PgAL/PAIF Check In Week of 10/30

[lotsoflotts]

cateyes I've found 1st tri to be the absolute worst in terms of guilt and anxiety.
*LO mentioned*
With my rainbow, 2nd tri was easier with the anxiety. It didn't go away, and there were times where it was just as bad, if not worse. But knowing the chances were lower and seeing the physical change helped. The guilt over discomfort or not enjoying didn't really get any better for me though. I sometimes wish I could just magically not know I'm pregnant until like 20 weeks, just to skip the mind games and the crazy swings from excited to terrified of losing another one. It's just hard. That's why I love the PgAL/PAIF community here- they get it.

[punkybrewster]

honda13, I'm so sorry that you got that reaction. I would be so hurt and upset as well. This should be such an exciting time and it's not fair that was taken away from you.
cateyes, I'm so sorry you are having a tough time. I never anticipated the anxiousness that would kick in once I actually got pregnant. I thought this would finally be the easy time and the time to relax and enjoy the excitement. Little did I know, that now the nervousness only increases. I hope you are able to relax soon though and enjoy it. It sucks that IF even takes the joy of being pregnant away.

[dsp2013]

How's everyone doing this week? Is your PgAL/PAIF brain getting better or worse as the weeks go on?

Lots of symptoms and a good u/s helps keep my crazy at bay for now. As much as I hate the morning sickness, my loss brain almost feels like I need it. I didn't have it with my chemical and have been sick since before my positive on this one. It's a mind fuck. I think my PgAL brain is still in full drive.

QOTW: If you had to live in a different state, where would you live?

DH is from OH originally and we've seriously considered moving to Columbus. We never can bite the bullet though. His twin is here in the city, too, and I think he would never leave because of that alone.

[teachermomtobe]

I have an ultrasound tomorrow and have been fine since our last ultrasound but now that this one is so close I am freaking out again. It seems my anxiety gets worse when I have to face the possibility that I could find out something is wrong. Getting very nervous for tomorrow.

[cateyes]

Nov 3, 2016 16:07:23 GMT -5 teachermomtobe said:

I have an ultrasound tomorrow and have been fine since our last ultrasound but now that this one is so close I am freaking out again. It seems my anxiety gets worse when I have to face the possibility that I could find out something is wrong. Getting very nervous for tomorrow.

This is totally H too. He has been calm and fine since our last US but when we went into the room, he got super nervous. Hugs!!

[cateyes]

Since the US went perfect today, I am feeling the most at ease I have so far. Hoping to keep riding this happy wave.

Still not much symptoms wise-some nausea but nothing to bad and still tired but over all doing very well!

[teachermomtobe]

I packed up my Sharps container that is full of my IVF needles to mail back. I may have cried.

[cateyes]

Nov 5, 2016 12:59:05 GMT -5 teachermomtobe said:

I packed up my Sharps container that is full of my IVF needles to mail back. I may have cried.

Such a weird feeling I am sure. I am still too afraid to do anything to "jinx" things.

[teachermomtobe]

Nov 5, 2016 18:20:09 GMT -5 cateyes said:

Nov 5, 2016 12:59:05 GMT -5 teachermomtobe said:

I packed up my Sharps container that is full of my IVF needles to mail back. I may have cried.

Such a weird feeling I am sure. I am still too afraid to do anything to "jinx" things.

I hear ya on the "jinx". I think my tears were half relief and half fear. We have 2 frozen embryos so I also told myself if thr worst happened it still would be a long time before we needed a sharps container again. I have my meds to get rid of too because they will expire soon. I just can't let go of them yet.

[cateyes]

Nov 5, 2016 18:34:33 GMT -5 teachermomtobe said:

Nov 5, 2016 18:20:09 GMT -5 cateyes said:

Such a weird feeling I am sure. I am still too afraid to do anything to "jinx" things.

I hear ya on the "jinx". I think my tears were half relief and half fear. We have 2 frozen embryos so I also told myself if thr worst happened it still would be a long time before we needed a sharps container again. I have my meds to get rid of too because they will expire soon. I just can't let go of them yet.

You could "donate them". Check out 3T

[teachermomtobe]

cateyes, I am planning to donate them. I'm just waiting to see if a friend of a friend wants them or if I'll be going the 3T route.