I feel so defeated - 7th loss

[jazzra369]

Just found out my betas dropped down to 15 today. Previously they were 25 on Tuesday and then 48 on Thursday. So I'm just waiting for the miscarriage to start. Another CP. I'm just so defeated. I don't know what else to do. It's so frustrating. DH is just devastated this time. He took the other losses in stride but this one hit him harder then ever before.

[Deleted]

I'm so so sorry. I totally understand feeling defeated. Take care of yourself.

[jumpingpuddles]

(((Hugs))) I am so sorry for your loss.

[followthesun]

So sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine how hard it must be to go through this repeatedly. So many (hugs) to you.

[snakefisherbub]

How devastating. I am so sorry for your losses.

[swivelchair5]

So sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself.

[craftytype]

I am so sorry.

[kcrkcs]

I am so sorry for your losses. So many hugs.

[Ann612]

That is just awful, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine 7. Have you had any testing done?

[rufus426]

I am so sorry for your losses!

[jazzra369]

Feb 24, 2015 9:14:19 GMT -5 Ann612 said:

That is just awful, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine 7. Have you had any testing done?

Yes, several blood tests checking for ANA and other things that I can't remember right now (like clotting disorders and so on), HSG, SA, complete chromosomal analysis on both of us. Everything is fine; all the testing came back negative and normal. I think it's my age.

[Ann612]

Feb 24, 2015 9:54:44 GMT -5 jazzra369 said:

Feb 24, 2015 9:14:19 GMT -5 Ann612 said:

That is just awful, I'm so sorry. I can't imagine 7. Have you had any testing done?

Yes, several blood tests checking for ANA and other things that I can't remember right now (like clotting disorders and so on), HSG, SA, complete chromosomal analysis on both of us. Everything is fine; all the testing came back negative and normal. I think it's my age.

Ah, sorry, I see that in your siggy now.  That is incredibly frustrating I am sure.  

[adorebel]

I'm so, so sorry. Life can feel so unfair, so determinedly against our deepest wishes and hopes. My thoughts are with you and your H.

[mrsw26]

I'm so sorry for your losses.

[nikolie93]

I am so very sorry. I'm on mobile so I can't see your sig so I'm not sure what your age is. It's frustrating when you get testing done and things come back normal.

I can't imagine how difficult that many losses must be.

So many *hugs*

[jazzra369]

Feb 24, 2015 19:52:43 GMT -5 nikolie93 said:

I am so very sorry. I'm on mobile so I can't see your sig so I'm not sure what your age is. It's frustrating when you get testing done and things come back normal.

I can't imagine how difficult that many losses must be.

So many *hugs*

Thanks. I'm 37 and DH is 34. We are both about to have birthdays.

[nikolie93]

I would say you're still young but you'd probably want to kick me like I want to do to people that say that to me

Since you've gotten testing I'm guessing you're seeing an RE?

It's so frustrating and I'm sorry. None of us should have to go through this shit.

[jazzra369]

Feb 24, 2015 20:30:53 GMT -5 nikolie93 said:

I would say you're still young but you'd probably want to kick me like I want to do to people that say that to me

Since you've gotten testing I'm guessing you're seeing an RE?

It's so frustrating and I'm sorry. None of us should have to go through this shit.

Not yet on the RE. I had the testing done through the military, so it was covered. The OBs say, Keep trying. I'm sick of that. I'm going to ask for the referral to an RE finally. I just kept thinking that the next one would work out. Yet here we are.

[nikolie93]

Sometimes the step to go to an RE is a hard one but sometimes it's the best thing. With your age and 7 losses I'm surprised your OB hasn't suggested an RE yet

Good luck as you move forward!

[emilyclarke123]

Hello, I am sad to hear that you could not achieve your dream this time too through conventional ways. I am not undermining your hopes but just motivating you to move up a gear if you want to fight it. As for the clinics, Ukraine boasts some very good clinics and they are also top rated. I have heard about the success rates of so many clinics. You should definitely try them out and consult their medical team. Sometimes all you need is the change of environment and doctor to get lucky. So go ahead and grab your chances! Good fortunes to you!

[johanna12]

Hey there! You are very right that TTC is a very hard period. But you must have heard the quote that every painful story has a beautiful ending. I know it's hard, but we should not give up in the middle. We should have enough confidence and hope, so that we can withstand any situation. I became infertile at the age of 25. Initially it was not in my control to deal with the situation. With time I regained hope with the love and care of my beloved husband. He told me all about IVF that we are lucky enough to have our own biological children. We flew to Ukraine for IVF. It took some days to do all the formalities. After having done this our every visit was just awesome. The environment was much better than I expected. I am so excited to tell you that I'll be holding my baby in my hands in the next month.

[seraniz33]

Feb 23, 2015 15:55:01 GMT -5 jazzra369 said:

Just found out my betas dropped down to 15 today. Previously they were 25 on Tuesday and then 48 on Thursday. So I'm just waiting for the miscarriage to start. Another CP. I'm just so defeated. I don't know what else to do. It's so frustrating. DH is just devastated this time. He took the other losses in stride but this one hit him harder then ever before. ovo.fyi/redtube/ ovo.fyi/beeg/ ovo.fyi/spankbang/

I'm so so sorry. I totally understand feeling defeated. Take care of yourself.

[trisha098]

Hello. I understand how you feel. It's not easy. You have been through so much. I think you should take a break now. You need this. I hope you feel better soon. Don't give up. Good luck.

[mirandajames]

Hello. This post gave me tears. I'm really sorry to hear about all those losses. How you still have it together is beyond me. I can't even think of having one. I'm really sorry for your sufferings too. I'm glad you shared this here with us. I know something like that takes a lot of courage. I really think you should stop TTC and take a break. By now you should understand the fact that pregnancy is very risky for you. These constant miscarriages can be harmful to you. Have you considered having a baby through other methods? There are options for you. You can think about it. I would highly recommend it.