Intro *Triggers added: Eating disorder and loss talk*

[samanthasays]

Hi ladies! I recognize a lot of you from GKU, 3T and TTCAL.

Back story: in 2002-2003 I struggled with anorexia. In 2007/2008 I struggled with anxiety, depression, obsessive compulsive tendencies, and depression induced fibro.

Current situation: The past 3 or 4 months my anxiety came back with a vengeance. I actually had a panic attack a few months ago, the first and only one of my life. That triggered me to go see a Dr. She was a horrible whore who told me I was just still grieving my recent loss. She literally told me to go home and take a bath and drink a cup of tea. Since then I have gone from sleeping 8-9 hours a night to 5 if I am lucky, and I am down 10+lbs, which is not super healthy (anorexia history). Anyway I finally talked myself up enough to go to a different Dr, and blessed baby Jesus she actually listened and prescribed Lopram for GAD. I have been taking it for a little under a week now and am enjoying so many fabulous side effects, like headaches, exhaustion, and my personal favorite, diarrhea. I hope I can join you ladies and support and be supported

The bribe: I am a love tit whore so I promise to up your ratio

[icequeen]

Hi hun! I'm so sorry to hear that old tendencies and behaviors are resurfacing. I completely understand how the IF struggles can impact your mental health. TTC have been one of the worst times in my life. I am so happy that you took the initiative to find a different doctor. I hope the side effects ease up for you. How often are you checking in with your PCP/psych to see if you are tolerating it well? If you can, think back to 2003 and 2008 and what strategies helped you manage your illnesses? Was it meds, seeing a therapist, seeing a psych, going to group therapy, or other healthy coping skills? I sincerely hope you find a treatment plan that works for you, because as you know, IF is a bitch that likes to stick around, and it's so easy for your mental health to suffer as a result. ((HUGS))

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I had to give you love tits for being a love tit whore

welcome. I'm sorry you are dealing with these issues! I've had horrible panic attacks before and they are terrifying. I'm glad you found a new doctor that was willing to help.

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samanthasays, Welcome!

[samanthasays]

Thank you for the welcome You ladies are so sweet!

@usernameedit they really are terrifying! I thought I was having a stroke. My legs gave way and I couldn't control them or talk, my husband was with me and thought I was having a seizure. It was scary stuff. Thankfully that was my one and only (knock on wood).

icequeen therapy has never been incredibly helpful for me (I wish it was, way less side effects than meds!). I think for me it truly is just a chemical imbalance. The right medication for the right amount of time has put me back on the right track in the past. My PCP is amazing, and my sister is a pharmaceutical technician, so I am lucky to have good support on the medication front When I was doing medicated cycles I would text my sister questions all the time! She is amazing. Last time I was on Welbutrin, which worked, but put me in a serious fog. This time it is only GAD, not GAD and depression, so my PCP thought Lopram would be a better fit. I am hoping once my body acclimates to it I will have less side effects than from Welbutrin.

[somebirdswalk]

Welcome, I hope the anxiety attacks stay away for you! They suck!! Glad you found better help

[URMySunshine77]

samanthasays, welcome to this board. I'm so sorry that you have been struggling. I'm glad that you changed doctors and found the right fit.

[yoshijo28]

Welcome, I'm sorry you're dealing with the anxiety in full force again. I.hope the new meds help