~*~ PgAL/PAIF check-in week of Jan 15 ~*~

[muscari]

Welcome to the PgAL and PAIF check-in!

This is a weekly check-in for those of us who are pregnant after loss and/or infertility. Feel free to jump in any time!
The check-in is a safe place to share all things that come with being PgAL and/or PAIF. Use this thread to ask questions, share your excitement/rage/worries/whatever, or to ask for support!

Please come on in and let us know how you're doing, and know you are always welcome to come back throughout the week whenever you need to!! ♥

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PgAL Mantras
www.goodbyecb.proboards.com/thread/1034/pgal-mantras

PAIF Mantras
www.goodbyecb.proboards.com/thread/57254/welcome-paif-read-before-posting


**Loss/trigger warnings are not necessary here**

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Weekly check-in:

How far along are you?

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)?

Any appointments or milestones coming up this week?

Do you need any thoughts or prayers?

Anything else you'd like to share?

QoTW:  Seems like we don't have a lot of winter fans here ;-) So this week's QoTW is: What's your favorite time of year?

[muscari]

How far along are you? 9w3d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Ahh, like crap. I'm so over feeling exhausted and battling pretty constant nausea and heartburn 24/7. It's been hard to eat normally and keep my fluids up.. At our RE f/u on Wednesday I was rxed emesafene (meclozine/​pyridoxine) for the nausea which worked like a charm for like 36h and then nausea came back with a vengeance.  Trying to figure out what dosage/timing works best.. plus the dosage rxed by my RE is higher then what the leaflet says is okay so that confuses me (I've stuck to the leaflet dosage just in case). Just not sure whether this is the right med for me, or whether this is just as good as it's going to get. Any of you use or have used this before? Apperently tis registered under the name antivert or dramamine II in the USA.

Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? So I never really updated on our U/S last week. It went well, baby still measuring on track with a great hb. When she had just started imaging I could see the baby had grown nicely but couldn't locate the heartbeat which freaked me out but the RE soon pointed it out to me and gosh we felt so relieved. From that moment on I finally started thinking that maybe just maybe this is really happening.

However, that confidence got shattered yesterday though. Around 8-8:30pm I started cramping and it got progressively worse to where I was really in pain. Really bad cramping pain which radiated towards my back and also down into my cervix/vagina. It lessened after a while just to pick up even worse around 10pm and MH was on the verge of calling a dr cause he was just soo worried. I didn't have any bleeding though, just the cramps/pain. It felt exactly the same as how things started after taking the miso to induce the MC with our MMC, so I really was freaking out, crying, and MH was starting to freak out as well. I took some tylenol and laid in bed with hot water bottles and eventually dozed off, waking up several times during the night to refill my hot water bottle and the pain eased up over time. This morning I felt crampy still but just a bit of a nagging feeling, nothing too bad. I took it really easy all day long, basically lounged on the couch and only got up in the afternoon to do a couple chores and cook dinner. Back to feeling "normal" aka just real tired and nauseated again ;-)

I honestly have no clue what was causing the pain last night, and am trying to reassure myself that since there was zero bleeding I shouldn't be too worried. However, with our previous MMC I didn't have any bleeding either so yeah. We have our dating scan scheduled for tomorrow morning and instead of going in feeling finally somewhat excited about things finally, once again we are terrified going in and I hate it. I'm so over this shit

Do you need any thoughts or prayers? Please please please let there still be a healthy baby in there..

Anything else you'd like to share? I wanted to apologize for not responding to all of your posts in this and other threads more often.., I feel like a terrible A17-er and really wish I was able to be more involved in things. I'm just really struggling to find time in my days to get behind the pc and on TCF. I have 0 internet time at work and once home I'm just too exhausted to get online much, rinse and repeat 5 days a week, and all I do during the weekends is sleep and catch up on housechores lol. I lurk a ton and stalk y'all through tapatalk but posting on my phone just isn't working for me. I'm soooo looking forward to finding back some energy once I hit 2nd trimester???
Also, wanted to thank you for your kind words on my post about my friends H suddenly passing away in last week's check-in, much appreciated. It's been such an odd week, so hard to grasp what had happened. The funeral was yesterday, and it's slowly sunken in that he just really is gone. Please go and hug your loved ones!

[yoshijo28]

Oh muscari I'm so sorry you're worried. There are so many pains and weird things during pregnancy, it's hard to know what is normal and what's not. Honestly it sounds normal to me, especially without any bleeding. I hope you have a great u/s tomorrow

[cali]

Thinking of you muscari and sending you all the good vibes for a great scan tomorrow. ((Hugs)) I know this is all so hard and I'm right there with you in being sick and tired of being so anxious and worried all of the time. Don't apologize for not being around much, we all just do what we can and I think we all know how much 1st tri sucks. I'm so sorry you had that scare and I really hope it turns out to be nothing at all.

[addymac]

muscari I'm so sorry for the nerves and pain you're experiencing. I really hope the u/s just shows a healthy baby and a non-worrying cause for the pain (aka a ruptured cyst that will no longer cause pain, etc).

Don't even worry about not being around a lot. I think first tri gives us all a pass on life 😉 I've been on and off, lurking and occasionally commenting but sometimes it makes my nerves and anxiety worse and other times I feel like y'all are the only ones I have. It's a whirlwind of emotions!!

AFM, I want to wait to update / check in til after the u/s on Tuesday. My nerves are crazy and my thoughts are all over the place.
💛 Hugs to everyone

[PepperPottsJ]

muscari I'm so sorry for the added stress and just the rough week. All thoughts, prayers and hugs for a great scan tomorrow. We are all in such a complete mind fuck of emotions, that plus fear, exhaustion and nausea, you need to put you first. I think we all in the same place

addymac good luck Tuesday!

I'll be back to update after my Tuesday u/s also

[muscari]

Thanks all

addymac, I'm so glad you were able to get in for an earlier scan after all, even if you still have to wait till tomorrow. I hope your scan will bring you good news as well and will help put some of your anxiety and fears away. Thinking of you!

PepperPottsJ, GL also with your scan tomorrow!

[muscari]

Quickie update: ultrasound/dating scan went well! Our lil one is still in there, and was looking absolutely perfect. Measuring right on track 25.6mm today 💛 good hb.. sooooo relieved. Cyst is still there but small enough to not cause any issues. So we honestly haven't a clue what caused the pain on Saturday.. let's hope it just won't happen again! NT scan is scheduled for 2/6 and our anomaly scan is scheduled for 3/27.

Eta: so odd.. whenever i add a heart smiley tapatalk will cut of the rest of the message but on the browser it shows just fine! So for those of you who read my msg in tapatalk... i switched it out for another heart hah so the second bit is now visible to you as well lol!

[yoshijo28]

muscari yay!! I'm sure the pain is just something pregnancy related that's normal

[muscari]

Jan 16, 2017 9:22:59 GMT -5 yoshijo28 said:

muscari yay!! I'm sure the pain is just something pregnancy related that's normal

I guess so... just hoping it was a one time only thing as the pain really was way to intense to go thru on a semi-regular base! At one point I was doubled over rocking back and forth from the pain... no fun. But, baby is allright so that is what counts atm!

[cravingchocolate05]

muscari Hooray! So glad your scan went well! I hope your pain doesn't come back. Maybe it's just one of those random scary things--pregnancy seems full of them!!

addymac Best thoughts and luck for your scan tomorrow.

PepperPottsJ Hope your scan goes well!

[cali]

muscari, I'm so happy to see your update!!!

addymac PepperPottsJ good luck with your scans tomorrow!

[cali]

Weekly check-in:

How far along are you? 8w4d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Totally fine aside from being pretty tired most of the time. I actually would love a few symptoms for reassurance.

Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? Had a scan this morning. Baby measuring right on track with a heart rate of 180. Waiting for a call from the RE nurse to get next steps. I initially set up an OB appointment for this Friday but I don't know if they will release me yet or if I can see the OB before being officially released. Anyone know? I don't want to miss any necessary prenatal testing with my OB. I plan to ask the nurse when she calls but in the meantime if anyone knows let me know!

Do you need any thoughts or prayers? Just that baby keeps growing and is healthy.

Anything else you'd like to share? Not at the moment.

QoTW: Seems like we don't have a lot of winter fans here ;-) So this week's QoTW is: What's your favorite time of year? Definitely summer time. Living in the Midwest it's the only time of year where it's pretty much guaranteed not to be too cold.

[jt2378]

muscari, happy to hear today went well, I'm so sorry what you went through this weekend. How awful and scary!

addymac and PepperPottsJ, wishing you both good appts for tomorrow

[yoshijo28]

cali you won't miss any testing. Idk what you're getting but the NT can be done until the end of 13w. I'd wait for them to release you before going to the OB. When you made the ob apt did they ask if you were released?

[cali]

Jan 16, 2017 12:57:42 GMT -5 yoshijo28 said:

cali you won't miss any testing. Idk what you're getting but the NT can be done until the end of 13w. I'd wait for them to release you before going to the OB. When you made the ob apt did they ask if you were released?

They did ask me but I told them that I didn't know exactly when I would be released so they had me make the appointment just in case. Apparently if all looks good next Monday I'll be released so I will just reschedule my OB appointment for after that. Hopefully they can squeeze me in.

[yoshijo28]

addymac, PepperPottsJ sending good vibes for your ultrasounds!

[PepperPottsJ]

Breathing has resumed, FHR 166 and measuring on track!

Appt for US and blood work for Panorama on Monday, and OB scheduled for 1/31

Cali, my RE had me walk down the hall and get on the books today, even though I'm not released. I think if I was going outside of this group he would have had me schedule faster, based on our initial discussions of who I would see. I hope they make it easy to push your appt back a week!

[yoshijo28]

yesss PepperPottsJ congrats!

[jt2378]

Awesome news PepperPottsJ! so happy for you

[yoshijo28]

How far along are you? 11w4d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? not great today. I'm nauseous and my stomach feels queasy. I hope I'm not getting the stomach bug that's going around. Now, since I've had little nausea during 1st tri I'm worried something is wrong.

Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? NT scan Friday

Do you need any thoughts or prayers? just that we have a healthy, growing baby for our scan

Anything else you'd like to share?

QOTW: I love summer and fall

[addymac]

How far along are you? 9+5

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Emotionally- good! We had the u/s and baby is alive and dancing around in there!!!!!! I feel a huge sigh of relief 😁 Physically - okay. I've got a headache that won't go away and constant hunger but no real nausea. I guess I should be happy! I feel like puking after I eat sometimes so I just need to not eat so much. I'm tired but I've been sleeping terribly - I keep waking up at like 4/5/6am and just need to eat and lay there for an hour+ trying to fall back asleep.

Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? U/s that went well today and follow up next week

Do you need any thoughts or prayers? I'm ok!

Anything else you'd like to share? I almost started crying I was so happy to hear the hb and see it squirming around. Little arm and leg buds waving at it!

QoTW: Seems like we don't have a lot of winter fans here ;-) So this week's QoTW is: What's your favorite time of year?
I like late spring. Tshirt and jeans weather. Warm enough for walks outside by not overbearing heat!

Thank you all for being my sounding board and letting me freak out! I know we're not out of the woods yet, our loss milestone is 12/13 weeks, but I'm just so in awe that this baby looks healthy right now! And there were no cysts on the cord!

[jt2378]

addymac, such happy news, yay! how wonderful to see that little squish in there dancing for you

[cravingchocolate05]

That's awesome addymac! So so happy the baby is doing well. Must be a huge relief.

[yoshijo28]

addymac I'm so happy for you!!

[yoshijo28]

The stomach bug got me. Tried so hard to avoid it. OB said just drink gatorade to rehydrate and wait it out. I'm somewhat worried it could hurt the baby but I refuse to google that.

[nutmeg8484]

The baby will be fine yoshijo28. The baby is still going to take everything she (you are the one who already knows sex right? I have a terrible memory.) needs. You are the one who will suffer. I hope you feel better soon and yh can avoid it. No one needs to deal with man sickness in first trimester.

[elliecat17]

How far along are you? 9w today!

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Physically constant nagging nausea but no vomiting. Exhaustion, but that's probably from not sleeping well, and very hungry all the time.

Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? We have passed all our milestones. My bloat has gone away which is not scaring me, but at least I have nausea which I have not had with any of our others that ended in losses.

Do you need any thoughts or prayers? That there continues to be a growing healthy baby!

Anything else you'd like to share? Anyone else exhausted but suffering insomnia at night? I wake up around 2 starving, and then just lay there for hours.

QoTW: Seems like we don't have a lot of winter fans here ;-) So this week's QoTW is: What's your favorite time of year? Fall!

[yoshijo28]

Jan 17, 2017 20:46:27 GMT -5 nutmeg8484 said:

The baby will be fine yoshijo28. The baby is still going to take everything she (you are the one who already knows sex right? I have a terrible memory.) needs. You are the one who will suffer. I hope you feel better soon and yh can avoid it. No one needs to deal with man sickness in first trimester.

Thank you for being my rational brain and so true, man sickness is the worsttt to deal with!

[elliecat17]

I really think I want a dopplar. Even though I know that I may not be able to hear baby right away because I have an anterior placenta. I just can't wait until week 20 to hear the heart with my stethoscope.