Weekly Check-In (March 9th)
Mar 10, 2015 11:20:10 GMT -5
Post by manada on Mar 10, 2015 11:20:10 GMT -5
Hi Everyone,
*Pregnancy-- 14w*
healz413 already checked in, but we are 14 weeks today, which feels like both a lot, and not so many. Only a few weeks to go until we hit the point where our first pregnancy when things became complicated, so I am feeling anxiety leading up to that date. I have started to ask H. if she feels "preterm labour" when she's feeling uncomfortable, which is pretty ridiculous (I know) - because part of the problem with preterm labour is that it doesn't have a set "feeling" that can be identified easily, and it's probably just unfair of me to ask that because it's unreasonable to expect that it be recognized at all if it happens. It's just my anxiety talking.
My anxiety is pretty high these days. Things are stressful at work, and when they're at their worst I just keep going back to the place of "I shouldn't even be here, I should be home with our beautiful babies". That's really hard. I miss our twins a lot these days. Work makes it hard because anxiety means I have a hard time thinking through complicated projects and generally feel like a total failure in the office most of the time. This can be rough because my co-workers are supportive, to a point - but I still feel like there's a general expectation that I be doing more than I am able to these days, and that's hard.
QOTW: I haven't read many parenting books yet. When we were expecting the twins we found we had to pretty much ignore most of the pregnancy books, and we had a few twin-specific books we borrowed from the library that were good. We should probably get the singleton pregnancy books out again and flip through them. I have The Birth Partner to read, which is on my list and I imagine I'll get to that somewhere in the 2nd trimester after we hit viability, but I haven't read many parenting books yet. We have one called "It's okay not to Share" that we bought at a bookfair a couple of years ago, that I think I might start with -- it's about teaching kids that it's okay to set boundaries and say No in good and fair ways - which I think is something that is important. We'll see.
*Pregnancy-- 14w*
healz413 already checked in, but we are 14 weeks today, which feels like both a lot, and not so many. Only a few weeks to go until we hit the point where our first pregnancy when things became complicated, so I am feeling anxiety leading up to that date. I have started to ask H. if she feels "preterm labour" when she's feeling uncomfortable, which is pretty ridiculous (I know) - because part of the problem with preterm labour is that it doesn't have a set "feeling" that can be identified easily, and it's probably just unfair of me to ask that because it's unreasonable to expect that it be recognized at all if it happens. It's just my anxiety talking.
My anxiety is pretty high these days. Things are stressful at work, and when they're at their worst I just keep going back to the place of "I shouldn't even be here, I should be home with our beautiful babies". That's really hard. I miss our twins a lot these days. Work makes it hard because anxiety means I have a hard time thinking through complicated projects and generally feel like a total failure in the office most of the time. This can be rough because my co-workers are supportive, to a point - but I still feel like there's a general expectation that I be doing more than I am able to these days, and that's hard.
QOTW: I haven't read many parenting books yet. When we were expecting the twins we found we had to pretty much ignore most of the pregnancy books, and we had a few twin-specific books we borrowed from the library that were good. We should probably get the singleton pregnancy books out again and flip through them. I have The Birth Partner to read, which is on my list and I imagine I'll get to that somewhere in the 2nd trimester after we hit viability, but I haven't read many parenting books yet. We have one called "It's okay not to Share" that we bought at a bookfair a couple of years ago, that I think I might start with -- it's about teaching kids that it's okay to set boundaries and say No in good and fair ways - which I think is something that is important. We'll see.