TTCAL Check-In 12/1

[doodler]

Hey guys! Sorry I disappeared yesterday. I had probably one of the worst days I have had since the loss. My head was in such an awful place yesterday but today I am doing somewhat better.

I'm on an antique computer right now so tagging is hard but I will just say that I have read all the updates and I'm generously giving out virtual hugs. I think we are all entering into a hard time of the year so I am thankful to have you ladies to vent to.

[lovetruly2015]

Thanks LadyNymeria and notagoddess

[lovetruly2015]

Dec 2, 2015 10:18:31 GMT -5 doodler said:

Hey guys! Sorry I disappeared yesterday. I had probably one of the worst days I have had since the loss. My head was in such an awful place yesterday but today I am doing somewhat better.

I'm on an antique computer right now so tagging is hard but I will just say that I have read all the updates and I'm generously giving out virtual hugs. I think we are all entering into a hard time of the year so I am thankful to have you ladies to vent to.

Im sorry yoy had a bad day. Sending hugs right back to you.

[littlelion]

I just want to give all you guys a really big bear hug!! I’ll keep you (all) in my prayers this Christmas season.

doodler - I wish I could give you a really big hug in person. All the uncertainty with those stupid FRERs is not what you needed. I hope the Christmas season can lift your spirits.

mayflowers - GL regulating your cycle and using the OPK’s…those can get tricky.

peaseblossom55 - {hugs} Your loss is recent and traumatic. Be patient with your healing and yourself.

LadyNymeria - FX that you get your New Years wish and get a BFP soon! Hugs to you and yh. Making sex a scheduled activity can put a strain on a relationship. If you can predict your FW somewhat, maybe you can plan a special date night? Get some romance back in the picture.

notagoddess - {hugs} It’s ok to feel all the sadness on the anniversary of your loss. I’ve had two losses occur right before Christmas. And to this day there’s still a sadness that tinges the holidays. Hope that you find something that gives you peace and hope.

kayladawn91 - {hugs} may be a good idea to take a breather from FB. And so sorry you’re going to miss your family Christmas party. But do what you feel is best for you. And I agree, morning coffee is the best!

hydrangea1019 - I’m happy to hear you have someone close that acknowledges your baby. It isn’t fair that we don’t get a baby when we really want one and have all this love and attention to give a LO. I hope God, the universe, your body, listens and gives you your rainbow baby soon.

mosdub - GL keeping that hcg negative! I think if you’re testing remains good, TTC in 3 months sounds reasonable based off your research. When an ectopic pregnancy is terminated using Methotrexate it is commonly advised to wait 3 months to get pregnant again. Yet, my RE was very definitive that I didn’t have to wait to get pregnant again. It’s scary to think of what could happen. That mthx is a chemo drug so I’ve seen concerns about it affecting the development of a baby. But I trust the hospital I go to and the RE and Obgyn depts are highly recognized so I trust my dr’s too. I've had drs in the past give me outdated meds and advice, and that's why I moved to my current hospital/provider.

lovetruly2015 - I hope your healing continues and that you can overcome any triggers that come your way.

[hydrangea1019]

Thank you everyone for the support. Last night was a rough night but I'm doing better this morning. I think it had a lot to do with my body too. Lately it seems like just when my period starts to slow down, it ramps right back up in full force. Cramping and everything. And that was last night.

FX it's really on its way out now.

[mosdub]

Thank you everyone for the kind words and reassurance. I love this whole group of ladies because of the support and the honesty. I know you're not just blowing glitter up my ass and giving me false encouragement and I really appreciate that. Love to you all!

[littlelion]

How are you doing? Ok, been very busy this past week. Last Weds was tough tho, it was the 9th anniversary of my moms passing. 

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched):TTA 1 cycle as I follow hcg down to 0. 

Diagnosis (if applicable):MTHFR and AMA

Updates/questions:
My hcg last tues was in the 170's. I was told to go back this week (today) for another follow up. But I didn't want to so I didn't go. I don't see the need to go so often just to follow a slow descent.  And also this week at work is crazy. I'm going to call tomorrow to make an appt for next weds. 

Debbie downer (a place to vent):
DH made me very upset Sunday night...ended my 4 day weekend on a sour note. A couple things happened which made me cry. For instance, we argued about when to put up the tree since Friday. He kept promising me we'd do it Frid, Sat, and lo and behold Sunday night rolls around and he changes his mind. Once we fought and I said I'd do it myself he went and got the boxes and put up the tree. So I cried because he ruined the whole experience. He could not understand why I was crying, as he pointed out the tree was up. I tried to explain that I wanted to create a new family tradition and have us decorate all happy and together...not fighting and him doing it all alone. He apologized later and we made up. But yeah, do not want 4 hrs of arguing and crying to be part of the tradition. 

GTKY: On a lighter note: What is something that makes you happy? Love my morning coffee. It is such a ritual esp when I make it at home. Getting together with my extended family (cousins, aunts) makes me happy. We were very close growing up. But as we get older, married, moved around, it's harder to get us all together. This is my moms side of the family so means a lot to me to keep in touch. 

[notagoddess]

littlelion, I love my morning coffee too. Did your DH not have a happy family tradition of putting up and decorating the tree? That's so normal to me, sorry he made it difficult and not joyful. Hopefully you can still enjoy how it looks.

[mosdub]

littlelion I'm sorry for the argument that ruined the fun of decorating I've definitely had those types of arguments before and afterward think "was that really worth getting that upset about!?" But - it happens. I'm also sorry about your Mom's passing, I hope you're able to land in a happier place this coming week!

[littlelion]

Dec 2, 2015 17:42:24 GMT -5 notagoddess said:

littlelion, I love my morning coffee too. Did your DH not have a happy family tradition of putting up and decorating the tree? That's so normal to me, sorry he made it difficult and not joyful. Hopefully you can still enjoy how it looks.

No his family is not at all about tradition. They don't even celebrate birthdays. Very different than what I'm used to.

[littlelion]

Dec 2, 2015 19:25:42 GMT -5 mosdub said:

littlelion I'm sorry for the argument that ruined the fun of decorating I've definitely had those types of arguments before and afterward think "was that really worth getting that upset about!?" But - it happens. I'm also sorry about your Mom's passing, I hope you're able to land in a happier place this coming week!

Does it ever! Some of it was hormones I'm sure. I was also upset that he broke one of my moms nativity scene taking the tree box out. I know it was an accident but that got me going too.

[mosdub]

Dec 2, 2015 19:53:22 GMT -5 littlelion said:

Dec 2, 2015 19:25:42 GMT -5 mosdub said:

littlelion I'm sorry for the argument that ruined the fun of decorating I've definitely had those types of arguments before and afterward think "was that really worth getting that upset about!?" But - it happens. I'm also sorry about your Mom's passing, I hope you're able to land in a happier place this coming week!

Does it ever! Some of it was hormones I'm sure. I was also upset that he broke one of my moms nativity scene taking the tree box out. I know it was an accident but that got me going too.

Lovetit for hugs, not because I like it - obviously!