May PGAL/PGAIF

[ssm]

Just checking in...

How is everyone?

Has pgal brain begun to settle more into the back of your mind instead of the front?

Are things becoming more real and less terrifying?

I know there are a few late losses as well, how are you feeling approaching that milestone?

[NariaDreaming]

We are here. Honestly I thought having the NIPT results would calm me. It has not and with this stupid placenta in the way (because my body can't do a damn thing right) it will probably be another month until I can feel movement .

This is also officially the longest we have gone between ultrasounds (2weeks) and it's killing me a little inside

[Cythe]

Great idea for the checkin ssm, thank you!

I was doing really great with loss anxiety until the last few days. **tw** I came across a poster who shared her loss story (years ago now) of her twin boys she lost to infection and I can't stop thinking about that as it's now getting uncomfortable for me to bend over, ect. It feels like a ball in my belly.

Now, I'm not dumb. I know that at some point I'd be able to feel my uterus when I bent over, tried to get up off the sofa, ect but I didn't expect it to feel like this. Now I'm just ultra paranoid of infection and thinking that's why it's so uncomfortable. It's not painful per se, but it's pretty tender.

Anyway that's where I'm at. My home doppler treats me well so I'll just continue to have faith and be reassured by the thumping of her heart.

[ssm]

May 2, 2017 7:39:36 GMT -5 NariaDreaming said:

We are here. Honestly I thought having the NIPT results would calm me. It has not and with this stupid placenta in the way (because my body can't do a damn thing right) it will probably be another month until I can feel movement .

This is also officially the longest we have gone between ultrasounds (2weeks) and it's killing me a little inside

im sorry the hg is making things worse too
Have you tried a Doppler to help calm you?

[NariaDreaming]

May 2, 2017 8:19:35 GMT -5 ssm said:

May 2, 2017 7:39:36 GMT -5 NariaDreaming said:

We are here. Honestly I thought having the NIPT results would calm me. It has not and with this stupid placenta in the way (because my body can't do a damn thing right) it will probably be another month until I can feel movement .


This is also officially the longest we have gone between ultrasounds (2weeks) and it's killing me a little inside

im sorry the hg is making things worse too
Have you tried a Doppler to help calm you?

Anterior placenta + fluffy girl + hyperactive baby = doppler strugglebus. Even my OB struggles to lock on long enough to even get a measure

[Cythe]

May 2, 2017 10:47:58 GMT -5 @moonandback141 said:

Cythe I'm no doctor but I would think you would have other signs of an infection like a fever. And if the pain comes and goes as I think I remember you saying it does, that would also be a good sign it's not an infection.

Somewhere in my head I know I'm being a crazy pants. And yes, I only notice any discomfort when I practically fold myself in half at the waist. I'm hoping it's just a phase since I won't be able to bend like that for long. Thanks for helping me tame the crazy

[blackmamba]

I was doing really well for most of the last month, but over the weekend I started getting extremely anxious again. I thought the anxiety would go away after my appointment yesterday but it hasn't. I've just been trying to meditate and think positive thoughts.

Thinking of all of you.

[kinipela7]

I was doing pretty good for awhile. I had gotten my NIPT results back, the NT scan/bloodwork back and all is normal so I was feeling pretty good. We announced over the weekend and now I feel so nervous that something is going to happen. This is not my first pregnancy after a loss but it is SO MUCH MORE HARD this time around. I'm not sure I'll ever be able to relax and enjoy this which is kind of depressing because this will be my last pregnancy!

[ssm]

May 2, 2017 9:39:33 GMT -5 NariaDreaming said:

May 2, 2017 8:19:35 GMT -5 ssm said:

im sorry the hg is making things worse too
Have you tried a Doppler to help calm you?

Anterior placenta + fluffy girl + hyperactive baby = doppler strugglebus. Even my OB struggles to lock on long enough to even get a measure

hugs

[ssm]

May 2, 2017 13:07:04 GMT -5 blackmamba said:

I was doing really well for most of the last month, but over the weekend I started getting extremely anxious again. I thought the anxiety would go away after my appointment yesterday but it hasn't. I've just been trying to meditate and think positive thoughts.

Thinking of all of you.

anxiety in general about nothing specific ones and goes a lot for me lately. Like no reason at all, I can feel my heart racing and getting breathless. Not even baby related. Just plain old anxiety.

[starmile]

My ultrasound last Thursday definitely helped my pgal brain. It was pretty bad the week leading up to it since it had been 5 weeks since my previous scan.

I'm feeling some movement from baby B now in addition to baby A, so that has also helped a bit. Scheduled my a/s today for the 16th with the MFM I saw during my pregnancy with DD. Getting past that will definitely feel good.

I'm still feeling a bit anxious because of the whole twins thing, although less anxious about a loss now (although let's be hones, that fear never goes away) and more anxious about NICU time.

[blackmamba]

May 2, 2017 14:23:57 GMT -5 ssm said:

May 2, 2017 13:07:04 GMT -5 blackmamba said:

I was doing really well for most of the last month, but over the weekend I started getting extremely anxious again. I thought the anxiety would go away after my appointment yesterday but it hasn't. I've just been trying to meditate and think positive thoughts.

Thinking of all of you.

anxiety in general about nothing specific ones and goes a lot for me lately. Like no reason at all, I can feel my heart racing and getting breathless. Not even baby related. Just plain old anxiety.

That's the worst. I'm hear to listen if you need anything.

[thechickencoop]

Ugh, {{hugs}} everyone.

I'm feeling....mostly ok. We've had a lot going on non-pregnanxy related so that has kept my mind busy at least. Cell free DNA results came back normal so that was a relief to say the least.

I'm really struggling to want to tell people and I think it's a combo of just that I don't like attention and that I don't want to end up with another loss or any sort of issues so....yea.

I really all hope we can all just chill the fuck out!!!

[bootsorhearts]

Hey ladies!

Happy thoughts and hugs to everyone who needs them.

We're doing ok, little miss kicks me once or twice a day so that's reassuring. Haven't had an ultrasound yet but I'm guessing because of the movement I don't have an anterior placenta like last time which is a relief.

I will feel better after we get past our loss date (18 weeks) for sure.

My mom sent an email last night that said something like 'I don't know how you and M and one plus children. . . .' It made me stabby. Like she doesn't feel this pregnancy is real yet. It's not a 'plus' mom. It's a baby. Is a little positivity too much to ask for from your mother?