Intro
Dec 7, 2016 19:37:57 GMT -5
Post by doves654 on Dec 7, 2016 19:37:57 GMT -5
Hi everyone,
I'm finally introducing myself after several friends have said this is a great board. My husband and I had to terminate our very, very wanted daughter at 21w5d two weeks ago after learning she has autosomal recessive polycystic kidney disease at her 21 week anatomy scan. We have been trying to conceive for 3.5 years including 2 IUIs, 2 IVFs, 2 FETs and a prior miscarriage at 8w5d. This pregnancy was a PGS tested FET, so we felt very confident that this would be our rainbow baby, but unfortunately it wasn't meant to be.
I'm taking a leave from work right now to find the right care for myself, especially mentally as my anxiety has been increasing more and more the further we've gotten into this journey. I'm wondering if we are just blatantly ignoring signs that we're not supposed to be parents. We have one PGS-tested blastocyst left, and I'm not sure what I'll do if we lose it either from trying to test for the disease or by not getting pregnant with it, etc. I'm already very attached to it since we've had it since last March. It's not time to make a decision on that yet, but I feel very afraid and anxious about it, but also still desperately wanting to be a mother and missing being pregnant very, very much.
I'm not sure how much I'll be around - some days I feel more capable than others, but I want to lend support to others facing this or worse however I can. The love from women here and on similar groups has helped me make it through thus far.
Doves
I'm finally introducing myself after several friends have said this is a great board. My husband and I had to terminate our very, very wanted daughter at 21w5d two weeks ago after learning she has autosomal recessive polycystic kidney disease at her 21 week anatomy scan. We have been trying to conceive for 3.5 years including 2 IUIs, 2 IVFs, 2 FETs and a prior miscarriage at 8w5d. This pregnancy was a PGS tested FET, so we felt very confident that this would be our rainbow baby, but unfortunately it wasn't meant to be.
I'm taking a leave from work right now to find the right care for myself, especially mentally as my anxiety has been increasing more and more the further we've gotten into this journey. I'm wondering if we are just blatantly ignoring signs that we're not supposed to be parents. We have one PGS-tested blastocyst left, and I'm not sure what I'll do if we lose it either from trying to test for the disease or by not getting pregnant with it, etc. I'm already very attached to it since we've had it since last March. It's not time to make a decision on that yet, but I feel very afraid and anxious about it, but also still desperately wanting to be a mother and missing being pregnant very, very much.
I'm not sure how much I'll be around - some days I feel more capable than others, but I want to lend support to others facing this or worse however I can. The love from women here and on similar groups has helped me make it through thus far.
Doves