This is a weekly check-in for those of us who are pregnant after loss and/or infertility. Feel free to jump in any time! The check-in is a safe place to share all things that come with being PgAL and/or PAIF. Use this thread to ask questions, share your excitement/rage/worries/whatever, or to ask for support!
Please come on in and let us know how you're doing, and know you are always welcome to come back throughout the week whenever you need to!! ♥
Met in May 2011 Engaged November 2011 Married November 2013 Started TTC November 2015 Began Infertility Workup November 2016 BFP! Lucky #13 Cycle TTC Due Date: 9/5/2017
We lost our DD in Sept 2013 after a late diagnosis of Trisomy 18 (I was not AMA so was not recommended for early screening, and it was discovered at my anatomy scan). She was a trooper for staying with us as long as she did, but unfortunately did not make it to term. I was induced and delivered her at 24 weeks. She was perfect and beautiful and I will always miss her. We have since had our DS, who was and is healthy, and are hoping this bub will be as well. Lined up for Maternit21 testing at 10 weeks, so that we are armed with all the information possible. Trisomies are generally random, but if you have had one, then the chances of having another are higher. To me this means there is some "cause", but they haven't figured it out yet.
How far along are you? 7w3d
How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Physically yuck. Emotionally okay, although on edge every time I think of all the things that could go wrong. Sometimes it blindsides me - like nevermind the risk of trisomies, or the risk of early labour because of my IC issues, I could still also have a miscarriage because of something random I have not even considered! I am taking nothing for granted and trying to be thankful through the haze of nausea.
Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? Nope, just in limbo till 1/25
Do you need any thoughts or prayers? I am okay I think
Anything else you'd like to share? Not right now, thanks
QoTW: What's your favorite TV show? The West Wing!
DD lost and born 9/18/2013 at 24 weeks (Trisomy 18) DS born 6/16/2015 (at 39 weeks 6 days, after emergency cerclage at 23 weeks and 14 weeks of bed rest)
Post by laurenash323 on Jan 17, 2017 10:56:09 GMT -5
My history (if you can't see my siggy) - started TTC January 2012, after 1 year of trying got our first BFP that ended in a MMC/BO at 8 weeks - Got 2nd BFP in July 2013, which ended with DD in March 2014 - Decided to TTC baby #2 in June/July 2015 ---3rd BFP August 2015, ended in MC at 6 weeks ---4th BFP October 2015, ended in MC at 16 weeks, DS Sebastian This is our 5th pregnancy
How far along are you? 7w4d
How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Physically I'm nauseous and tired, and my boobs have never hurt so bad. Emotionally I'm doing "ok"...some days are better than others, not sure if I'll ever feel comfortable in this pregnancy.
Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? Nothing coming up, next ultrasound is 1/30.
Do you need any thoughts or prayers? DS's "birthday"/1 year anniversary of his loss is Monday. I'm going to be traveling for work which I'm hoping will help me keep my mind off things. I just can't believe it's been a year...
Anything else you'd like to share? Nothing I can think of...other than I'm going to post and run, hope to get back on tonight and check out everyone else's answers.
QoTW: What's your favorite TV show? Right now, Real Housewives of anything...I just love mindless tv and drama that isn't mine!
Also, if you have any ideas for future QoTW, please share! I'm not that creative. Whenever i've started these in the past I end up googling 'GTKY questions' and looking through lists someone else made haha
Married to dh since 2012. Ttc journey: Miscarriage at 8 weeks February 2013 DD born march 2014 Miscarriage at 6 weeks September 2015 Miscarriage at 16 weeks, our angel Sebastian 1/23/16 Pregnancy number 5!! Edd 9/2/17 (my moms brithday!)
I'm joining because pgal brain is bad. I had my very first loss when I was 16. I had my son in O12. I lost my twins in July 13 discovered at 13 weeks. I had CP in October 13.
I'm currently 6 weeks 2 days. A sweet pea.
I'm feeling crazy I was supposed have my follow up ultrasound today but the ice screwed that over. I need some peace of mind. Physically I'm exhausted, I have cramps, headaches, throwing up, my boobs HURT!!
I have an appointment on the 31st.
I need my sanity if you could pray for that that would be great.
What am I watching? I love conviction and I'm sad it probably getting cancelled 😟
[ High Risk for Intrahepatic Cholestasis of Pregnancy - Fight the Itch Save a Life Kayden October 21, 2012 and Mira August 16, 2014 Angels Lucas, Serena, and Ana
I'm going to join you guys! I have had 5 losses over the last 18 months. Three were early losses. My first was a missed miscarriage at 11 weeks that I needed a D&C for. The other was at 9.5 weeks and the baby had triploidy.
How far along are you? 4 wks, 1 day
How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Emotionally I'm a complete and total wreck. I'm trying my best to stay positive. Physically I'm just tired from the progesterone. It makes me so sleepy.
Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? Tomorrow is my repeat betas. Fingers crossed they double!!!
Do you need any thoughts or prayers? Yes, for tomorrow!!
Anything else you'd like to share? Don't think so.
QoTW: What's your favorite TV show? It changes I am a big fan of any reality tv, lol. Recently DH and I have been binge watching stuff on Netflix. Recently we have watched Scandal, The Queen, all the Marvel shows. Right now we are watching The Man in the High Castle on Amazon.
My history, had DS Mar 2012. Got pregnant in Sept 2013 which ended in a mc at 6 weeks. Got pregnant in Nov 2013 which resulted in DD in July 2014.
How far along? 6+1 How am I feeling? I had a few days of yuck and then yesterday and today not much of anything. I'm trying to remind myself that ms comes and goes. I'm still peeing frequently and my boobs are growing.
I don't have any appointments until the end of Feb.
I guess this week is the milestone week for my previous loss, so it's hard not to freak out.
I'm joining because pgal brain is bad. I had my very first loss when I was 16. I had my son in O12. I lost my twins in July 13 discovered at 13 weeks. I had CP in October 13.
I'm currently 6 weeks 2 days. A sweet pea.
I'm feeling crazy I was supposed have my follow up ultrasound today but the ice screwed that over. I need some peace of mind. Physically I'm exhausted, I have cramps, headaches, throwing up, my boobs HURT!!
I have an appointment on the 31st.
I need my sanity if you could pray for that that would be great.
What am I watching? I love conviction and I'm sad it probably getting cancelled 😟
mambo, so sorry you are feeling crazy. Keeping you, your baby, and your sanity in my prayers.
DD lost and born 9/18/2013 at 24 weeks (Trisomy 18) DS born 6/16/2015 (at 39 weeks 6 days, after emergency cerclage at 23 weeks and 14 weeks of bed rest)
Post by kellykapow on Jan 17, 2017 12:35:45 GMT -5
I have severe endometriosis, and took almost 3 years to get pregnant with DS. It was 3 years of doctor after doctor, 3 surgeries, and lots of BFN's. We didn't prevent at all after DS was born (March 15) but actively started trying about a year ago.
Weekly check-in:
How far along are you? 6w2d
How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Physically okay. Just really tired with Very mild MS here and there. Emotionally I still am not really letting myself embrace this pregnancy. My husband wants to talk about baby names and all that fun stuff, but I feel like it's still not real, and I don't want to get attached to something that may not happen. It feels irrational to be so paranoid, but infertility really messes with your head.
Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? No appointments until the 30th
Do you need any thoughts or prayers? I think I'm okay right now.
Anything else you'd like to share? I'm just really happy to be here, guys.
QoTW: What's your favorite TV show? Currently probably Game of Thrones.
ETA: Two CPs. One in September 15 and one in April 2016. Both likely due to a balanced translocation. Basically if my egg has the balanced translocation, it cannot survive when connected to a non balanced sperm or something?... but it is slightly possible that they don't all have it which is why I'm cautiously optimistic today.
How far along are you? 4+5
How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? physically, fine. Just tired but that may be due to cutting back on caffeine. Emotionally-this still feels very surreal and I think I am trying to prevent myself from getting excited unless and until I get past the 5 week mark. My highish betas yesterday were surprising so I don't know what to think.
Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? More betas on Thursday, which is also when I hit 5 weeks, which would be the longest I've ever been pregnant.
Do you need any thoughts or prayers? Just that Thursday comes and goes quickly with nothing but a doubling beta report.
Anything else you'd like to share? Not that I can think of.
QoTW: What's your favorite TV show? I love TV. All time faves are probably Arrested Development, Seinfeld and Psych. On TV right now I have several I keep up on; particularly This Is Us. SO GOOD
doodler, Man in the High Castle is on my list to watch! I watched the first episode a while back with H and we originally agreed to watch it together but that never happened so I am going to just watch it on my own!
doodler , Man in the High Castle is on my list to watch! I watched the first episode a while back with H and we originally agreed to watch it together but that never happened so I am going to just watch it on my own!
Honestly, I don't looooove it. It's ok though. We're almost done with season 2 and I'm assuming there won't be a new season for awhile.
doodler , Man in the High Castle is on my list to watch! I watched the first episode a while back with H and we originally agreed to watch it together but that never happened so I am going to just watch it on my own!
Honestly, I don't looooove it. It's ok though. We're almost done with season 2 and I'm assuming there won't be a new season for awhile.
It's pretty dark but the concept is so interesting
Hi all! DH and I were married in 2013. We tried for over a year to conceive. We were diagnosed with MFI after all the testing. Two medicated cycles of follistim and an IUI (followed with progesterone) we were able to conceive DS. We thought we were done. I wanted another. We started trying again August 2016 with medicated cycles of Gonal F and HCG (followed with progesterone) we got our BFP on our 3rd cycle. I soon after miscarried. We did another cycle of the same meds, plus progesterone and estridol post IUI/DTD we got our BFP. Ultrasound confirmed twins, a possible third.
How far along are you? 7w4d
How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Emotional. Physically I'm exhausted and my migraines are kicking full gear. I've got morning sickness this time around, which I can't get a handle on.
Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? I have our second ultrasound this Friday.
Do you need any thoughts or prayers? Yeah, just pray that there isn't a 3rd, and it was just a blip on the screen. If there's a 3rd, I'll have to undergo selective reduction & I don't want to deal with that. And I just hope I hold on to these two babies til they are full term.
Anything else you'd like to share? DH is in the military & he's gone until at least June, so there are days it's a real struggle.
QoTW: What's your favorite TV show? Right now? The Walking Dead
Whew. Started the thread, and now I finally get to post.
About me: We started trying in November 2015. I had been lurking/posting on GKU for over a year at that point researching, lol. We hit the year mark in November 2016 with no sign of a BFP. The week of Thanksgiving we saw the RE for the first time. It was too late in my cycle to do any testing, so we waited for the next cycle to start. Unfortunately, that cycle started on Thanksgiving, so there were no labs open to get CD3 labs. I was able to get my HSG (normal) and DH got his SA (numbers normal but morphology abnormally low). So, we waited for the next cycle, again. Instead, we got our BFP, during cycle #13.
Ok, enough of that.
Shit. I don't remember the questions.
*please hold while I look at them again*
*and now we return to your regularly scheduled programming*
Weekly check-in:
How far along are you? 7 weeks exactly
How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Like fucking shit. The nausea is real. Emotionally, I feel like I'm always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like, my mind is convinced that something is going to go wrong, it's just a matter of when. I wish I could just relax and enjoy this pregnancy. Ugg. Fuck IF
Any appointments or milestones coming up this week? Possibly. I'm supposed to have my annual women's health exam on Friday. I'm hoping I can get them to switch it to a prenatal appointment. If not, well then I'll see him as my GYN on Friday and as my OB in a few weeks.
Do you need any thoughts or prayers? Cross your fingers that I can convince my doc to make it a prenatal appointment. Or maybe even do an ultrasound. I just want to know this embryo is developing ok.
Anything else you'd like to share? We're telling my family this weekend. I'm both excited and nervous. Eek!
QoTW: What's your favorite TV show? I can't pick just one! The Walking Dead, Supernatural, Timeless, Conviction, anything Marvel. Classics like MASH, ER, Law & Order, etc. I love watching TV.
Met in May 2011 Engaged November 2011 Married November 2013 Started TTC November 2015 Began Infertility Workup November 2016 BFP! Lucky #13 Cycle TTC Due Date: 9/5/2017
Well, DS came after 5 years of trying (naturally because there was not a local RE where we lived). We started trying for #2 in 2013 and nothing. Then we moved across the country and I was dx with pcos and hypothyroid. I made an appt. To see an RE and the day before appt. I got a bfp which ended in a MC at 6 weeks. So went back to RE and got Tsh levels in line and did 2 rounds of IUI with letrozole that failed. Since we are oop for any treatment we took a longer than planned break while Tsh levels got back in line, And here I am. Surprise Bfp. Whew
How far along are you? - 6w1$
How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)?
- physically, meh. Nauseated comes and goes. Coffee makes me nauseous /cry
- emotionally, terrified and anxious.
Any appointments or milestones coming up this week?
- ultrasound on Thursday, the reason for above. She said they want to see a heartbeat. So now I am all stressed. If they see one I'll be released to OB.
Do you need any thoughts or prayers?
- yes, that there will be a heartbeat. Please and thank you.
Anything else you'd like to share? - cigars are disgusting AF
QoTW: What's your favorite TV show? - I don't really watch much TV. I do like Girls (hbo), walking dead
Post by salmon2017 on Jan 18, 2017 13:13:28 GMT -5
Some of my less positive thoughts today:
"I hate all the glowy carefree bitches who get pregnant immediately and have no problems and don't lose babies and take everything for granted"
"Why couldn't I have just one normal glowy carefree pregnancy? NO FAIR!!!!!"
"I will be so mad if I lose this baby after suffering through so much nausea again" (This thought makes me particularly mad at myself because of course I would go through anything, anything to have a healthy baby. I am just so over the first trimester hangover feeling)
None of these thoughts are rational, or helpful. Trying very hard to let it all go.
DD lost and born 9/18/2013 at 24 weeks (Trisomy 18) DS born 6/16/2015 (at 39 weeks 6 days, after emergency cerclage at 23 weeks and 14 weeks of bed rest)
salmon2017, my one year old (who I mentioned in my intro that we are adopting) was born with amphetamines in his system and his brother had THC. Their mom received minimal prenatal care and did drugs throughout and had two full term healthy babies (With the exception of the drugs in their system.) I truly just can't let myself think about that very often.
Post by laurenash323 on Jan 18, 2017 15:03:07 GMT -5
salmon2017, I feel the same way about the nausea...I've been through 2 full first trimesters and now 2 partial...I do not want to have another "fruitless" first trimester. I know it is all worth it in the end, but right now when I'm sick and tired and don't feel like doing ANYTHING I hate it. I keep reminding myself that 2nd tri is glorious and it will be here sooner than later.
Married to dh since 2012. Ttc journey: Miscarriage at 8 weeks February 2013 DD born march 2014 Miscarriage at 6 weeks September 2015 Miscarriage at 16 weeks, our angel Sebastian 1/23/16 Pregnancy number 5!! Edd 9/2/17 (my moms brithday!)
salmon2017 I think all those feelings are normal. When I see someone who clearly shouldn't have more kids and doesn't even have custody of the ones they have, and they announce another pregnancy, I get so pissed.
salmon2017 I think all those feelings are normal. When I see someone who clearly shouldn't have more kids and doesn't even have custody of the ones they have, and they announce another pregnancy, I get so pissed.
A mom at our daycare is like 23 I think and has 6 kids. She only has custody of 3 of them and is so terrible to them...and you guessed it, she's pregnant again. I feel for her kids, I can only imagine what their life is like at home.
Married to dh since 2012. Ttc journey: Miscarriage at 8 weeks February 2013 DD born march 2014 Miscarriage at 6 weeks September 2015 Miscarriage at 16 weeks, our angel Sebastian 1/23/16 Pregnancy number 5!! Edd 9/2/17 (my moms brithday!)
salmon2017, my one year old (who I mentioned in my intro that we are adopting) was born with amphetamines in his system and his brother had THC. Their mom received minimal prenatal care and did drugs throughout and had two full term healthy babies (With the exception of the drugs in their system.) I truly just can't let myself think about that very often.
[ High Risk for Intrahepatic Cholestasis of Pregnancy - Fight the Itch Save a Life Kayden October 21, 2012 and Mira August 16, 2014 Angels Lucas, Serena, and Ana
[ High Risk for Intrahepatic Cholestasis of Pregnancy - Fight the Itch Save a Life Kayden October 21, 2012 and Mira August 16, 2014 Angels Lucas, Serena, and Ana
Married to dh since 2012. Ttc journey: Miscarriage at 8 weeks February 2013 DD born march 2014 Miscarriage at 6 weeks September 2015 Miscarriage at 16 weeks, our angel Sebastian 1/23/16 Pregnancy number 5!! Edd 9/2/17 (my moms brithday!)
[ High Risk for Intrahepatic Cholestasis of Pregnancy - Fight the Itch Save a Life Kayden October 21, 2012 and Mira August 16, 2014 Angels Lucas, Serena, and Ana
Post by salmon2017 on Jan 20, 2017 18:42:34 GMT -5
You guys, brown discharge is a normal pregnancy thing right? I have never had any discharge in previous pregnancies but just had some brown about an hour ago. Called doc and he said take it easy, pelvic rest, no exercise, and is sending me for progesterone and HCG measurements at the lab tomorrow morning. His approach is very cautious which I like, but it also does not make me feel like this is normal, which I thought it could be, so then that is stressing me out more.
DD lost and born 9/18/2013 at 24 weeks (Trisomy 18) DS born 6/16/2015 (at 39 weeks 6 days, after emergency cerclage at 23 weeks and 14 weeks of bed rest)
DD lost and born 9/18/2013 at 24 weeks (Trisomy 18) DS born 6/16/2015 (at 39 weeks 6 days, after emergency cerclage at 23 weeks and 14 weeks of bed rest)
Just to add: also some mild achiness, like before I get my period. But nothing I would call cramping.
. Yes, that means old blood. I actually spotted every time I pooped or had sex when KU with dd. Did you maybe have sex or strain to poop recently? Could've been from that or any number of things. Hope your numbers come back good, take it easy!
Last Edit: Jan 20, 2017 18:57:08 GMT -5 by laurenash323: Terrible wording
Married to dh since 2012. Ttc journey: Miscarriage at 8 weeks February 2013 DD born march 2014 Miscarriage at 6 weeks September 2015 Miscarriage at 16 weeks, our angel Sebastian 1/23/16 Pregnancy number 5!! Edd 9/2/17 (my moms brithday!)
Just to add: also some mild achiness, like before I get my period. But nothing I would call cramping.
. Yes, that means old blood. I actually spotted every time I pooped or had sex when KU with dd. Did you maybe have sex or strain to poop recently? Could've been from that or any number of things. Hope your numbers come back good, take it easy!
Thank you there has been no sex for a couple of weeks now, and I was really hoping for some tonight! I will just try to relax this weekend and more importantly not stress too much. Easier said than done, as we know.
DD lost and born 9/18/2013 at 24 weeks (Trisomy 18) DS born 6/16/2015 (at 39 weeks 6 days, after emergency cerclage at 23 weeks and 14 weeks of bed rest)
You guys, brown discharge is a normal pregnancy thing right? I have never had any discharge in previous pregnancies but just had some brown about an hour ago. Called doc and he said take it easy, pelvic rest, no exercise, and is sending me for progesterone and HCG measurements at the lab tomorrow morning. His approach is very cautious which I like, but it also does not make me feel like this is normal, which I thought it could be, so then that is stressing me out more.
PGAL brain is totally messing with me right now.
Sounds like spotting. There's a thread about 1st tri spotting over on the PgIF board. I'll see if I can find the link to share.
Met in May 2011 Engaged November 2011 Married November 2013 Started TTC November 2015 Began Infertility Workup November 2016 BFP! Lucky #13 Cycle TTC Due Date: 9/5/2017
Met in May 2011 Engaged November 2011 Married November 2013 Started TTC November 2015 Began Infertility Workup November 2016 BFP! Lucky #13 Cycle TTC Due Date: 9/5/2017
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