PgAL check-in 8/31

[jags8]

This is the weekly check-in for April moms who have experienced a loss before this pregnancy. We are sorry you have to be here, but let's get through the next 9 months together.

If this if your first check-in, Welcome! Please share the following in your post:

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable)

How far along are you (weeks/fruit):

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:


QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer?

[jags8]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable)
Early loss in Aug '14

How far along are you (weeks/fruit):
8w6d - almost a green olive!

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Physically I'm still trying to manage my 24/7 sickness with Unisom and eating frequently. Emotionally, I'm so excited and simultaneously terrified for my first U/S next week.

Also, am I the only one who still gets upset and jealous when they see pregnancy announcements? It took a year for us to get pregnant again after my miscarriage, and in that time pregnancy announcements started to upset me. Even though I'm pregnant now, I was surprised to find that jealousy is still my first feeling when seeing announcements.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
First U/S next week Tuesday on my birthday!


QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer?
I'm going to miss hanging out at the cabin and swimming and jet-skiing on the lake!

[jmc11511]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable): LC born 11/5/11, MMC 1/23/15.

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 8 weeks, 5 days today. Baby is the size of a raspberry!

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm nauseous almost all day, sore boobs, bloated and having some bowel weirdness. Emotionally I'm everywhere. 8/28 was my loss EDD and it was rough. I also had a friend announce a surprise pregnancy in what felt like a really insensitive way considering she knows about my situation.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: ultrasound today at 10:10 PST. I'm nervous but hopeful.


QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? With as stupidly hot as it has been here, not much.

[NatalieDavid]

jmc11511 ((hugs)) for making it through you EDD
Weeks/Due Date/Fruit? 6/ April 25/ Sweet Pea

Appointments? This Friday I have my first ultrasound.

How are you feeling? This week is a rough one and I'm feeling overly emotional.. At 6+3 last time is when I first started bleeding. It stopped and I lasted another 6 weeks. I don't have many symptoms besides for fatigue and that worries me even though I know logically I had all the symptoms last time and see how that ended. I feel like I have soooo long to make it until I pass my loss milestone. I just really need that first ultrasound this week. DH had been amazing and just keeps telling me there is a sma chance we could have another loss but a much larger chance everything is going to be ok.


QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? Floating in my pool reading after work. It is the ultimate stress reliever.

[NatalieDavid]

gooselover2012 good luck today!

[birkmmm]

Pregnancy Loss Background - early mc in May

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 7 weeks j have a little blueberry

How are you feeling physically? I'm having a lot of cramping and some brown discharge(everything I've read that's normal) and pretty nauseous 24/7.
Emotionally? I'm doing a lot better than a few weeks ago swing my betas high helped a lot. I just am anxious To get to my first apt

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: my first appointment isn't until sept 21 (3 weeks away) feels like forever but I know it will come quickly


QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? Summers are really busy for me so it's nice when the school year starts up. I will miss swimming a bit

[birkmmm]

gooselover2012 I hope you appointment goes well today!! Fx for you.

[danenikki]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable): MMC Mar 2015 that started at 9w. CP May 2015

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 8w4d raspberry

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? crappy morning and night and exhausted. I feel great that I passed the age of the baby on the MMC and still have symptoms.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: I dOnt have an appt til Sept 23rd see above for milestones

QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer?[
Being in the water and flip flops

[danenikki]

buttercup, birkmmm, gooselover2012, NatalieDavid, jmc11511, jags8, just wanted to give all you ladies hugs. This PGAL shit is hard.

[feisty]

Hi all!

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable): early miscarriage May 2012, DS born 5/13, miscarriage at 8.5weeks in June 2015

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5 weeks 6 days

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? I'm really not feeling comfortable with really thinking about this pregnancy much until we have a u/s (not until Sept 11)

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: u/s in less than 2 weeks.


QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? I can't wait until the end of summer here. Its just too hot and we can't do anything outside

[feisty]

Good luck on all the u/s this week!

NatalieDavid, - floating in the pool at night is such great stress relief. I need to do that more often!

[steveo]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable): Lost 15 month old DS2 in April.

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 7w3d / blueberry

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically, so sick and so tired. I have to force myself to eat, because normally that stops me from feeling like I'm going to throw up. But the process of eating makes me gag...ugh.

Emotionally -- pretty much the same as last week. Also a friend had some bad news today and I'm just feeling fucking mad, in addition to sad. I know rationally life is not fair (clearly, based on this check-in, and also so many other things in the world), but sometimes...it's just so fucking wrong.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: 1st OB appointment / ultrasound tomorrow morning. I'm nervous.

[creepyeyeball]

I experienced a loss earlier this year. It was my first mc after four healthy babies. I started bleeding at 12 weeks. Ultrasound showed a blighted ovum. Placenta and sac had stopped growing at 8 weeks. I decided to mc naturally at home snd it happened a week later at 13 weeks. It was the worst thing I've ever been through

I'm 7w1d now. I'm so sick that I am confident it is a good sign this time. I have peace. I was hardly sick with the mc

I am not going to see midwife until 13-15 weeks when I know for sure we can hear the heartbeat on the doppler. I had had an appointment at 11 weeks with thr mc and thrre was no indicator that I had lost the baby dince we fon't do ultrasounds. I'd rather wait this time.


I am going to miss letting the kids play outside when summer is over. I will miss carefree park days.

[creepyeyeball]

Also, I promise I can spell but my fat fingers suck at typing on phones.

[PiradicalMaid]

jags8, you aren't the only one. I still get upset when I see announcements or see big bellies... I have one FB friend I should just block, I hate seeing her talk about her pregnancy. It's irrational- I totally wish her the best. Her posts just hurt during my losses and they remind me of that now.

jmc11511, ((hugs)) for your EDD. How did the u/s go?

GL gooselover2012! I hope the u/s eases your mind.

I'm sorry about your friend's bad news, steveo.

Yaaaaaay for a great u/s and graduation, heartbot!!

[PiradicalMaid]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable) MC at 8 weeks this April and CP this July

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 7w5d- almost a raspberry

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically- uuuunngngnnnghhhh. So sick I can hardly eat. So tired I can hardly do anything. Yesterday SO let me stay in bed basically all day and ran around with LO. That helped- today I am able to face food a little bit better. However, our kitchen makes me want to throw up and makes me gag. Soooooo, not sure how I'm going to get LO dinner tonight!
Emotionally- I'm doing well. 2 good u/s (one with a strong HB!) and no bleeding has been reassuring.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: u/s on Wednesday! That will be our MC milestone. I'm feeling good about it now, but I'm sure I'll get more nervous as it approaches.

QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? It has been kind of a miserably hot summer. Once it gets really cold, I'll miss being able to take LO to the playground to run off her energy. I'll miss my summer clothes since by the time it's cool I'll probably have to switch to maternity. Also, the long days. I HATE when the sun sets at like 4:30pm. It makes me too sleepy.

[craftcrazymama]

Pregnancy Loss Background - 2 losses, DD born Aug 13, 5 losses

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 6w2d

How are you feeling physically? I'm feeling mostly ok. I have the odd wave of nausea and some light cramps every now and then but my main symptom is tiredness, fatigue and major food aversion (as in nothing appeals at all).
Emotionally? I got a 3rd beta level result yesterday and this has helped me to relax a little more. Now only 1 week till my scan so the wait feels easier knowing things are still tracking in the right direction HCG wise.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: 7 week scan next Monday.

QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? It's the first day of Spring here so I'm in the other camp. I can't wait for Summer! Longer nights, not wearing so many layers and Summer fruits!

[jmc11511]

I updated in a couple spots, but in case it was missed...WE SAW A HEALTHY BABY! I'm 8 weeks 6 day, which is just a day off what I thought. EDD is 4/5. Baby had a 155 heartbeat and waved his/her little arms at us. So awesome!

[PiradicalMaid]

Aug 31, 2015 14:34:19 GMT -5 jmc11511 said:

I updated in a couple spots, but in case it was missed...WE SAW A HEALTHY BABY! I'm 8 weeks 6 day, which is just a day off what I thought. EDD is 4/5. Baby had a 155 heartbeat and waved his/her little arms at us. So awesome!

Yay gummy bear

[wittyandwaiting]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable):

Ectopic in June 2015

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 10 weeks today! A prune or a date depending where you look!

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Physically, I'm relieved to be over some of the nausea but I am completely and totally exhausted. I feel like I need a nap every day.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
No appointments this week but last week we had an ultrasound and we got to see the baby wiggling around and looking like an adorable little gummy bear and we heard the heartbeat of 165. I totally cried.

Also yesterday was my last day on progesterone suppositories makes me feel amazing but also kind of strange. I didn't really realize how much comfort I found them until they were done.
QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? Not having to wear 10,000 layers of clothing and the sunshine.

jags8 i'm totally unexplainably jealous of other people's baby announcements too.

[PiradicalMaid]

So happy for you, gooselover2012!

[shananagins]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable) DH and I lost our first at 5 wks on September 17 last year.

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 6w1d with a little sweatpea

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Just mild nausea and mild heartburn for now. Emotionally? I waver between elated and terrified.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: Making it past the 5 week mark was important to us. I've been spotting a ton today, which had me bawling my whole way to my appointment this morning. Today was a big milestone for us with our first u/s. We saw the heartbeat--118bpm. I feel so over the moon about it! It definitely left me feeling less terrified. Our RE also found a pocket of fluid that he believes is causing the spotting. It has me nervous, but he seemed pretty unconcerned and was pleased that there was an obvious reason. Trying to trust his judgement and not worry too much. I have weekly u/s until week 8, and then I graduate to an OB.

QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? I'm going to miss seeing my horse every day--it's a bit tougher during the school year to get out every day!

jags8, Not just you. My cousin just announced her pregnancy, and while I'm thrilled for her, I'm a little jealous too. It felt like a gut punch. There's zero chance they were trying--she's working two jobs while her husband goes through law school right now... Wishing you so much luck at your u/s. And sending hugs.

gooselover2012, So very happy that your u/s eased such a tough day!

jmc11511, So happy it went so well!

NatalieDavid, Hugs to you--hoping you get through this time quickly.

steveo, So much luck for tomorrow's u/s. Hugs to you and your friend.

birkmmm, Having lots of brown discharge here too. Even though I know it's normal, it makes me want to scream like banshee every. single. time. Wishing you peace while you wait for your appointment.

buttercup, So many hugs to you as you navigate your EDD. So happy your first u/s went well!

danenikki, So glad you made it past your milestone!

feisty, Hoping these two weeks go by quickly for you!

heartbot, So happy for a great u/s--hoping you scale Everest quickly and find yourself able to be excited on the other side.

creepyeyeball, So glad you've found some peace.

PiradicalMaid, So glad for good u/s and strong heartbeat!

craftcrazymama, Glad for your good betas and hoping you have a great u/s next week!

wittyandwaiting, So happy for an awesome heartbeat!

[ellewills618]

Pregnancy Loss Background: loss in May at 7+4, only a sac measuring 5 weeks

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 9 and change

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: physically I have a headache I can't shake (today) and nausea off and on but ok. Emotionally- up and down. I passed my loss milestone but I still haven't had my first appointment with the OB so I can't relax. I still wonder everyday if what's in there is really alive. I hate thinking it but it's always in the back of my head. So morbid.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: 9/9 is my first appt where I will beg them to use the Doppler (I'll be a little shy of 11 weeks then and some offices won't do it until 11 or 12). And no u/s until the a/s. I'm going to go crazy if they turn me down on the Doppler. Please let the OB have a heart!

QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? Being warm and having skin that's actually moisturized.

[ellewills618]

So many great u/s! So exciting (and I'm totally jealous!). FX for all the sticky, healthy babies here!

Also, I get a pang of jealousy with pregnancy announcements too. I just keep thinking that it should have been me first. I should have a bigger bump. I should be announcing the sex. It's like I can't let go of where I should already be with my December baby even though that baby wasn't meant for earth. Typing that sounds ridiculous but it's how I feel.

[oreille]

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable): chemical pregnancy in May 2015. It's amazing how attached one can become to someone they only knew for five days.

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 6w1d (lentil/sweet pea)

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Nauseated but not puking. Eating all the carbs. I'm mostly vegan because I don't eat meat and dairy makes me ill. This week I've been eating tons of eggs, which normally gross me out. Apparently baby needs more protein.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: ultrasound Friday afternoon! 6w5d by ovulation date, 7w2d based on doc's current count/LMP. I am so nervous to see something. Had an ultrasound a week and a half ago (@4w5d) due to bleeding and saw nothing. No sac, just nothing.

QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? Sunshine. I hate when it is dark when I wake up and when I go to bed.

[wowcheezits]

This is my first check-in.

Pregnancy Loss Background (if you're comfortable) 1 stillborn, 1 D&E @18 weeks (Dx trisomy 13), 3 miscarriages. I probably won't put my loss history up anymore because the first two hurts so much.

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 6w1d, sweet pea

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? I feel like I should be further along based on my charts and LMP. But the doctor told me not to look at my LMP. I'm very nervous and Sept 8 can't come soon enough so I can get my ultrasound to see if there's a baby. FWIW I still have symptoms, though they aren't as intense as the first couple of weeks finding out was.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: Ultrasound on Sept. 8


QOTW: What are you going to miss the most about summer? longer days

[jags8]

wowcheezits you definitely don't have to keep sharing your loss background!

Also, our first ultrasounds are the same day! Mine will be 1:00 CST. Yours?

[wittyandwaiting]

Freak out coming up.

I woke up this morning with some spotting and basically called in the armed forces (which here in Canada isn't actually much).

Really, I paged my midwife who decided that since it was very light and I wasn't having any cramping that it was probably progesterone withdrawal but to make me feel better put me back on progesterone suppositories.

Anyway, I'm having a terrible day because I can't stop thinking about it and I want to go to the bathroom every 15 minutes or so and check. Also, I'm not accomplishing very much because the most important thing in the world right now is my uterus and what's going on inside of it so I'm having a really hard time being a good employee.

For the record, I did a suppository this morning and I haven't had spotting in a few hours.

That is all, thanks for listening (reading).

[wowcheezits]

Sept 1, 2015 8:01:41 GMT -5 jags8 said:

wowcheezits you definitely don't have to keep sharing your loss background!

Also, our first ultrasounds are the same day! Mine will be 1:00 CST. Yours?

Mine's going to be at 1:30! I'll be thinking of you!

[jags8]

Sept 1, 2015 12:40:06 GMT -5 wowcheezits said:

Sept 1, 2015 8:01:41 GMT -5 jags8 said:

wowcheezits you definitely don't have to keep sharing your loss background!

Also, our first ultrasounds are the same day! Mine will be 1:00 CST. Yours?

Mine's going to be at 1:30! I'll be thinking of you!

Oh! Totally forgot you are a fellow cheesehead, ya?