Post by lucylou on Jan 21, 2017 5:41:01 GMT -5
Hello. I think I'm jumping the gun here posting on this board, but I could really use some hair pats from BTDT moms. Warning: this is going to be a novel.
I have a 2.5 yo DS and my H and I were thrilled to find out I am pregnant again (very planned and wanted). I'm only 5+2, but was having a lot of cramping in my side so the doctor had me come in yesterday for an early scan to rule out an ectopic.
The first tech couldn't find a sac in the uterus, but saw something on my ovary that she thought could be an ectopic. She brought in a more experienced tech who thinks that was a cyst on my ovary and she found not one, but two, gestational sacs. It was such an emotional roller coaster.
She let it be known that since it's too early to see yolk sac/fetal pole/heartbeat that this isn't a sure thing, but I'm still freaking out.
There is not one part of me that wants twins. Aside from the "oh shit, I can't handle 2 newborns/2 toddlers, etc," my main concern is DS who will have just turned 3 when they're born. He's a great kid, but I SAH with him. We are very much into our routine and he's used to having me to himself at all times. I felt confident working another baby into the family and making the adjustment smooth. But that all just went out the window. I'm scared I won't have enough time for him. Especially if I ever want to sleep again. I'm also worried as they get older he'll feel like the "odd man out" since everyone knows twins have such a close special bond.
I'm an only child and hated it. I was so excited to give him a sibling that he could be close with. Now I feel like it all backfired and he's going to feel worse being left out, ignored, etc. These pregnancy hormones aren't helping anything.
Other concerns the more thought I've given it- even though I wanted 3 kids, I wanted to be able to take my time and enjoy each one. Now I feel like I'm getting robbed of an entire newborn period (which I loved). Two, really. I won't even get to enjoy this one. It will be such a blur. I also didn't want this to be my last pregnancy. I feel cheated out of a few more years before an empty nest since both will likely leave for college at the same time (I told you I'm going crazy). I know I should be greatful. 2 babies are better than no babies. This just isn't how I wanted our family to be. I feel like it's ruined now.
I really hope this doesn't come out sounding insulting. Me listing everything bad I can think of about multiples. I'm just assuming people feel different when they get to the other side and I could really stand to hear that right now.
TL;DR: tell me it will be ok with twins and a 3yo
ETA: forgot to mention, I had high blood pressure and was on bed rest for a month with my first pregnancy. I gained a ton of weight and had a lot of swelling. Physically, I feel like twins might do me in.
I have a 2.5 yo DS and my H and I were thrilled to find out I am pregnant again (very planned and wanted). I'm only 5+2, but was having a lot of cramping in my side so the doctor had me come in yesterday for an early scan to rule out an ectopic.
The first tech couldn't find a sac in the uterus, but saw something on my ovary that she thought could be an ectopic. She brought in a more experienced tech who thinks that was a cyst on my ovary and she found not one, but two, gestational sacs. It was such an emotional roller coaster.
She let it be known that since it's too early to see yolk sac/fetal pole/heartbeat that this isn't a sure thing, but I'm still freaking out.
There is not one part of me that wants twins. Aside from the "oh shit, I can't handle 2 newborns/2 toddlers, etc," my main concern is DS who will have just turned 3 when they're born. He's a great kid, but I SAH with him. We are very much into our routine and he's used to having me to himself at all times. I felt confident working another baby into the family and making the adjustment smooth. But that all just went out the window. I'm scared I won't have enough time for him. Especially if I ever want to sleep again. I'm also worried as they get older he'll feel like the "odd man out" since everyone knows twins have such a close special bond.
I'm an only child and hated it. I was so excited to give him a sibling that he could be close with. Now I feel like it all backfired and he's going to feel worse being left out, ignored, etc. These pregnancy hormones aren't helping anything.
Other concerns the more thought I've given it- even though I wanted 3 kids, I wanted to be able to take my time and enjoy each one. Now I feel like I'm getting robbed of an entire newborn period (which I loved). Two, really. I won't even get to enjoy this one. It will be such a blur. I also didn't want this to be my last pregnancy. I feel cheated out of a few more years before an empty nest since both will likely leave for college at the same time (I told you I'm going crazy). I know I should be greatful. 2 babies are better than no babies. This just isn't how I wanted our family to be. I feel like it's ruined now.
I really hope this doesn't come out sounding insulting. Me listing everything bad I can think of about multiples. I'm just assuming people feel different when they get to the other side and I could really stand to hear that right now.
TL;DR: tell me it will be ok with twins and a 3yo
ETA: forgot to mention, I had high blood pressure and was on bed rest for a month with my first pregnancy. I gained a ton of weight and had a lot of swelling. Physically, I feel like twins might do me in.