FFFC.

[heatherj9603]

Here's my official FFFC...

I was able to take my sterry strips off last Tuesday. My surgery incision is RIGHT across my hoo. Like about two inches below the top of my pubes. I was putting on some Shea butter ointment to help with the itching and scar. I suddenly broke Down about this stupid scar. Not because I was upset about my tumor, not because I'm suffering from infertility, not because it hurt, not because I'll have to have a c section if we conceive....I broke down because I'll never have a pretty crotch again. Everytime I'm clean shaven, I'll see a stupid ugly scar. I felt so vain and stupid...

[rablissful]

Mar 27, 2015 8:37:27 GMT -5 starbuck27 said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:35:16 GMT -5 rablissful said:

So the love tit today is totally perfect for this thread.

FFFC: Keeping on the theme of fears... I'm afraid of going down stairs. Not afraid of heights, just walking down stairs. I'm afraid I'm going to tumble down and die. I think this stems from having two knee surgeries and being soooo wobbly trying to go down them afterwards... and that it still hurts my knees to go down. Going up I'm totally fine. Going down is the worst. Particularly when carrying something that blocks my vision, such as a basket of laundry.

I fall more going UP the stairs than down them.

Sorry it hurts you to go down the stairs! Totally understandable given your history!

I fall going UP all the time... but it's usually just a trip and my hands catch me. Down is a whole different story.

We had a concrete-ish door at the bottom of one of our stairs at home. I fell down the stairs once and smashed my head against it and blacked out for like 5 minutes. This was BEFORE the surgeries.

[cakewench]

My naughty dreams lately have been about Seth from House of Cards... Maybe I need a Netflix break.

[valie]

Mar 27, 2015 8:34:52 GMT -5 starbuck27 said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:26:05 GMT -5 SheilaTheTank said:

Where did you get this? I want to put them all over our apartment. 

This is not the exact one we have, but it is similar and cheap on Amazon.

My dad bought it for us, I think he got it at Home Depot. The flashlights on these things never seem to be amazing, but, ours has kept me from falling down stairs and gotten me to the matches and candles safely every time.

I have one of the flashlights, and I wish it doubled as a nightlight. That is so smart!

[rablissful]

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:31 GMT -5 joy said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:31:51 GMT -5 daisy818 said:

On the theme of sex dream confessions - my most vivid sex dream from my teen years involved me having sex with an anthropomorphic dolphin.

My weirdest kinda-sex-related dream from my 20s involved me running around in a forest with all the giant, oddly colored trees that had no branches. I was running from something, so I started to shimmy up the tree, and when I got high enough I realized that the "tree" was a giant penis. It was a giant penis-tree forest. At the top of the penis-tree I climbed there was a little cafe and I ordered a sandwich.

What kind of sandwich?

I how with all the messed up things about this post (which is hilarious) you ask about the sandwich. 

[valie]

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:32 GMT -5 heatherj9603 said:

Here's my official FFFC...

I was able to take my sterry strips off last Tuesday. My surgery incision is RIGHT across my hoo. Like about two inches below the top of my pubes. I was putting on some Shea butter ointment to help with the itching and scar. I suddenly broke Down about this stupid scar. Not because I was upset about my tumor, not because I'm suffering from infertility, not because it hurt, not because I'll have to have a c section if we conceive....I broke down because I'll never have a pretty crotch again. Everytime I'm clean shaven, I'll see a stupid ugly scar. I felt so vain and stupid...

That's not stupid. (I don't want to come across as creepy.) Sending you so many ((hugs)).

[rablissful]

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:32 GMT -5 heatherj9603 said:

Here's my official FFFC...

I was able to take my sterry strips off last Tuesday. My surgery incision is RIGHT across my hoo. Like about two inches below the top of my pubes. I was putting on some Shea butter ointment to help with the itching and scar. I suddenly broke Down about this stupid scar. Not because I was upset about my tumor, not because I'm suffering from infertility, not because it hurt, not because I'll have to have a c section if we conceive....I broke down because I'll never have a pretty crotch again. Everytime I'm clean shaven, I'll see a stupid ugly scar. I felt so vain and stupid...

Love tit for support.

Big ((hugs)) for you! It's not vain or stupid!

[daisy818]

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:31 GMT -5 joy said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:31:51 GMT -5 daisy818 said:

On the theme of sex dream confessions - my most vivid sex dream from my teen years involved me having sex with an anthropomorphic dolphin.

My weirdest kinda-sex-related dream from my 20s involved me running around in a forest with all the giant, oddly colored trees that had no branches. I was running from something, so I started to shimmy up the tree, and when I got high enough I realized that the "tree" was a giant penis. It was a giant penis-tree forest. At the top of the penis-tree I climbed there was a little cafe and I ordered a sandwich.

What kind of sandwich?

Sadly I do not recall. 

[Deleted]

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:32 GMT -5 heatherj9603 said:

Here's my official FFFC...

I was able to take my sterry strips off last Tuesday. My surgery incision is RIGHT across my hoo. Like about two inches below the top of my pubes. I was putting on some Shea butter ointment to help with the itching and scar. I suddenly broke Down about this stupid scar. Not because I was upset about my tumor, not because I'm suffering from infertility, not because it hurt, not because I'll have to have a c section if we conceive....I broke down because I'll never have a pretty crotch again. Everytime I'm clean shaven, I'll see a stupid ugly scar. I felt so vain and stupid...

You aren't vain or stupid. You have every right to be upset.

::Hugs::

[daisy818]

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:32 GMT -5 heatherj9603 said:

Here's my official FFFC...

I was able to take my sterry strips off last Tuesday. My surgery incision is RIGHT across my hoo. Like about two inches below the top of my pubes. I was putting on some Shea butter ointment to help with the itching and scar. I suddenly broke Down about this stupid scar. Not because I was upset about my tumor, not because I'm suffering from infertility, not because it hurt, not because I'll have to have a c section if we conceive....I broke down because I'll never have a pretty crotch again. Everytime I'm clean shaven, I'll see a stupid ugly scar. I felt so vain and stupid...

((Hugs))

[cakewench]

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:32 GMT -5 heatherj9603 said:

Here's my official FFFC...

I was able to take my sterry strips off last Tuesday. My surgery incision is RIGHT across my hoo. Like about two inches below the top of my pubes. I was putting on some Shea butter ointment to help with the itching and scar. I suddenly broke Down about this stupid scar. Not because I was upset about my tumor, not because I'm suffering from infertility, not because it hurt, not because I'll have to have a c section if we conceive....I broke down because I'll never have a pretty crotch again. Everytime I'm clean shaven, I'll see a stupid ugly scar. I felt so vain and stupid...

It's not vain or stupid at all!!! All the hugs getting sent your way

[icaughtfire]

Mar 27, 2015 8:48:25 GMT -5 daisy818 said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:31 GMT -5 joy said:

What kind of sandwich?

Sadly I do not recall. 

Dick sandwich?

[SheilaTheTank]

*hugs* heatherj9603, You are not vain or stupid. Think of it as a battle wound and a badge of honor, not a scar. Also I know some people get tattoos over their scars. I don't know about a tattoo that close to your crotch but it may be something to think about in the future.

[daisy818]

Mar 27, 2015 8:52:49 GMT -5 icaughtfire said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:48:25 GMT -5 daisy818 said:

Sadly I do not recall. 

Dick sandwich?

That would go with the theme. 

[daisy818]

Mar 27, 2015 8:38:44 GMT -5 icaughtfire said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:31:51 GMT -5 daisy818 said:

On the theme of sex dream confessions - my most vivid sex dream from my teen years involved me having sex with an anthropomorphic dolphin.

My weirdest kinda-sex-related dream from my 20s involved me running around in a forest with all the giant, oddly colored trees that had no branches. I was running from something, so I started to shimmy up the tree, and when I got high enough I realized that the "tree" was a giant penis. It was a giant penis-tree forest. At the top of the penis-tree I climbed there was a little cafe and I ordered a sandwich.

What the fuck did I just read?

I seriously have always had the weirdest dreams, and I remember most of them.  I should keep a dream journal and one day give it to a psychotherapist and watch their head explode.

[mrsjene]

This is a confession about me being kind of a jerk.

So say I'm walking through a doorway in a public place and I open a door. I go to open the door and there's someone walking up right behind me. If that person doesn't pull their weight in holding the door open when they get to it and expect me to continue holding it open as they walk through behind me, I let go a little too soon so that the door will bump them.

I'm not your doorman. When you get to the door, hold it. Don't make me stretch out my arm behind me so that you don't have to touch the door and get germs or whatever.

Now, if this person is obviously holding something, pushing a stroller, or something like that, I will continue to hold the door open because I'm not a total jerk.

Make sense?

[cabgirl]

Mar 27, 2015 8:33:57 GMT -5 ♪♫choppinbroccoli♫♪ said:

I seeing a cabgirl love-tit before 5pm!

I don't work til 11:45 am today! Downside is that I'm stuck at work til 8 pm.

[Deleted]

Mar 27, 2015 8:54:49 GMT -5 daisy818 said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:38:44 GMT -5 icaughtfire said:

What the fuck did I just read?

I seriously have always had the weirdest dreams, and I remember most of them.  I should keep a dream journal and one day give it to a psychotherapist and watch their head explode.

Love this! haha! I find I dream of whatever is going on in my life at that moment, but it's an exaggerated version of my life. For example: last night I dreamt of myself at work, but I was sitting on this site on our main computer, and everyone was watching my conversations.

[ghostmonkey]

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:32 GMT -5 heatherj9603 said:

Here's my official FFFC...

I was able to take my sterry strips off last Tuesday. My surgery incision is RIGHT across my hoo. Like about two inches below the top of my pubes. I was putting on some Shea butter ointment to help with the itching and scar. I suddenly broke Down about this stupid scar. Not because I was upset about my tumor, not because I'm suffering from infertility, not because it hurt, not because I'll have to have a c section if we conceive....I broke down because I'll never have a pretty crotch again. Everytime I'm clean shaven, I'll see a stupid ugly scar. I felt so vain and stupid...

That's about where my c/s "scar" is.

I can't find it most days. So unless your surgeon sucked, it likely won't be as bad as you think.

[lovetruly2015]

Wow sex dreams are the thing to day. Yesterday durring my loke 4 hour nap i was dreaming I was a prostitute...in a backsteet boys video. It was so werid.
Also I saw work called me wanting to come in I waited until like 7:30 to call them after I woke up and told them that I slept for almost five hours. That way it would be to late to come in and work.

[ghostmonkey]

Mar 27, 2015 9:02:41 GMT -5 starbuck27 said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:58:04 GMT -5 mrsjene said:

This is a confession about me being kind of a jerk.

So say I'm walking through a doorway in a public place and I open a door. I go to open the door and there's someone walking up right behind me. If that person doesn't pull their weight in holding the door open when they get to it and expect me to continue holding it open as they walk through behind me, I let go a little too soon so that the door will bump them.

I'm not your doorman. When you get to the door, hold it. Don't make me stretch out my arm behind me so that you don't have to touch the door and get germs or whatever.

Now, if this person is obviously holding something, pushing a stroller, or something like that, I will continue to hold the door open because I'm not a total jerk.

Make sense?

Boo! It doesn't take that much effort to hold the door open for someone. It's just a nice thing to do, and it's good for your karma. But you were right, this is kind of jerky of you.

It's also jerky to expect someone to hold a door for you and not make the effort to open your own door as well.

[cabgirl]

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:32 GMT -5 heatherj9603 said:

Here's my official FFFC...

I was able to take my sterry strips off last Tuesday. My surgery incision is RIGHT across my hoo. Like about two inches below the top of my pubes. I was putting on some Shea butter ointment to help with the itching and scar. I suddenly broke Down about this stupid scar. Not because I was upset about my tumor, not because I'm suffering from infertility, not because it hurt, not because I'll have to have a c section if we conceive....I broke down because I'll never have a pretty crotch again. Everytime I'm clean shaven, I'll see a stupid ugly scar. I felt so vain and stupid...

I just want to hug you.

Your feelings aren't vain or stupid. Pleae don't think that. No one wants a visible reminder of something negative or painful that they've had to endure. Your scar is a reminder of all of those difficult, painful things you listed above. As someone who has some very visible scars, I can say that my desire for them to be gone goes beyond vanity. I'm so sorry you're upset.

[madamewaffles]

FFFC #1 - I regularly have sex dreams about 90s sitcom stars. Some celebrities include Dave Coulier, George Costanza, Michael J. Fox, Bea Arthur, Matthew Perry, among others. I also distinctly remember hearing the theme songs from that particular star's show in the background also.

[heatherj9603]

I tried to tell dh once about all my crazy sex dreams. A lot of the times its dh I'm having sex with, but he will not LOOK like my dh. He may be a different race, or different colored hair, etc. I thought he'd find it flattering that my sex dreams are usually about him. But he just looked at me like I was coo-coo for cocoa puffs.

[madamewaffles]

FFFC #2 - The mere thought of having to ride an escalator puts me in full panic mode. I will attempt it if my husband is there to hold onto, but it's a no-go fo' sho' if I'm alone, but even with him, I've had multiple episodes where we walk up to it and have to turn around and let others get on before us.

[acorn99]

Mar 27, 2015 9:06:21 GMT -5 madamewaffles said:

FFFC #1 - I regularly have sex dreams about 90s sitcom stars. Some celebrities include Dave Coulier, George Costanza, Michael J. Fox, Bea Arthur, Matthew Perry, among others. I also distinctly remember hearing the theme songs from that particular star's show in the background also.

?? I think you tried to sneak that one in the middle hoping no one would notice

[ohinvrtedworld]

Mar 27, 2015 9:10:57 GMT -5 madamewaffles said:

FFFC #2 - The mere thought of having to ride an escalator puts me in full panic mode. I will attempt it if my husband is there to hold onto, but it's a no-go fo' sho' if I'm alone, but even with him, I've had multiple episodes where we walk up to it and have to turn around and let others get on before us.

I avoid elevators unless I need to go 20 stories up or something like that. I verbally excuse it by saying that the exercise is good, but really, they just freak me out a little bit.

My mom had foot surgery last week and we went to the mall, so I had to use the elevators since I was pushing her around in a wheelchair. I was relieved that there are only two different floors and that there's a glass wall, so if we got stuck, people would see us. /paranoia

[heatherj9603]

Mar 27, 2015 9:10:31 GMT -5 mistabinx said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:32 GMT -5 heatherj9603 said:

Here's my official FFFC...

I was able to take my sterry strips off last Tuesday. My surgery incision is RIGHT across my hoo. Like about two inches below the top of my pubes. I was putting on some Shea butter ointment to help with the itching and scar. I suddenly broke Down about this stupid scar. Not because I was upset about my tumor, not because I'm suffering from infertility, not because it hurt, not because I'll have to have a c section if we conceive....I broke down because I'll never have a pretty crotch again. Everytime I'm clean shaven, I'll see a stupid ugly scar. I felt so vain and stupid...

Many ::hugs:: to you. I haven't shared this with anyone but H before but.....I had to have a surgery on my vagoober which left a pretty gnarly looking scar going straight down the left side. It upset me a lot, I told H it's probably ugly to him now.
He said it looks "bad ass" and he loves it, that changed my outlook towards it.

Also, scars look worse early on, they tend to lighten/narrow as months go by, so I've got fx for you that you barely notice it soon!

Yah I showed it to dh and he said it doesn't look that bad. It's about 4 inches wide and goes horizontally across my hoo. I showed it to my mom too, since she's here helping me all this week, and she said it will fade. It's only slightly raised. 



I went throigh this after having a benign tumor removed from my left breast. They went through my armpit. The scar wasn't awful, it was the puffiness left behind. I wouldn't wear tank tops for years! I was in a friends wedding about 2 years after the surgery, and I didn't ask for any prints of all the bridesmaids because all I saw was that ugly scar sticking out the side of my dress.  I think it is more of the mentality of being constantly reminded of what I went throigh. 10 years later, I barely notice the breast scar. So I'm sure over time I'll not even care about my crotch scar. 

[icaughtfire]

Mar 27, 2015 9:10:31 GMT -5 mistabinx said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:40:32 GMT -5 heatherj9603 said:

Here's my official FFFC...

I was able to take my sterry strips off last Tuesday. My surgery incision is RIGHT across my hoo. Like about two inches below the top of my pubes. I was putting on some Shea butter ointment to help with the itching and scar. I suddenly broke Down about this stupid scar. Not because I was upset about my tumor, not because I'm suffering from infertility, not because it hurt, not because I'll have to have a c section if we conceive....I broke down because I'll never have a pretty crotch again. Everytime I'm clean shaven, I'll see a stupid ugly scar. I felt so vain and stupid...

Many ::hugs:: to you. I haven't shared this with anyone but H before but.....I had to have a surgery on my vagoober which left a pretty gnarly looking scar going straight down the left side. It upset me a lot, I told H it's probably ugly to him now.
He said it looks "bad ass" and he loves it, that changed my outlook towards it.

Also, scars look worse early on, they tend to lighten/narrow as months go by, so I've got fx for you that you barely notice it soon!

I laughed too loud at this word. I'm still laughing. I need to find ways to incorporate this gem into my everyday life.

[mrsjene]

Mar 27, 2015 9:02:41 GMT -5 starbuck27 said:

Mar 27, 2015 8:58:04 GMT -5 mrsjene said:

This is a confession about me being kind of a jerk.

So say I'm walking through a doorway in a public place and I open a door. I go to open the door and there's someone walking up right behind me. If that person doesn't pull their weight in holding the door open when they get to it and expect me to continue holding it open as they walk through behind me, I let go a little too soon so that the door will bump them.

I'm not your doorman. When you get to the door, hold it. Don't make me stretch out my arm behind me so that you don't have to touch the door and get germs or whatever.

Now, if this person is obviously holding something, pushing a stroller, or something like that, I will continue to hold the door open because I'm not a total jerk.

Make sense?

Boo! It doesn't take that much effort to hold the door open for someone. It's just a nice thing to do, and it's good for your karma. But you were right, this is kind of jerky of you.

Meh.  In my mind, it doesn't take much effort to stick out your hand so that the person in front of you isn't doing a backbend to hold the door open for you.  If that's the one asshole-y thing I do all day, I think karma is still on my side.