I'm back and I missed you!
Feb 17, 2015 10:06:25 GMT -5
Post by bee on Feb 17, 2015 10:06:25 GMT -5
I have gotten a lot of messages asking where the hell I have been so I guess I'll just spill my guts to everyone.
I had taken a little break and then when I was going to come back 3 weeks ago I got a phone call from my Mom telling me that my little brother (19) was in the hospital because he overdosed on heroin. Once we got there I really only left for a week and a half to shower and take care of DS. There were brain surgeries and a heart surgery and an exploratory surgery. He was sedated and on so many machines the entire time, it was so scary and sad to be in his room. It was a very minute by minute situation. Every single organ in his body had terrible staph infections and he was having strokes. The night after his open heart surgery he went into septic shock. The next day we thought things were starting to get better after they went into his abdomen and relieved some pressure because of fluid build up. His septic numbers started to go down and his blood pressure was returning to normal. After we were told that they were happy with the tiny bit of progress he made that day most of us went home to sleep at home for a night. I got the call in the middle of the night that we lost him around 1 am on 2/5. So then we were busy with funeral stuff and I stayed with my mom for a while so she didn't have to be alone. It was a total roller coaster. Every time they took him to surgery we were told to say goodbye. But he kept defying the odds! His brain surgery was given a 1/1000 chance of survival and he made it through without any issues. He was a fighter to the very end. It all just sucks. Being the oldest I feel like I need to take care of everyone and make sure everyone is ok. It's just been a nightmare seriously.
Thoughts and prayers are so very very much appreciated still. I am having a really hard time with this. He was my first sibling and I really feel like that gave us a special bond. He was my baby. It's all really really hard.
BUT, IM BACK!!!
I had taken a little break and then when I was going to come back 3 weeks ago I got a phone call from my Mom telling me that my little brother (19) was in the hospital because he overdosed on heroin. Once we got there I really only left for a week and a half to shower and take care of DS. There were brain surgeries and a heart surgery and an exploratory surgery. He was sedated and on so many machines the entire time, it was so scary and sad to be in his room. It was a very minute by minute situation. Every single organ in his body had terrible staph infections and he was having strokes. The night after his open heart surgery he went into septic shock. The next day we thought things were starting to get better after they went into his abdomen and relieved some pressure because of fluid build up. His septic numbers started to go down and his blood pressure was returning to normal. After we were told that they were happy with the tiny bit of progress he made that day most of us went home to sleep at home for a night. I got the call in the middle of the night that we lost him around 1 am on 2/5. So then we were busy with funeral stuff and I stayed with my mom for a while so she didn't have to be alone. It was a total roller coaster. Every time they took him to surgery we were told to say goodbye. But he kept defying the odds! His brain surgery was given a 1/1000 chance of survival and he made it through without any issues. He was a fighter to the very end. It all just sucks. Being the oldest I feel like I need to take care of everyone and make sure everyone is ok. It's just been a nightmare seriously.
Thoughts and prayers are so very very much appreciated still. I am having a really hard time with this. He was my first sibling and I really feel like that gave us a special bond. He was my baby. It's all really really hard.
BUT, IM BACK!!!
