Monday morning here and there is no coffee in the kitchen at my office. So I'm mostly sitting at my desk zoning out and watching it rain.

This morning was the first time I've really been nervous or felt unsafe about being in the city, the bomb on Saturday is only a few blocks from my office and Elizabeth where they found more bombs at the train station is not far from where we are in NJ, though luckily we're not on the same train line. Hope they catch this guy soon.

[lilyelayne]

Hugs dmorgendorffer. I can't imagine how that feels. I hope they catch him soon too.

I need an attitude adjustment. I've had so little patience the last few days. I woke up all "it's a new week!" today and then I got partway through making oatmeal and discovered DH drank the last of the milk, so I had to change up my recipe, and I really shouldn't lose my cool over something so small.

Regular week ahead & then my 10 year high school reunion this weekend! So excited!

[2mrsks (mrs&mrsk)]

I'm so tired , still waiting on surge. At least 3 days and 2 copays over last time's stats. Ugh . Also there were a million people there this morning so I had to wait almost an hr and was a little late to work. Hopefully the call comes today to either trigger shot tonight or go for iui tomorrow...

[dreemkin]

dmorgendorffer that's terrible that people can't feel safe at work these days! I'm sorry
lilyelayne I hope you can achieve a better attitude! I am working on not being as loud lately, whether it be talking, shouting, or even singing. I just need a quieter house because that's how we usually are and I want to keep it that way!
2mrsks (mrs&mrsk) good luck! That must be difficult!

Today is a usual Monday except that DH will be OOT tonight for business. He will be home late Tuesday. It gives me time to think about this third baby conundrum. DH finally said he'd be on board with it. Now, I'm chickening out I think...I can't believe it. I want it so badly in my heart and I love the ideal idea of it. But I'm afraid of something going wrong (I've experienced a mc and a health scare with dd2) and it ruining our good thing we've got going. Or if it tips the scales and causes stress on any aspect of our life. But I'm sad to give up that baby chapter of my life (especially with dd1 now in preschool). I'm a head case...I know =(

Also, Bears are on MNF tonight! Bear Down!

[2mrsks (mrs&mrsk)]

Iui tomorrow. no early appts left so I won't be to work til 3 hrs late. I'm gonna have to come up with something good... hey no needle tonight is a good thing !

[lilyelayne]

2mrsks (mrs&mrsk) eeek tomorrow! FX and T&Ps!

dreemkin hugs. Deciding how many kids is an emotional roller coaster for sure! Does talking it through with your H help? He must trust that another baby could/would be good for your family since he came around to the idea. Could you maybe give yourself a month to make the decision? A month of thinking okay, yes, we will try for another baby and then see how that feels? Since you've had months already of "knowing" you are done with two?

[dreemkin]

lilyelayne you're right! I guess nothing would happen right now anyway. We have time to think.

[dmorgendorffer]

Good luck tomorrow 2mrsks (mrs&mrsk)!

dreemkin definitely not an easy decision to make. Fwiw, I have some of the same concerns about us having a second, I think that's just natural nerves about the big change and implications of going through another pregnancy. At least it sounds like your DH is on board with whatever you end up choosing to do, and as lily pointed out no need to put pressure on yourself to decide today.

[mishka29]

dreemkin that's a tough one! It sounds like you have some time to think it through before having to make a firm decision. But even that is hard bc then you spend a lot of time thinking and going back and forth. It's funny how you can think you want something but then when you actually get the chance you realize you never really wanted it, you just didn't like being told no by someone or denied. Or maybe that's more how I feel about a third! If DH actually said yes I would probably freak out.

For us we had a plan. That's right a 5 year life plan which included when we would have kids, how many, trips, etc. lol. I'm clearly an over planner.

[mishka29]

So today at work I had an amazing interview. I supposed it would be inappropriate to go into detail.... But I will say it's a new level of awkwardness when you are reviewing photos on a persons cell phone and see dozens of pics of his penis while he's sitting in front of you. Hahahahaha!

[dreemkin]

Sept 19, 2016 19:53:47 GMT -5 mishka29 said:

So today at work I had an amazing interview. I supposed it would be inappropriate to go into detail.... But I will say it's a new level of awkwardness when you are reviewing photos on a persons cell phone and see dozens of pics of his penis while he's sitting in front of you. Hahahahaha!

Whaaaaat?!?

[dreemkin]

Thanks lilyelayne, dmorgendorffer, and mishka29 for helping me with some thoughts. I appreciate it! I'm so back and forth that I think maybe we shouldn't. I know DH isn't 100% either (and maybe sometimes that's okay) but to me it might be a sign. And yes, mishka29 now that he said okay, I'm a little nervous about being pregnant again and taking care of a newborn (never my fave stage), and carting to/from and paying for three child's activities, potentially 12 years of college......But can the love and joy and relationships of that 3rd be measured by those things? Gaaahhh!