Well, this is fucking crazy. (loss mentioned)
Feb 21, 2015 21:41:45 GMT -5
Post by cabgirl on Feb 21, 2015 21:41:45 GMT -5
Hi. Some of you might remember that I made a "I'm back" post at the end of January, when I went to my OB and was diagnosed with a blighted ovum at 5+ weeks. I was told to go home and wait to miscarry, and to come back if it hadn't happened in a couple of days. Well, it didn't happen, so I did, and they did another ultrasound.. and found a baby with a heartbeat. It was a misdiagnosed miscarriage. To say my husband and I were ecstatic is an understatement. We felt like we'd experienced a miracle.
During those days of waiting to miscarry, I posted a re-intro/loss thread here. When I realized it wasn't a loss after all, I wasn't sure how to deal with that. I didn't really want to come back and go, "oops, never mind, I've got a baby in there after all!!" because while I know people would be happy for me, it just seemed really insensitive to those who had losses that were, in fact, losses.
Anyway. My OB offered me weekly ultrasounds because I was a nervous wreck, and baby kept growing, with a good healthy heartbeat, up until this past Tuesday at 8w6d, when I went in for another and found that the baby was measuring right on track, but had died - probably within the past few hours. Considering that my doctor had been wrong the first time she told me I was having a miscarriage, I didn't believe her, and went back the next day. It was definitely over. I had my D&C on Thursday.
I don't know why I'm giving so much detail. I guess I wanted to explain why I came back, and then disappeared again. I made a brief foray into Conceiving After a Loss, but I have happy memories of being here with you guys, and this is where I want to be again. If that's cool with you. I'm not quite at the TTC point yet, since I need to wait for a period and all that, but I'd kind of just like to hang here.
TL;DR - I had a "loss," except not really, because a miracle-ish thing happened, and then I had an actual loss, and now I want to come back, for real this time.
ETA: In retrospect, this seems kind of AW-ish. You guys offered so many condolences on that other thread when I had the misdiagnosed loss. I posted this mainly as an explanation, and I guess maybe because it's helpful to tell it. But thank you for all the kind words (again) anyway.
During those days of waiting to miscarry, I posted a re-intro/loss thread here. When I realized it wasn't a loss after all, I wasn't sure how to deal with that. I didn't really want to come back and go, "oops, never mind, I've got a baby in there after all!!" because while I know people would be happy for me, it just seemed really insensitive to those who had losses that were, in fact, losses.
Anyway. My OB offered me weekly ultrasounds because I was a nervous wreck, and baby kept growing, with a good healthy heartbeat, up until this past Tuesday at 8w6d, when I went in for another and found that the baby was measuring right on track, but had died - probably within the past few hours. Considering that my doctor had been wrong the first time she told me I was having a miscarriage, I didn't believe her, and went back the next day. It was definitely over. I had my D&C on Thursday.
I don't know why I'm giving so much detail. I guess I wanted to explain why I came back, and then disappeared again. I made a brief foray into Conceiving After a Loss, but I have happy memories of being here with you guys, and this is where I want to be again. If that's cool with you. I'm not quite at the TTC point yet, since I need to wait for a period and all that, but I'd kind of just like to hang here.
TL;DR - I had a "loss," except not really, because a miracle-ish thing happened, and then I had an actual loss, and now I want to come back, for real this time.
ETA: In retrospect, this seems kind of AW-ish. You guys offered so many condolences on that other thread when I had the misdiagnosed loss. I posted this mainly as an explanation, and I guess maybe because it's helpful to tell it. But thank you for all the kind words (again) anyway.
welcome back.
