Tough week vent/ramble **Trigger Warning Child Death**
Apr 9, 2015 9:00:51 GMT -5
Post by becwheat on Apr 9, 2015 9:00:51 GMT -5
Ladies, On Tuesday night I held the hand of an 10 yr old boy as he passed away.
I have not been around as much this week (maybe you have notice... maybe not), because the son of a friend of mine was having severe heart problems and was in need of a transplant. Unfortunately he started having other complications. He coded twice and after a CT scan the family was told there was severe brain trauma and he would not make it.
The mom was distraught and after signing the paperwork and saying an emotional goodbye she could not bring herself to stay in the room when the turn off the machines. The rest of the family said they were going to leave with her... I asked mom if I could stay and she was thankful someone was willing. I could not bear the thought of this boy being alone when he passed. It just didn't sit well with me. (I was not judging his mom at all, she was not in a good state I really don't know if she could have handled it.) She thanked me and left. I thought maybe another family member would opt to stay instead, but everyone just left...
DH and my BIL stayed too. It was really hard, but I know I would want someone there with me at the end. I am honestly just emotionally exhausted.
I am glad I was there with with the little one, but it is just hard. I can't describe the anxiety I felt when everyone was leaving and it looked like he was going to be left to die alone. I know a nurse would have been there, cause the hospital was amazing, but I just could not handle the thought of no familiar faces being there.
Anyway... I just needed to get that off my chest.
I have not been around as much this week (maybe you have notice... maybe not), because the son of a friend of mine was having severe heart problems and was in need of a transplant. Unfortunately he started having other complications. He coded twice and after a CT scan the family was told there was severe brain trauma and he would not make it.
The mom was distraught and after signing the paperwork and saying an emotional goodbye she could not bring herself to stay in the room when the turn off the machines. The rest of the family said they were going to leave with her... I asked mom if I could stay and she was thankful someone was willing. I could not bear the thought of this boy being alone when he passed. It just didn't sit well with me. (I was not judging his mom at all, she was not in a good state I really don't know if she could have handled it.) She thanked me and left. I thought maybe another family member would opt to stay instead, but everyone just left...
DH and my BIL stayed too. It was really hard, but I know I would want someone there with me at the end. I am honestly just emotionally exhausted.
I am glad I was there with with the little one, but it is just hard. I can't describe the anxiety I felt when everyone was leaving and it looked like he was going to be left to die alone. I know a nurse would have been there, cause the hospital was amazing, but I just could not handle the thought of no familiar faces being there.
Anyway... I just needed to get that off my chest.