Hello? Parenting? Are you drinking?

[mischief]

Yes McBenny lol. I got a few hours in, I very well could be though. Although I dont sparkle.

[mischief]

Ok I managed to tear myself away from the Doctor. It wasnt easy.

[cambury108]

Watching some movie with DH called The Nightcrawler....0 idea I was just told if I made it thru there is sex at the end for me.....I want sex so here I am lol.

[cambury108]

Mar 2, 2015 2:00:20 GMT -5 @bookworm92 said:

I just ate so many cookies

I love cookies....what kind did you have?

[WVaRN]

Hi all I'm still popping in and out tonight. ER has been busier than usual so I have kept my slacking down to a minimum tonight. lol

@bookworm92, What kind of cookies? I like cookies.
mischief, It is so easy to be pulled in by the Doctor.
cambury108, H promised me sex when I get home in the morning. I should O today, but I'm sorta pissed that he didn't take me up on it for the last 2 days. I feel like I have failed this cycle already.

[cambury108]

Were not trying to make a baby WVaRN I just want sex. I just had my period so ive had a lack of p in the v lately and I am ready! I hope you get yours when you get home bowchicawowwow.

[WVaRN]

I miss not making baby sex sometimes. I feel like the pressure to make the baby is what is making H have difficulty finishing. I try not to stress him, but damn I need it more than him. He has been on paxil so it is giving him some problems. He has been off of it about 2 weeks and on some new meds but I can't tell a change yet, so I'm trying to patiently wait the sex crazed man I met and fell in love with to return. lol

[WVaRN]

Mar 2, 2015 2:26:35 GMT -5 @bookworm92 said:

I feel like I'm in love with bf but I only get those strong feelings at random times. It's not an all the time feeling. Is that normal? Ex and I got so serious so fast... He told me he wanted to marry me after two weeks. It was always these painfully intense feelings.

In my experience sometime when there is someone in your past that keeps popping back into your mind it may not always be because there was love, or things were great. Sometimes it is just because they were so intense.  I get urges to run sometimes. I think it stems from being afraid to let myself fall to far and get hurt. Could that be what is going on with you? Maybe your afraid of staying with bf and letting things move along because your afraid of the hurt. And the X is just a means of escape? Sorry I don't know you yet and may be sticking my nose in where it does not belong.  I wish you well in what ever path you choose. 

[triplea598]

Mar 2, 2015 2:26:35 GMT -5 @bookworm92 said:

I feel like I'm in love with bf but I only get those strong feelings at random times. It's not an all the time feeling. Is that normal? Ex and I got so serious so fast... He told me he wanted to marry me after two weeks. It was always these painfully intense feelings.

If you want me to be honest, I will.
I love with my husband and he is my best friend. There was a point in my life that I was a bitch (and pretty mentally unstable) and went back and forth between him and another guy that I dated seriously.
My ex was a few years older than me and very much wanting to sort of settle down (as much as a 20-something year old can settle down). I was only 17/18 at the time though, so I wasn't ready for that obviously. I ended things with him for good and got back with current DH.

Then I got pregnant with DS, and me and DH had to grow up too fucking fast - we found out we were having a kid, got married, and had DS all within 10 months. Looking back now, there are a lot of things I would've done differently. There are definitely sometimes when I question my life in general. I haven't spoken to my ex since I broke up with him, but I've asked myself, "did I make the right decision?" "Should I have stayed with ex?"

The thing though, is that I find myself asking myself these things usually when me and DH are in a rough spot. Relationships are hard as hell. To answer your question, I do think it's normal to get random intense feelings. It's also normal to feel "meh."

The best advice I've gotten was this (I've modified it for your situation): When are you the happiest? Who makes you the happiest? Does your bf make you happier more than he makes you sad? You need to do what makes you happy.




And if none of that made any sense, or if it doesn't even apply to your situation, I'm sorry. I had to take my anxiety meds and it makes my brain hazy at times.

[triplea598]

Mar 2, 2015 2:47:26 GMT -5 WVaRN said:

Mar 2, 2015 2:26:35 GMT -5 @bookworm92 said:

I feel like I'm in love with bf but I only get those strong feelings at random times. It's not an all the time feeling. Is that normal? Ex and I got so serious so fast... He told me he wanted to marry me after two weeks. It was always these painfully intense feelings.

In my experience sometime when there is someone in your past that keeps popping back into your mind it may not always be because there was love, or things were great. Sometimes it is just because they were so intense.  I get urges to run sometimes. I think it stems from being afraid to let myself fall to far and get hurt. Could that be what is going on with you? Maybe your afraid of staying with bf and letting things move along because your afraid of the hurt. And the X is just a means of escape? Sorry I don't know you yet and may be sticking my nose in where it does not belong.  I wish you well in what ever path you choose. 

Ok this was worded so much better than what I put.

[cambury108]

Mar 2, 2015 2:17:37 GMT -5 WVaRN said:

I miss not making baby sex sometimes. I feel like the pressure to make the baby is what is making H have difficulty finishing. I try not to stress him, but damn I need it more than him. He has been on paxil so it is giving him some problems. He has been off of it about 2 weeks and on some new meds but I can't tell a change yet, so I'm trying to patiently wait the sex crazed man I met and fell in love with to return. lol

I was on Paxil years ago and also Paxil CR and my sex drive crashed as well. I hope you find that man again soon for your sake

[cambury108]

@bookworm92 I have been with my DH for 14years and I can say those feelings are normal and acceptable. Hugs. Here for you if you need.

[cambury108]

I ended up not getting lucky......my period was "over" for like 18 hours then I went pee 1 more time before crawling in bed and it decided to rear its ugly head again. I am so sad. Oh well the movie was good at least.

[dc2london]

Mar 1, 2015 21:51:13 GMT -5 rvasc said:

Mar 1, 2015 21:18:19 GMT -5 bunnyfungo said:

well whatever you need to happen. I hope it gets figured out and you don't have the itchies anymore.

Thanks! I should be good by this time tomorrow.

rvasc we are in the middle of allergy shots with DS1 right now. I feel your pain

[dc2london]

Mar 1, 2015 22:17:29 GMT -5 polkadot said:

He's okay. The x-rays came back clear. He has to give a urine sample to make sure his kidneys aren't bruised. We may be able to leave after that. He's going to be really sore for a while but he's really lucky.

It was so fucking scary. I didn't hear him fall but I heard him yelling in pain. If he had fallen a foot to the left he would have landed on or hit his head in a cement pad that is part of our back porch.

Thank goodness he is ok!! I'm so sorry that this happened!

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Mar 1, 2015 19:05:03 GMT -5 @lovethatdirtywater said:

Mar 1, 2015 18:23:04 GMT -5 ghostmonkey said:

I think my liver disagrees. 

I'm with GM - too hungover to drink. And my kids won't stop touching me. Gah! I just want to crawl into bed and pass out.

I passed out at 8:30 last night. It was glorious.

[cambury108]

Mar 2, 2015 9:37:30 GMT -5 @bookworm92 said:

triplea598, WVaRN, cambury108,

Thank you. I think it is fear of being hurt again. Like I want to run first so he can't. I keep reminding myself that if he hasn't left so far, maybe he won't.

@bookworm92 I have severe abandonment issues in my life regarding men. Been thru lots of hours of counseling in my lifetime. My DH and I will be together 14 years this month and I still have an underlying fear one day he is going to wake up and decide against me, that he does not love me anymore, he can't do this. Whatever the case is. So sometimes I rationalize that with 3 kids I should just go because in the end he is going to anyway. I know this struggle all to well. HUGS!