Weekly All-CAR check-in 4/23/2017

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therealbug, thinking of you, especially today, as this is appointment day for you, right? Hoping for good cervix and baby news.

ldubhawksfan, @jj32, I feel you ladies. I also don't feel terribly connected to this pregnancy yet and I try to live completely in the moment for now, as it was too painful to remember "oh I thought I'd have a baby now, but I don't." Today I'm pregnant, and I'm happy about it, but I'm not ready to plan too much yet.

addymac, I understand so much where you are. I still feel twinges like that years later when people ask if my daughter is my only. I tend to be upfront with people, and it's easier now that I'm able to talk about it without being as emotional - I think so many families go through pregnancy loss and so many don't talk about it, so I try to be someone that does. My shorter answer when pregnant was "this is my third pregnancy but will be our first living child" and leave it at that. I also thought the comparisons got lesser with time - I don't keep thinking "I would be here by now" and I'm very present in the moment with L. There are times though - I'll see photos of babies born when our first should have been born and think, that's how old he/she would be by now. I think of my losses pretty often, but it's not as painful anymore because I'm no longer mourning both the baby AND parenthood.

TL;DR - you're totally normal and I'm sorry it's so hard right now.

[momentomori]

Sending good thoughts and vibes to all this week. It seems like a tough pgal week.
How far along? Around 7 weeks
How am I feeling?
Physically still pretty good. Which of course worries me. I'm so hungry and my boobs hurt, but that's about it. Oh and I took a nap in my car over lunch yesterday. Emotionally I'm ok. Just trying to make it day to day. Looking forward/hoping to see a heartbeat. Still nervous to go to the bathroom.
Other updates, thoughts, vents: In my goal of getting all the things in my pie hole, that included some feta cheese. Must pay more attention. Also, MH can't stop telling people. It's annoying, but I know he's excited and just wants to celebrate every day we can with this one.
Upcoming appointments: Tomorrow. My doc may or may not try to find a heartbeat. I want to push her to do so, because otherwise why not just delay the appointment?
Thoughts/prayers: sending my good thoughts to everyone else!
Sorry this post looks like shit. Mobile posting...

[sarcaztic10]

Paging therealbug how did the appt today go? I have been thinking of you all day!

[cali]

Apr 25, 2017 18:45:11 GMT -5 sarcaztic10 said:

Paging therealbug how did the appt today go? I have been thinking of you all day!

+1

[birch113]

Apr 25, 2017 20:07:39 GMT -5 cali said:

Apr 25, 2017 18:45:11 GMT -5 sarcaztic10 said:

Paging therealbug how did the appt today go? I have been thinking of you all day!

+1

+2 via Lurkerdom.

[leloyd]

therealbug, Thinking about you and your babies! FX the appointment went well

How far along are you? Week/baby size? 34w5d/basketball hoop

How are you feeling (physically and/or emotionally)? Physically - living it up with acid reflux and lots of bh contractions. Emotionally, I have continued to be a hot mess and still feeling overwhelmed.

Other updates? Thoughts, vents, baby preparations, etc? I had passed the 1 hr GD test a while back, but given my history my midwife asked me to keep an eye on my levels a couple times a week just in case. At my last visit, we realized that my test strips were expired so I got new test strips and she wanted me to test every day until my next visit. I started testing Monday and things have not been good. I have yet to get a fasting under 100 and while my lunch and dinner numbers are great, my BF numbers have been terrible. I couldn't even get under 120 with scrambled eggs and a slice of Ezekiel bread.

Upcoming milestones or appointments? We had our prenatal couples yoga workshop this week which was awesome. Nothing else this week

Do you need any thoughts or prayers? Nope, Sending them to everyone else who needs them.

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ldubhawksfan - how did it go today?

[ldubhawksfan]

Apr 26, 2017 16:33:45 GMT -5 @officedronette said:

ldubhawksfan - how did it go today?

We saw a pole and a flicker. Measuring 6w1d, which I'm 6w2d per FF. I asked my dr what the chances of trisomy 18 again and he said really low. He's optimistic. I'm relieved it's not another BO, but still scared.

Thank you for asking

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ldubhawksfan - I'm glad it went well and I understand still being scared, it seems loss never leaves you. But today you're pregnant! Yay! (I find it much easier to be stoked for others than myself.)

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Apr 26, 2017 18:09:42 GMT -5 vigorousbabymama said:

Apr 25, 2017 20:16:25 GMT -5 birch113 said:

+2 via Lurkerdom.

+3

+4 I keep checking back for an update. Bug, I hope everything is okay! You and babies are in my thoughts.

[chknma]

leloyd
Whats your history for needing to check after passing the 1 hour?

FWIW- I have GD with each pregnancy and every time after 34-36 weeks my fasting numbers always tank to the point I need to medicate and can't be diet controlled any more

If my fasting numbers are high it's hard to control my breakfast....I upped my protein for my night snack and had luck until whatever I did wasn't keeping me below the cut off around 34 weeks

((Hugs)) I've still get frustrated with an outcome I have come to expect

**also wanted to add that my MFM thinks I have more of a fasting glucose disorder() since My after meal numbers are good and wants me to see an endocrinologist about 3 months after delivery with a good chance to prevent future issues in getting type II

[hollyberry]

I think we are all worried about you therealbug! Sending all the positive vibes your way. Hugs!

[notelsie]

therealbug - I'd like to be added please FF says I'm due 12/21.

How far along are you? Week/baby size? 6w (per FF) sweet pea

How are you feeling (physically and/or emotionally)? I go back and forth, I am so overjoyed to be pregnant again, but also terrified. I know I shouldn't feel guilty being pregnant again so soon, but sometimes it's hard.

Other updates? Thoughts, vents, baby preparations, etc? The lack of symptoms lately are freaking me out a bit.

Upcoming milestones or appointments? I am currently at my loss milestone, but I won't know anything until my ultrasound on 5/3. I'm praying so hard to see a baby this time. I can't have a repeat of last time.

Do you need any thoughts or prayers? My family is going through some stuff. My great uncle just had a massive stroke yesterday.. he won't be with us much longer. And his brother, my grandpa, has to go through testing very quickly because they suspect cancer on his liver, etc.

[notelsie]

Hoping everything is ok, therealbug

[luciddreamer]

How far along are you? Week/baby size? 17+5

How are you feeling (physically and/or emotionally)? Physically, pretty good except for this cold that is spreading through our house. Boo. Emotionally, feeling pretty good right now.

Other updates? Thoughts, vents, baby preparations, etc? Starting to make a mental list of the things we're going to need for rainbow #2.

Upcoming milestones or appointments? My AS is scheduled for May 11!

Do you need any thoughts or prayers? I'm doing ok right now.

[cali]

notelsie, I know it's hard but try not to overanalyze symptoms or lack of symptoms. I mas myself crazy with that in first tri because I had hardly any symptoms but all was fine.

[therealbug]

Sorry for the late update:

Cervix looked much better and was measuring over 2.5. The OB did a manual check and said I am closed on the inside now so she was happy with the progress and feels like the dialation/shortening was due to PTL. Both the MFM and the OB were happy. Bed rest continues with the same restrictions.

Twin A's fluid level is normal but they will continue to do weekly fluid checks to make sure both stay in normal range due to the indomethacin. Twin B will have a growth scan on Tuesday since she is still measuring small. Both looked good otherwise.

[momentomori]

Thanks for the update, and glad the doctors are happy and those kiddos are staying put!

[Deleted]

I'm so happy things are looking good, therealbug! Yay! Fx the growth scan goes well.

[birch113]

Thank you for the update, therealbug! So so so happy that your cervix is looking good and those baby bugs keep cooking!

[addymac]

therealbug - YAY!! i am SO SO happy to read this update! FX everything goes well with the growth scan. So glad to read this. Sorry you are still on bedrest but what good news otherwise!!

[sarcaztic10]

I am so glad to hear everything is ok therealbug! I am always sending you and the babies positive thoughts.

[cali]

So relieved to see this update therealbug! I hope everything remains stable for a good long while.

[hollyberry]

therealbug, happy to see the update i was afraid ypu were admitted to hospital for bed rest. Glad it still is holding steady! - keep up the good work!

[Deleted]

So glad to see a good update with a closed cervix! I hope everything continues to cooperate as you do the hard work of bed rest baby cooking. I'm hoping you've got some good media to keep you occupied and entertained so you don't go too crazy.

[cnf2013]

So happy for a good update therealbug!

[luciddreamer]

therealbug, I'm so happy to see this update! Fx everything continues to go smoothly.

[leloyd]

Apr 26, 2017 21:58:55 GMT -5 chknma said:

leloyd
Whats your history for needing to check after passing the 1 hour?

FWIW- I have GD with each pregnancy and every time after 34-36 weeks my fasting numbers always tank to the point I need to medicate and can't be diet controlled any more

If my fasting numbers are high it's hard to control my breakfast....I upped my protein for my night snack and had luck until whatever I did wasn't keeping me below the cut off around 34 weeks

((Hugs)) I've still get frustrated with an outcome I have come to expect

**also wanted to add that my MFM thinks I have more of a fasting glucose disorder() since My after meal numbers are good and wants me to see an endocrinologist about 3 months after delivery with a good chance to prevent future issues in getting type II

Sorry it took me a bit to get back to this. My husband has been sick with a stomach bug and I haven't had a chance to get online.

So with my first, we wound up inducing a week early, even though my blood sugar levels were pretty good the whole time, because my daughter was measuring a bit big and her stomach was measuring three weeks ahead of the rest of her. (She was fine). My midwife wanted to keep an eye on the numbers anyway given the history, that my extended family has a long history of GD and Type 2, and she said the pancreas tends to get more tired as the pregnancy goes on.

The fasting numbers are killing me this time. I mostly have the other numbers under control. Breakfast is a bit problematic but as long as I keep piling on the protein, I can handle 1/2 slice of toast. I don't know what else to do for fasting though. My lowest number so far was a 102 from a chiia seed pudding. Tonight I am going to try just protein and see if that does anything. 

I'm glad that your MFM is staying on top of everything and working with you to prevent future Type II. Do you mind if I ask how you respond to the medication and if you only take it for fasting? I'm a little worried that I won't be able to avoid the medication much longer...