~*~*PGAL Check-in 3/30*~*~

[manderslvt]

mistabinx, I'm having a hard time not telling everyone I know! I'm so glad you're feeling calm about everything.

powerofbacon, I'd be scared by the bleeding too. Did the doctor have any input on that? FX so hard for climbing betas!

AFM...

How many weeks? 4w3d

How are you feeling? (Physically and Emotionally) Physically, pretty good. I get a little nauseous if I go too long without eating, but that's easy enough to manage.  Emotionally, I'm starting to get nervous.  Both of my CPs happened right around 5w3d, so I'm starting to get anxious about that.

Any appointments, ultrasounds or milestones this week? I go for my first U/S on Thursday, so I'm praying that looks ok.

What else is going on? rant and raves this week? Work is insane this week, today especially, so I'm trying hard to keep my stress level down. It's tough...I'm naturally a bit of a stress-ball!

GTKY: What is your favorite thing about spring? I love getting to stop wearing coats, and start wearing dresses! I'm kind of a girl!

[leahks77]

powerofbacon, FX for no more spotting and great betas!
mistabinx I love that you have overwhelming happiness and no fear. That's so great
DoesItComeInPink, I'm sorry you're already sick! And FX for a positive digi ASAP to set your mind more at ease...

AFM...
How many weeks: 3wks 6days.

How are you feeling? Nervous. But excited. Not feeling pregnant yet (but so so early).

Any appointments, ultrasounds, or milestones this week? I called my MW this morning because she's super busy. First appt isn't until 4/22. I'm freaked. They don't do anything extra if you've only had one loss (unless you have any cause for concern about the current pregnancy). That sounds like it's years away...

What else is going on? Rants and raves this week? Nope. I'm finding myself wanting to tell more people than last time. I didn't tell a ton of people before, and ended up having to tell some people after the MC because I couldn't hide that something was wrong. This time I just kind of want it all out in the open. It's strange.

GTKY: I love spring flowers. The first crocuses make me SO HAPPY. And being able to be outdoors, go for walks... And the way it smells... AAAAHHHH I love spring!

[leahks77]

mistabinx it's such a hard choice. There were definitely times after my loss that I said "I wish we hadn't told (so and so) because now I have to tell them about this..." But there were also people I had to tell at work because I would randomly lose it (pregnant patients were a no no for me for a couple weeks) and then I had the "I was pregnant. And it was great. But now I'm not." conversation. And that sucked so much too. Ugh so hard either way. We will wait to tell most of our family and friends (parents excluded) until after the 12wk scan as well, and won't make it "public" until after the AS. But I told a random hairdresser today, haha. Won't see her again, and it felt good to say out loud

[leahks77]

Mar 30, 2015 15:58:08 GMT -5 powerofbacon said:

61 to 133 in 47 hours!! No more blood work, I can schedule a 6 week u/s, and doctor said the bleeding sounded fine, she would be more worried about it a week or so from now.

Fantastic update! So happy for you!

[manderslvt]

Mar 30, 2015 15:58:08 GMT -5 powerofbacon said:

61 to 133 in 47 hours!! No more blood work, I can schedule a 6 week u/s, and doctor said the bleeding sounded fine, she would be more worried about it a week or so from now.

I'm so happy to see this! What a great update!

[negirl824]

powerofbacon, happy to see your numbers are good!
mistabinx, I hope your day today is better than yesterday! My boobs hurt more yesterday than today but I keep telling myself it can go back and forth.
DoesItComeInPink, sorry for the m/s

How many weeks? 3w3d

How are you feeling? (Physically and Emotionally) physically i'm just a little extra tired and super hungry. Emotionally I'm doing good I am nervous at times but I have a few more symptoms hanging around unlike last time.

Any appointments, ultrasounds or milestones this week? I am calling the dr today! I am not sure if they will want me to come in for blood work or not.

What else is going on? rant and raves this week? Not much, didn't get a lot of sleep last night but maybe I can get a nap in today! I have yoga tonight I am looking forward to!

GTKY: What is your favorite thing about spring? Being outside! This year we are having a garden and I can not wait!

[negirl824]

Apr 1, 2015 8:10:45 GMT -5 DoesItComeInPink said:

I got a positive digi today!!! I was freaking out since it was still negative yesterday at 14 DPO! My FRER was nice and dark (it's been faint to this point) as well today!! PgAL mind can take a break I hope!

I have two digis at home so I plan on taking one in a few days. I know those need a higher concentration of the hormone than some of the other tests. 

[manderslvt]

Fingers crossed for you mistabinx!

negirl824, yoga does sound pretty great! Maybe I'll break out my prenatal yoga dvd!

[leahks77]

Ugh I'm having a pretty tough time of it... I need to stay of the Internet. And I need to remember that I had no symptoms with DS. But that isn't helping today. My MW's office doesn't do any extra checks (betas, early u/s, etc) if you've only had one loss. I just hate that I won't let myself get excited until after I see them (4/22). Or even after that, since I didn't find out about our loss until 11wks. I'm just having one of those days where I am struggling to believe it's all going to be okay. I feel better having just said that. I'm glad you're all here... This isn't easy Today, I am pregnant. Breathe. Today, I am pregnant. And I love my baby.

[leahks77]

@tifga I'm sorry you're having a tough time too! I have been repeating that same rational thought. And telling myself that the reason they don't see me earlier is because there isn't extra concern. We'll see if I make it without cracking and calling her early... On a positive note, I'm also 4wks 1day, so yay for same EDD Good luck, keep breathing, and move through one day at a time...

[manderslvt]

leahks77, I'm sorry your struggling today. ((Hugs))

@tifga, you are welcome to hang out here as long as you need without intro-ing on the main board. Let us know how tomorrow's betas look, and remember that each pregnancy is unique. Take things one day at a time. Today, you are pregnant!

[manderslvt]

That would be awesome! And totally not my area of expertise!

[meredithcarole]

Apr 2, 2015 20:34:25 GMT -5 DoesItComeInPink said:

is it too early to start thinking about/working on a PgAL badge?

I was going to ask about a badge. H is a graphic designer. If you all want to throw some subject matter suggestions at me (maybe a snowflake that has a bit of a prism/rainbow effect) I can have him mock up a few.

[negirl824]

Apr 2, 2015 23:03:14 GMT -5 DoesItComeInPink said:

Apr 2, 2015 22:24:13 GMT -5 meredithcarole said:

I was going to ask about a badge. H is a graphic designer. If you all want to throw some subject matter suggestions at me (maybe a snowflake that has a bit of a prism/rainbow effect) I can have him mock up a few.

Cool! A prism/rainbow snowflake would be cool!

Other thoughts something Christmasy? or like winter woodsy? (I'm thinking ever greens, snow, etc)?

I'm liking the snowflake idea. I think we should stay away from christmasy since you never know who doesn't celebrate but would want a PGAL badge. 

[meredithcarole]

I will have DH mock up 3 or 4 options and we can either vote or everyone can just choose what suits their personality best

[meredithcarole]

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[manderslvt]

meredithcarole, these are beautiful. I like #2.

[leahks77]

meredithcarole thank you and YH! Those are beautiful. I like #2 the best but they're really all lovely.

[negirl824]

Those are all amazing! I like #2

[tkford216]

Love! #2 gets my vote

[meredithcarole]

Apr 4, 2015 14:31:54 GMT -5 DoesItComeInPink said:

Any reason we cant all just pick and use the one we like most?

I think that's exactly what we should do.  Go with the one that speaks to you

[meredithcarole]

Here are thumbnail sizes (to save you the hassle of figuring out how to shrink them if you'd like them smaller):



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[negirl824]

meredithcarole, Thank you for the badges! I just saw the smaller ones right after I got mine smaller on tiny pic haha!

[meredithcarole]

Apr 4, 2015 15:34:00 GMT -5 negirl824 said:

meredithcarole, Thank you for the badges! I just saw the smaller ones right after I got mine smaller on tiny pic haha!

Lol.  Sorry for the timing, I was having problems with the tree one last night.  Every time I tried to make it a thumbnail I instead got a message board sized R2-D2 helmet!?  Not sure what was going on there, but I gave up and decided I would try again today.

[leahks77]

Hey ladies, I have a quick question on the check in. Is this somewhere we should post throughout the week if we are having particularly bad times? Is it not okay for it to keep getting bumped? Should I mosey over to CAR for midweek PGAL stresses? I know it's not appropriate on the main board... I don't want to put any of my sad blah thoughts into any sweet brains that haven't been there. Just not sure what best plan of action is. Of course you can also tell me to tough it out until the next week if that's the best option too. Any ideas?

[manderslvt]

I agree with mistabinx!

[leahks77]

Thanks, all. I seriously hope the bad thoughts become less frequent as time goes on and it isn't necessary anyway? I think I'm struggling right now because we are making all sorts of summer plans (weddings, vacations, etc) and I can't actually believe I might be pregnant then. Most of the time I really don't believe it. Which is hard on SO too, because he's so damn hopeful and optimistic (which is great, but hard sometimes too). In any case, I hope we all have easier times as the weeks tick by It truly truly helps to know there are people who get it. You guys are the best.

[manderslvt]

I get it leahks77. I want to be excited and plan ahead for this baby, but my PGAL brain kicks in and I'm too scared that if I plan ahead, I'll lose the baby and it will all be for nothing. There's no logic, but it's what my brain does! Hopefully it will get better as we get farther along.

[leahks77]

manderslvt and mistabinx I am so sorry we are all feeling this way. I will hop and dance with you when you pass your milestones. Day by day, right? ((Hugs)) to all.

[manderslvt]

Apr 4, 2015 18:24:16 GMT -5 DoesItComeInPink said:

C&P from CAR, but maybe these will be helpful:

PGAL Mantras

Today I am pregnant and I love my baby.

I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise.

My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c.

Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!

Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot jinx your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!

There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (God forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive"

Thank you for posting these. I lurk CAR from time to time, mostly to reread these.

edit: typing is really hard today!