When life makes decisions for you (possible TW)
Oct 14, 2016 14:31:02 GMT -5
Post by kleigh926 on Oct 14, 2016 14:31:02 GMT -5
I know I've mentioned on here a few times that we were undecided about having a third child. Well, given the week's events with DS I think both DH and I have come to the conclusion that there's no way having a third would be a wise or logical decision for us. DS woke up with a fever on Wednesday morning. I took him right into the doctor- I don't mess around with him when he has a fever, since the last one triggered a seizure. Sure enough he had an ear infection. He had his first dose of antibiotics by 10 a.m. and I was alternating Tylenol and Motrin.
Around lunch time he had a severe seizure, shorter than the others, but more violent. This one involved dramatic convulsions; the typical grand mal seizure people think of. The frequency of his normal seizures (which mostly involve staring and unresponsiveness) has increased over the past couple months despite increasing his medication several times, and now that another type of seizure has come into play, I am just getting really worried that this won't be as easy to control as we had hoped. Although his neurologist said that the different type of seizure was almost certainly triggered by the fever, it still concerns me.
I have come to realize that having another child would border on irresponsible considering DS's medical issues and the fact that I have a good deal of anxiety surrounding the unknowns of the progression of his disorder, and guilt over DD having to witness this and be given less attention during these times. I have felt like stopping at two is the logical and best decision for us for awhile, but my heart hadn't caught up yet. I still pictured us as having three kids and was having a hard time changing my vision of our family. As of now, I am at peace with this and know that it's best to focus on devoting all my time and energy into the two kids I already have instead of feeling like we "should" have another.
I don't even know what the point of this is, other than you ladies provide a good listening ear and it helps to get out my thoughts and get insight from other moms. Thanks for reading all the way through if you have.
Around lunch time he had a severe seizure, shorter than the others, but more violent. This one involved dramatic convulsions; the typical grand mal seizure people think of. The frequency of his normal seizures (which mostly involve staring and unresponsiveness) has increased over the past couple months despite increasing his medication several times, and now that another type of seizure has come into play, I am just getting really worried that this won't be as easy to control as we had hoped. Although his neurologist said that the different type of seizure was almost certainly triggered by the fever, it still concerns me.
I have come to realize that having another child would border on irresponsible considering DS's medical issues and the fact that I have a good deal of anxiety surrounding the unknowns of the progression of his disorder, and guilt over DD having to witness this and be given less attention during these times. I have felt like stopping at two is the logical and best decision for us for awhile, but my heart hadn't caught up yet. I still pictured us as having three kids and was having a hard time changing my vision of our family. As of now, I am at peace with this and know that it's best to focus on devoting all my time and energy into the two kids I already have instead of feeling like we "should" have another.
I don't even know what the point of this is, other than you ladies provide a good listening ear and it helps to get out my thoughts and get insight from other moms. Thanks for reading all the way through if you have.