Can I sit here? (Loss mentioned)

[league2b3]

Hi all, I am tentatively intro'ing here.

Me: 30 H: 32
Started trying in August 2014, got pregnant our first cycle, and lost it within the first 6 weeks. Cycles were insane for a while, started for real trying (temping, opks) last April, and GKU in May. July 2015 I was treated for an ectopic by a doctor I will not see again. Started truly trying again in September, took November off, and now here I am.

I pulled a very faint line the last two days (today was darker than yesterday), and I will be calling my hopefully new doctor in the coming week.

I can't say I'm NOT excited, but right now, I'm more scared. The first one was hard, it sucked, the second one was just cruel. Third times the charm, perhaps?

EDD 10/2

[raechay]

welcome! so sorry for your losses: you've been dealt some really bad hands I am excited for your charm baby! kmfx for a sticky October kiddo!

[WittyLittle]

Let's hope 3rd time is a charm! Welcome! Sorry your doctor was so crap. As if the losses aren't bad enough!

[adouces06]

Welcome and I am sorry about your losses. Let's hope third time is a charm!

[league2b3]

Thanks ladies. Just waiting impatiently for my test lines to darken at this point. Then, the next hurdle will be the ultrasound. But, today, I am pregnant.

[raechay]

There's always the "next thing" to worry about isn't there? Hang in there.

[ameliabird]

Congrats!!

[littlelion]

Jan 24, 2016 7:59:27 GMT -5 league2b3 said:

Thanks ladies. Just waiting impatiently for my test lines to darken at this point. Then, the next hurdle will be the ultrasound. But, today, I am pregnant.

I was lurking around and found 2 TTCAL ladies on here! Congrats to you too!

[league2b3]

Jan 25, 2016 8:14:03 GMT -5 @ismellbooks said:

I'm just going to follow you around with love and hugs.

I'm so excited for you.

I hope you know how much I love you!

[league2b3]

I go tomorrow afternoon for my first round of betas. Fingers crossed!

[adouces06]

FX! Keep us posted!

[league2b3]

Round one, done! Now to wait until I get the results tomorrow...then another appt...then Friday. Lots of waiting this week...

Also, who knew the blood draws, while no fun, aren't the worst thing in the world? I'm pretty terrified of needles, and my last doctors office was HORRIBLE. While testing my betas to 0, I had to go in once a week. The girl who drew blood did it through my hands (OUCH) and told me I was dehydrated and my blood was thick. She said she drew the blood through my hands because I'm thick and have fat elbows. Biatch just didn't know how to do her job.

Hurdle one was leaped over today. Pulled a positive on a digital with crystal clear oh my God I have to have blood drawn pee. Next hurdle for me is an ultrasound, after healthy betas, of course/

[caer]

I'm glad your first round is done and the draw went ok. Sending you good vibes for the results!

[raechay]

Boo, what a twat. As someone who's done a lot of blood draws as part of my job, what she said to you is actually code for "I really suck at blood draws." Glad it's better this time.

[league2b3]

raechay, She was awful. It's painful enough having it done through your hands, but weekly?! My mom is a CNA and said the same thing you did. My anxiety for this appointment was through the roof. Luckily, at my new doctor, she's been doing it for over 40 years. She was amazing!

And, kudos to you all who do this kind of thing for a living. I just can't with needles.

[apunicorn]

*total lurker*

league2b3 I am so so happy for you!!! Sending you all of my sticky baby vibes!

[league2b3]

Jan 27, 2016 10:30:05 GMT -5 apunicorn said:

*total lurker*

league2b3 I am so so happy for you!!! Sending you all of my sticky baby vibes!

Thanks so much! Fingers, legs, toes, arms, eyes....it's all crossed!

[kelpsu]

Congrats and yays all around! You are so brave for dealing with all of the sticks while being terrified of them. You are already one tough mama!

[league2b3]

Thanks, kelpsu, while I'll never enjoy a blood draw, my God, what a difference this new woman makes!

So this morning, I was delaying getting out of bed (feeling the tired for real...) and checked my email. Saw that I had new results posted so I jumped up, grabbed my computer immediately, and...



my blood type is O-. That's all I know so far. I'm thinking I'll get both numbers at once, which I'm okay with. I'd Google the crap out of the first number, and would learn nothing and would stress myself out.

[adouces06]

Well that's a total tease league2b3! Looking forward to hearing your betas!

[league2b3]

#1-38 #2-60

I'm realistic. With my history, this does NOT look good. Going back on Wednesday.

[adouces06]

Keeping everything crossed for you lady!! I want you sticking around!

[caer]

All the (((hugs))) league2b3. Sending good vibes for a nice high number on Wednesday.

[macaronmama]

league2b3, Hugs and good vibes and hoping to get better information next Wednesday. *hold tight* FX

[league2b3]

I'll be honest. I personally have little faith in this. I don't have a clue how to handle this. My SIL is due any day, my in-laws will arrive on the 4th to stay with us for a week. Neither of our parents have any idea that I'm even pregnant again due to how they handled my last loss.

[brit365]

Sending lots of good vibes for a much higher number on Wednesday!!

[adouces06]

At this point league2b3 you only can take it day by day. Sending good vibes regardless!

[adouces06]

Good luck tomorrow league2b3! Keep us posted

[macaronmama]

league2b3, Ditto! FX crossed for you love!

[raechay]

Good vibes to you