Me (30) MH (32) Dx: MFI (low all the things) M. 10/11. TTC Since 01/14 IUI#1-3(Letrozole + Trigger) = BFN Second Opinion. Changed RE's. IVF 09/15 Long Lupron 12R/9M/8F, Transferred 1=BFN. 4 frosties. FET #1 12/15 Transferred 1 (3 still on ice)
Same. Super helpful that I was in a wedding at 5.5 weeks PP with a bunch of skinny-mini 20 something year olds. And then a week later strained a muscle by my hip joint because I dove too hard back into my workouts. My PT cousin said I'm a "classic" PP injury case and it's because my back and abdominal muscles are weak. Now I feel fat AND old.
I felt better at 5 week postpartum than I do now! I wore a form-fitting dress to my aunt's funeral at 2 weeks postpartum and felt great. Now? Now, I feel gross.
I read some advice on GBCN to throw out the scale for the first six months post-baby. I'm not following that advice, apparently.
My kid canNOT keep a Soothie pacifier in his mouth at all. Like he can't get the suction right. So I tried a MAM pacifier with a flatter nipple, and he's in love. However, I'm nervous because it's more than 1 piece and of course I've read up on past recalls due tothem coming apart while in use. I used Soothies for both of my other kids because I was told by the LC in the hospital that they were best for orthodontic development. Tell me I'm overthinking this and I won't damage my kid from using a different pacifier? I feel like I'm being ridiculous. Anyone else use this brand?
joy I kind of know what you mean. I feel good right after having the baby and I think it's because swelling goes down, stomach is MUCH smaller than it was with a full-term baby in there, and I just feel better overall right away PP than I do when 9 months pregnant, comparatively. But then I get used to being "myself" again and realize I'm still not back to where I used to be. It can get so depressing.
Definitely toss the scale, for a bit anyway. I'm a physically active person, and I know when I'm not at my peak. I don't need a number on a scale to tell me that.
Not to mention, you had a baby. Your body is changed. I went up a jeans size after DD1 and even after I lost the weight, I'm still up a size. My hips are wider and are not going back down. The shape is forever changed.
And yes...you just stopped pumping. Give your body some time to level out. Hormones are a bitch. Go easy on yourself!
I know I'm only 8 weeks postpartum. I know I just stopped with pumping last week. I know I can't expect things to just be perfect. But, my weight loss leveled off a few weeks ago and now it's going back up. Ugh. I feel like such a hot mess who's faking so much (everything's GREAT!) to outside people.
Fake it till you make it, right?
I feel you. I feel fat.
I keep reminding myself that my body takes 9 months to lose the weight, but I am 2-3 lbs. over where I was this time PP before and I don't like it. Not to mention my shot abs don't hold my midsection in at all. So I get it.
Post by spicysalmonroll on Oct 25, 2016 14:23:36 GMT -5
bocaburger, on the sweet & salty front I am downing trail mix today. Like got a 2 lb bag from Walamrt and cannot stop eating... that picture is adorable! Mine doesn't really grab anything or hug anything yet even though he's 14 weeks. (obviously hugs me, but not stuffed animals)
elebishi, I tried like 18 pacifiers and DS will only take the MAM brand. And even then, he will only take it when he's super tired, not any other time.
joy, sorry you feel fat I most definitely don't own a scale, never have, never will lol
Post by remylove1011 on Oct 25, 2016 14:26:19 GMT -5
DD has been a mess today. She barely slept last night (only one 3 hour stretch when she was doing one 3 hour and one 4-7 hour). She's super fussy and screams for sleep. Once she's asleep it only lasts for like 30 minutes before she's up again. She's already eaten 5 times today and typically only does 7 a day. Rough!
Me (30) MH (32) Dx: MFI (low all the things) M. 10/11. TTC Since 01/14 IUI#1-3(Letrozole + Trigger) = BFN Second Opinion. Changed RE's. IVF 09/15 Long Lupron 12R/9M/8F, Transferred 1=BFN. 4 frosties. FET #1 12/15 Transferred 1 (3 still on ice)
Post by bocaburger on Oct 25, 2016 14:28:34 GMT -5
elebishi, we use MAM in addition to the soothies. I wouldn't over think it. No one ever turned out badly because their parents used an inferior brand of pacifier.
My kid canNOT keep a Soothie pacifier in his mouth at all. Like he can't get the suction right. So I tried a MAM pacifier with a flatter nipple, and he's in love. However, I'm nervous because it's more than 1 piece and of course I've read up on past recalls due tothem coming apart while in use. I used Soothies for both of my other kids because I was told by the LC in the hospital that they were best for orthodontic development. Tell me I'm overthinking this and I won't damage my kid from using a different pacifier? I feel like I'm being ridiculous. Anyone else use this brand?
Stupid question... but did you check the age on the soothie packaging?
I bought some pink ones at CVS and the baby could not keep them in her mouth. She hated them. I didn't get it because we had two blue ones and a green on that worked just fine. I did notice that they seemed stiffer than the others but I thought they were all the same.
When I actually held them up side-by-side, I realized the pink ones were thicker and stiffer than the others. I checked the packaging and they clearly said "3+ months." I went back and checked the blue ones I bought on Amazon and they said "0-3 months."
joy funny you ask. I actually tried the 3+ one before trying other brands because my kid is giant and I thought he might like something firmer than the 0-3 month one. Nope. He likes them, but can't keep them in. And hell no to me holding them in.
We had LO's follow up with the urologist today. I got there for a 10:25 appt and they told me the appt was for 3:20. I started to feel crazy and even got a bit dizzy. Then I went in the diaper bag and grabbed the appt card- definitely said 10:25! So the lady we had before said she'd take a look and let us know if she could pull the bridges apart or if we'd have to see the doc. Well she said we'd have to see the doc and called him to see what he wanted to do.
Because there are two bridges, the doc wants to do it in the OR. This way if there's any problems with bleeding or revisions needed he can take care of it right then.
He's got to be put under for 10-20 minutes.
I'm terrified.
ETA - they'll wait until he's 6 months old to do it.
I'm sorry steph An OR procedure of any type has to be terrifying when it's on your baby. Hopefully it's comforting to know the doctor is being cautious and this way, it will be less traumatic for your DS. Worse for mom, though
Yep. I feel like part of the problem is my baby is clingy, so I'm still stuck with a lot of unhealthy carbs I can just grab & eat while I'm nursing. (But also #?|<€#|{ Halloween candy.)
Post by dorkusmalorkus on Oct 25, 2016 16:22:43 GMT -5
steph I'm sorry you have so much on your plate lately, and now this. Plus boo to feeling crazy because of the weird scheduling thing. I hope you're getting a chance to do something nice for yourself or just get a reprieve for a minute!
Post by youdontsay on Oct 25, 2016 16:32:06 GMT -5
Hey guys!
Sorry I've been MIA, life has been crazy, this is what's happening:
1) MH got laid off right before I had DD. 2) parents visit us and convince us to move with them to Tennessee. We do the math and it's the best option for us. 3) Packing my house like a mad woman the past few weeks plus selling my house (it's finally in escrow!) 4) resigned from my job 5) looking for a new job in Tennessee 6) oh and I leave tomorrow to Tennessee with DD and my dog. We're taking two days, spending the night in Virginia and I'm praying she just sleeps three hour stretches. She STTN but hardly sleeps during the day unless you hold her.
I miss you guys, please tell me Tennessee is awesome and moving from the northeast to the southeast will be okay!
I just had a home visit with the IBCLC who confirmed that not only does K have a severe lip tie he also has a tongue tie that needs to be fixed. It's no wonder nursing has been so hard for us.
So sorry! I had that x2 and it is miserable. Are you getting it revised?
Post by hannahbear on Oct 25, 2016 18:13:05 GMT -5
Hey y'all.
I've had a rough few days. First the panic attack thing on Sunday, and then yesterday I also had a freak out (not a panic attack, but a not-good-not-ok time). My uncle died and my cousins started a group text, and there were dozens of messages pinging. I had another clogged duct (because apparently I can't wear a bra anymore, which is a huge problem for me). E was wailing and I could not figure out why. I started sobbing and just generally flipping out. In an empty house, I started asking repeatedly, "please help me!" I felt totally insane, but just admitting out loud that I need help was kind of freeing.
I called the new therapist to see if I could move my appointment up. Today she referred me to a psychiatrist for meds evaluation (since I saw an MFM for my full care, I was pretty much discharged and now I'm kind of on my own, so I can't really go to them for medication, I don't think).
The therapist thinks that my pumping is kind of an obsession, and that it's triggering anxiety episodes. I feel so torn about it, but I think I am finally starting to agree. It seems like I'm so so so worried about pumping (how many ounces? do I have enough? have I wasted any? is it more or less than yesterday? alarm is going off, time to pump. can't go anywhere, need to pump. baby's crying but I can't figure out what to do because I'm pumping) that I'm missing a lot of the good stuff. So I've decided to reduce the amount I pump in a day to maybe 4 or 5 times a day. And if I dry up, well, I dry up. I'm already supplementing with formula, so what the heck. At the very least, I don't think I can quit cold turkey, since I'm really afraid of clogs and mastitis (since I seem prone to clogs already). So, I'll reduce and reevaluate.
Practical question: I've been using Similac Formula for Supplementation, but it kind of seems unnecessary. Any thoughts on what to move to?
hannahbear, ((hugs)) I'm not sure if you're already on meds for anxiety, but if not I'd encourage you to consider it. I'm on lexapro and was all through pregnancy and it was definitely the right choice for me. Also, EPing can be anxiety inducing. I had to stop tracking my pumps/oz because I was getting a little obsessed. It was stressing me out and I think it affected my output! I pump 5-6 times a day now and try not to stress over it.
Post by redhead610 on Oct 25, 2016 18:45:41 GMT -5
hannahbear, hugs. I can't imagine how stressful exclusively pumping is. For me, looking back, I had such terrible anxiety from bfing ds1.
We are ff ds2. You can try another kind if you want. We started with costco's Kirkland brand, since it's the cheapest. It's comparable to regular enfamil. He had issues with gas and diarrhea, so we switched to similac sensitive (although we use the target generic of it), and he has been much better. Ds1 never had any problem with regular enfamil, but we started him at 7m.
hannahbear huge hugs. We used the orange similac for B, she had bad reflux and it helped her a bit. Gerber made her gassy. I know every baby is different though.
I hope, and think that, reducing will help you feel better. Happy mama = happy baby.
I've got tiny little red dots on my arm. I'm thinking they're bruises from carrying the car seat B told me "I think it's because you're getting old" and then sobbed because she doesn't want me to die. It was heartbreaking. I've never talked about my anxiety around death around her, I feel like she inherited it from me. My heart hurts for her. I told her it wasn't me getting old, and explained the that it was from car seat. She was a mess for a while. Poor girl is only 4.
I am going to try to get it revised. I worry about the possible speech ave orthodontic issues later.
I feel your pain, literally. DD had 2 tongue tie revisions, the second was a full release & with laser. She also had a lip tie that we got released that second time. We also had to see a feeding specialist and it was a lot of work but she nurses great now!
I've had a rough few days. First the panic attack thing on Sunday, and then yesterday I also had a freak out (not a panic attack, but a not-good-not-ok time). My uncle died and my cousins started a group text, and there were dozens of messages pinging. I had another clogged duct (because apparently I can't wear a bra anymore, which is a huge problem for me). E was wailing and I could not figure out why. I started sobbing and just generally flipping out. In an empty house, I started asking repeatedly, "please help me!" I felt totally insane, but just admitting out loud that I need help was kind of freeing.
I called the new therapist to see if I could move my appointment up. Today she referred me to a psychiatrist for meds evaluation (since I saw an MFM for my full care, I was pretty much discharged and now I'm kind of on my own, so I can't really go to them for medication, I don't think).
The therapist thinks that my pumping is kind of an obsession, and that it's triggering anxiety episodes. I feel so torn about it, but I think I am finally starting to agree. It seems like I'm so so so worried about pumping (how many ounces? do I have enough? have I wasted any? is it more or less than yesterday? alarm is going off, time to pump. can't go anywhere, need to pump. baby's crying but I can't figure out what to do because I'm pumping) that I'm missing a lot of the good stuff. So I've decided to reduce the amount I pump in a day to maybe 4 or 5 times a day. And if I dry up, well, I dry up. I'm already supplementing with formula, so what the heck. At the very least, I don't think I can quit cold turkey, since I'm really afraid of clogs and mastitis (since I seem prone to clogs already). So, I'll reduce and reevaluate.
Practical question: I've been using Similac Formula for Supplementation, but it kind of seems unnecessary. Any thoughts on what to move to?
Oh gosh yes keeping track of ounces is very stressful. I don't pay attention to my total output anymore but I used to.
I was on Prozac all of pregnancy (& pre-pregnancy) & continue to take it while breastfeeding. Can't have a happy baby without a happy mom, right? I've seen a counselor all along too. Also stress/depression affects supply a lot so it's a vicious cycle. Another thing that affected my supply pretty significantly when EPing was lack of skin to skin. When family was visiting & holding the baby a lot suddenly my supply went way down. Then I would be like oh shoot, I haven't done any skin to skin in 2 days and then would do it a lot for a day or two and it would go back up. Crazy how it works.
EPing is very very very hard when you are home by yourself with baby. Especially situations like you describe ...baby is crying but you have to keep pumping. It's not like you can easily hold baby while pumping. Blah
It works best if someone else can do the feeding like DH or daycare. Being home & doing it all is practically impossible because you are always pumping or feeding.
P.S. You are a great mom & your little is lucky to have you!
Post by bocaburger on Oct 25, 2016 22:08:43 GMT -5
youdontsay WOW that is a lot going on! How are you doing emotionally?
hannahbear (((hugs)))! I'm glad you are seeking out help. If decreasing your pumping increases your happiness level, I say go for it!
steph I'm so sorry, between the car accident, your son's scheduled surgery, and B's breakdown it sounds like you have had a lot of triggers for your anxiety lately. I can't remember - are you seeing a therapist? Have you thought about meds? I hope things turn around for you soon.
Then Comes Family, LLC is a participant in the Amazon Services LLC Associates Program, an affiliate advertising
program designed to provide a means for sites to earn advertising fees by advertising and linking to Amazon.com.