**TWW Monday**
Feb 23, 2015 12:40:54 GMT -5
Post by anonymouseliza on Feb 23, 2015 12:40:54 GMT -5
Took a cheapie test. BFN, with an evap line no less. The most minute possible bit of spotting. I'm vascillating between "If that massive drop was related to implantation, then some spotting isn't crazy. And a test won't be positive before tomorrow most likely." and "Yeah, I think we can just mark this down as a shorter than usual lp and you'll probably spend tomorrow cramping and spotting with cd1 on Wednesday."
The cramping isn't helping. It comes and goes and gets worse. 10 dpo is usually too early for this, but if my lp is fucked up for some reason, then it's just period cramps. I'm also in high-anxiety territory and seriously overly emotional. That could go either way, but if we're being honest, probably period related rather than anything else.
I officially throw my hands up in the air and give myself a look of disgust for obsessing about it. The next couple of days will make it clear no matter what. Bah. I quit.
FTR though, I totally get it and I know how hard it is. Breathe. I'm rooting for you!
I know this logically, I just can't translate it emotionally. And really, it's not like this is a make or break cycle - we were hoping/planning on a spring baby, sooooo. It's as much the stress over the job situation funneling into this as anything. And I *know* it. I just can't seem to *stop* it because there is literally nothing to be done about either situation.
So I'm going to drink my tea, take another walk around the building and enter performance evaluations. I fucking hate performance evaluations (both getting and receiving). But then they will be done.