*~*~*~Monday Bitchfest~*~*~*

[thechickencoop]

You guys

[icequeen]

Feb 16, 2015 22:25:02 GMT -5 thechickencoop said:

{{hugs}} icequeen Keep venting here, it can't hurt to write it all out. Does your therapist have an after-hours line? I don't know if that's a thing or not but it might be helpful to be able to chat with someone IRL as you're having these feelings.

Well, I did email my RE tonight because I didn't get to talk to him today in the office. I told him that I am not under any circumstances taking any more Clomid, ever. He suggested Tamoxifen to me again, but knowing that I did not respond to it in October, I am not wasting another cycle on it. I told him I wanted to try Femara, and he agreed that we would try that the next cycle if I do not get pregnant this month. He was adamant about sticking to the plan we set up for the remainder of the cycle, which is to trigger on Wednesday and take Estrace. So fine, that's what we will do.

DH just ordered me some natural estrogen and uterine health supplements and told me to have hope and not be so angry. I am happy that he didn't make a big deal about getting me extra things. I just feel guilty asking him for it but he was really sweet to me today and is trying really hard to help me through my hard days.

[mtnmomma13]

Feb 16, 2015 22:42:37 GMT -5 ttcminicofer said:

Feb 16, 2015 22:41:15 GMT -5 mtnmomma13 said:

icequeen as everyone else has said you are not worthless and you do matter. I'm so sorry you are struggling, but pp have said it so well that you are important to so many people.

ttcminicofer I'm sorry your biopsy was so painful. I felt better in a couple days so I hope you feel much better tomorrow. And fx all is well.

The nurse told me to expect the worst tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to it. I honestly don't think it would have hurt me so bad had they not decided to go through my nipple

Not that it matters now, but did they say why they chose to go through your nipple? I hope you can get some rest tonight and find something that can help you manage the pain. You'll be in my thoughts. 

[pismoduo]

Feb 16, 2015 22:23:18 GMT -5 thechickencoop said:

I left my fucking book at work and I'm not back til Wednesday.

No lie, I have let myself into the office after hours to resolve this very issue before.

[pismoduo]

Feb 16, 2015 22:50:19 GMT -5 mtnmomma13 said:

Feb 16, 2015 22:42:37 GMT -5 ttcminicofer said:

The nurse told me to expect the worst tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to it. I honestly don't think it would have hurt me so bad had they not decided to go through my nipple

Not that it matters now, but did they say why they chose to go through your nipple? I hope you can get some rest tonight and find something that can help you manage the pain. You'll be in my thoughts. 

I wondered this same thing. Seems like the most painful way to do it...

And hugs to you ttcminicofer!

[ttcminicofer]

Feb 16, 2015 22:50:19 GMT -5 mtnmomma13 said:

Feb 16, 2015 22:42:37 GMT -5 ttcminicofer said:

The nurse told me to expect the worst tomorrow. I'm not looking forward to it. I honestly don't think it would have hurt me so bad had they not decided to go through my nipple

Not that it matters now, but did they say why they chose to go through your nipple? I hope you can get some rest tonight and find something that can help you manage the pain. You'll be in my thoughts. 

No they didn't, but they also didn't explain why they said and did a lot during the biopsy. For example, at one point the nurse said what we thought was a fibroadenoma, now looked like a hematoma. Then after when I asked if it still looked like a hematoma she got quiet and said no. I asked what it was and she said my results would be in in two days. She also found ANOTHER cyst since last week in the same breast. I had no idea he was going trough the nipple until it was done and he left the room and I looked down and saw where he made the incision because it was still bleeding.

[thechickencoop]

Feb 16, 2015 22:49:05 GMT -5 icequeen said:

Feb 16, 2015 22:25:02 GMT -5 thechickencoop said:

{{hugs}} icequeen Keep venting here, it can't hurt to write it all out. Does your therapist have an after-hours line? I don't know if that's a thing or not but it might be helpful to be able to chat with someone IRL as you're having these feelings.

Well, I did email my RE tonight because I didn't get to talk to him today in the office. I told him that I am not under any circumstances taking any more Clomid, ever. He suggested Tamoxifen to me again, but knowing that I did not respond to it in October, I am not wasting another cycle on it. I told him I wanted to try Femara, and he agreed that we would try that the next cycle if I do not get pregnant this month. He was adamant about sticking to the plan we set up for the remainder of the cycle, which is to trigger on Wednesday and take Estrace. So fine, that's what we will do.

DH just ordered me some natural estrogen and uterine health supplements and told me to have hope and not be so angry. I am happy that he didn't make a big deal about getting me extra things. I just feel guilty asking him for it but he was really sweet to me today and is trying really hard to help me through my hard days.

Oh!  Well that's good that at least you got to hear from him tonight.  I don't know about RE plans, but wouldn't they have to be kind of fluid since your body could change and respond differently at any point?  Would it still be beneficial to go through that next week?  

[pismoduo]

Feb 16, 2015 22:55:45 GMT -5 ttcminicofer said:

Feb 16, 2015 22:50:19 GMT -5 mtnmomma13 said:

Not that it matters now, but did they say why they chose to go through your nipple? I hope you can get some rest tonight and find something that can help you manage the pain. You'll be in my thoughts. 

No they didn't, but they also didn't explain why they said and did a lot during the biopsy. For example, at one point the nurse said what we thought was a fibroadenoma, now looked like a hematoma. Then after when I asked if it still looked like a hematoma she got quiet and said no. I asked what it was and she said my results would be in in two days. She also found ANOTHER cyst since last week in the same breast. I had no idea he was going trough the nipple until it was done and he left the room and I looked down and saw where he made the incision because it was still bleeding.

This might be different than I initially pictured it. But still sounds painful.

[thechickencoop]

Feb 16, 2015 22:51:11 GMT -5 pismoduo said:

Feb 16, 2015 22:23:18 GMT -5 thechickencoop said:

I left my fucking book at work and I'm not back til Wednesday.

No lie, I have let myself into the office after hours to resolve this very issue before.

I was like, 20 minutes away when I realized it wasn't in my bag and for juuuust a fleeting moment I thought I would turn around.  But, alas, daycare.  And snow.  And all the other logical reasons that I needed to just deal until Wednesday

[akraus2015]

icequeen and ttcminicofer, I'm sorry to hear that you are both going through such yucky things. I will be thinking of you both! ((Hugs))

[Deleted]

ttcminicofer - I hope you get some positive results. Don't be afraid to go in with a notebook filled with questions. If their answers don't make sense, make them explain it again.

[wanderingheart]

I know I'm late to the hugfest, but I'm handing out multiple hugs tonight.

ttcminicofer - I'm sorry you're in pain. Continued prayers for healing and good results.

icequeen - everyone else has said what I wanted to say, but just know that one more person cares for you and is giving you all the hugs.

To both of you....Take care of yourselves tonight. You are loved, you are valued, and we are here for you.

[icequeen]

Feb 16, 2015 22:57:46 GMT -5 thechickencoop said:

Feb 16, 2015 22:49:05 GMT -5 icequeen said:

Well, I did email my RE tonight because I didn't get to talk to him today in the office. I told him that I am not under any circumstances taking any more Clomid, ever. He suggested Tamoxifen to me again, but knowing that I did not respond to it in October, I am not wasting another cycle on it. I told him I wanted to try Femara, and he agreed that we would try that the next cycle if I do not get pregnant this month. He was adamant about sticking to the plan we set up for the remainder of the cycle, which is to trigger on Wednesday and take Estrace. So fine, that's what we will do.

DH just ordered me some natural estrogen and uterine health supplements and told me to have hope and not be so angry. I am happy that he didn't make a big deal about getting me extra things. I just feel guilty asking him for it but he was really sweet to me today and is trying really hard to help me through my hard days.

Oh!  Well that's good that at least you got to hear from him tonight.  I don't know about RE plans, but wouldn't they have to be kind of fluid since your body could change and respond differently at any point?  Would it still be beneficial to go through that next week?  

We will have to see how my follicles look, but they should be ready to trigger by this Wednesday. I just don't want to trigger if my lining is still horrible. It doesn't make any sense to me if there won't be any chance for implantation even if fertilization does occur. I suppose we can load up the Estrace but I don't know how powerful of an effect it will have if my lining is still 3.5 on CD 16. Fucking hell, I don't know how I'm going to make it through the next two days.

[ttcminicofer]

Feb 16, 2015 23:10:33 GMT -5 @wallflwr926 said:

ttcminicofer - I hope you get some positive results. Don't be afraid to go in with a notebook filled with questions. If their answers don't make sense, make them explain it again.

Well the problem with the radiologist is, he is weird. I tried asking about the biopsy and he said, "well I'm using a vacuum to suck out some tissue and it will sound like a coffee grinder. The numbing solution will feel like a bee sting. Now I'm going to place this towel over your face so you don't spit on me during this, ok!" He just wouldn't give great answers. And as soon as the biopsy was done, he got up, recorded the time the procedure was done and walked out the door while saying, "you were great!" The nurse was amazing though. And she kept trying to explain how I would feel for the next few days and what I could expect and what is bad, but every time I asked about what it is she didn't give me a straight answer. I did see the tissue and it was pure blood, so I don't know what this is anymore.

[getzystark]

Feb 16, 2015 23:16:44 GMT -5 icequeen said:

Feb 16, 2015 22:57:46 GMT -5 thechickencoop said:

Oh!  Well that's good that at least you got to hear from him tonight.  I don't know about RE plans, but wouldn't they have to be kind of fluid since your body could change and respond differently at any point?  Would it still be beneficial to go through that next week?  

We will have to see how my follicles look, but they should be ready to trigger by this Wednesday. I just don't want to trigger if my lining is still horrible. It doesn't make any sense to me if there won't be any chance for implantation even if fertilization does occur. I suppose we can load up the Estrace but I don't know how powerful of an effect it will have if my lining is still 3.5 on CD 16. Fucking hell, I don't know how I'm going to make it through the next two days.

We've got you. 

[ttcminicofer]

Feb 16, 2015 23:16:34 GMT -5 wanderingheart said:

I know I'm late to the hugfest, but I'm handing out multiple hugs tonight.

ttcminicofer - I'm sorry you're in pain. Continued prayers for healing and good results.

icequeen - everyone else has said what I wanted to say, but just know that one more person cares for you and is giving you all the hugs.

To both of you....Take care of yourselves tonight. You are loved, you are valued, and we are here for you.

I absolutely love that movie! Thank you for everyone's support. It means the world to me to have a place of amazing people by my side

[icequeen]

Feb 16, 2015 23:19:46 GMT -5 getzystark said:

Feb 16, 2015 23:16:44 GMT -5 icequeen said:

We will have to see how my follicles look, but they should be ready to trigger by this Wednesday. I just don't want to trigger if my lining is still horrible. It doesn't make any sense to me if there won't be any chance for implantation even if fertilization does occur. I suppose we can load up the Estrace but I don't know how powerful of an effect it will have if my lining is still 3.5 on CD 16. Fucking hell, I don't know how I'm going to make it through the next two days.

We've got you. 

Y'all seriously saved my sanity tonight. I love y'all so much.

[Deleted]

Feb 16, 2015 23:17:44 GMT -5 ttcminicofer said:

Feb 16, 2015 23:10:33 GMT -5 @wallflwr926 said:

ttcminicofer - I hope you get some positive results. Don't be afraid to go in with a notebook filled with questions. If their answers don't make sense, make them explain it again.

Well the problem with the radiologist is, he is weird. I tried asking about the biopsy and he said, "well I'm using a vacuum to suck out some tissue and it will sound like a coffee grinder. The numbing solution will feel like a bee sting. Now I'm going to place this towel over your face so you don't spit on me during this, ok!" He just wouldn't give great answers. And as soon as the biopsy was done, he got up, recorded the time the procedure was done and walked out the door while saying, "you were great!" The nurse was amazing though. And she kept trying to explain how I would feel for the next few days and what I could expect and what is bad, but every time I asked about what it is she didn't give me a straight answer. I did see the tissue and it was pure blood, so I don't know what this is anymore.

I'm sorry they are worrying you. It's mostly because of liability that she couldn't give you an answer. Without the biopsy results, there is potential she could give you an incorrect answer and cause unnecessary anxiety. Not that you aren't already.
Hang in there. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you.

[getzystark]

Feb 16, 2015 23:24:53 GMT -5 icequeen said:

Feb 16, 2015 23:19:46 GMT -5 getzystark said:

We've got you. 

Y'all seriously saved my sanity tonight. I love y'all so much.

We're so here. And many of us know a little of what you're feeling, all too well. It's helpful to have that perspective. 

[wanderingheart]

Feb 16, 2015 23:30:25 GMT -5 getzystark said:

Feb 16, 2015 23:24:53 GMT -5 icequeen said:

Y'all seriously saved my sanity tonight. I love y'all so much.

We're so here. And many of us know a little of what you're feeling, all too well. It's helpful to have that perspective. 

+1

[getzystark]

Feb 16, 2015 23:31:49 GMT -5 wanderingheart said:

Feb 16, 2015 23:30:25 GMT -5 getzystark said:

We're so here. And many of us know a little of what you're feeling, all too well. It's helpful to have that perspective. 

+1

Oh hai friend. 

[wanderingheart]

Feb 16, 2015 23:32:49 GMT -5 getzystark said:

Feb 16, 2015 23:31:49 GMT -5 wanderingheart said:

+1

Oh hai friend. 

oh hai there graham cracker to my marshmallow. 

[getzystark]

Feb 16, 2015 23:38:02 GMT -5 wanderingheart said:

Feb 16, 2015 23:32:49 GMT -5 getzystark said:

Oh hai friend. 

oh hai there graham cracker to my marshmallow. 

Tee hee.

[wormy42]

My bitch is coming in a little late, but its at people who derail discussions with unnecessary and irrelevant arguments. Urgh. I post one thing about birth trauma awareness, and it spirals into a pro-choice, pro-life debate. I deleted the whole thing I was so pissed. Lol.

[Sparkly]

I love how the Monday bitchfest thread turned into a lovefest. Amazing ladies here, all around. And today is a new day!

[teraiin]

Feb 17, 2015 7:02:58 GMT -5 Sparkly said:

I love how the Monday bitchfest thread turned into a lovefest. Amazing ladies here, all around. And today is a new day!

Couldn't have put it better myself! You guys rock

[joy]

I hope you're feeling better this morning, icequeen. ::hugs::

And yikes, ttcminicofer- I'm sorry for your day!! Waiting for results is the hardest part. ::hugs::

[ttcminicofer]

Feb 17, 2015 7:51:31 GMT -5 joy said:

I hope you're feeling better this morning, icequeen. ::hugs::

And yikes, ttcminicofer- I'm sorry for your day!! Waiting for results is the hardest part. ::hugs::

Thanks joy! I'm hoping for quick and good results