Weekly Check In 3/14

[birch113]

How's everyone doing? Physically? Emotionally?

How was your weekend?

Anything new to share?

What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week?

GTKY: What was your first concert?

Accountability Question:
How did you do last week as far as reaching your goal? What is your goal this week and what are you doing to stay on track?

[woodenshoes]

How's everyone doing? Physically? Emotionally? I am doing good both physically and emotionally.

How was your weekend? It was pretty good. We didn't do anything too exciting. We played outside on Saturday when it was nice. I made cookies yesterday because it was raining and I was bored.

Anything new to share? All of the labs I had done last week came back normal. I am a little frustrated though because my TSH is still at 3.5, which is down a little bit from the 3.86 it was in November, but still above the optimal range. And my Free T4 is just barely in the "normal" range. At my follow up appointment, I am going to see about bumping the dose of my thyroid meds to see if I can get my TSH back in the 1.00 to 2.00 range.

What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week? We have been playing a new game where he imitates where DH or I put our hands (i.e. on top of our heads, over our ears, on our bellies, behind our back). It is cute to watch him play.

GTKY: What was your first concert? I don't remember. There was a summer festival whre I grew up that had lots of concerts. I remember Aretha Franklin coming one year when I was young, so that might have been my 1st concert. Otherwise it might have been when I went to see DC Talk with the youth group I was a part of.

Accountability Question:
How did you do last week as far as reaching your goal? What is your goal this week and what are you doing to stay on track? I did well reaching my goal. I am getting 3 servings of fruits and vegetables most days. I am exercising 30 minutes every day. I wish I was losing weight. I am going to temporarily blame it on my thyroid because I am in the mood to do that today. In the past when I have been this healthy I have lost weight rather quickly. My goal for this week is to try jogging a mile outside.

[ellabee]

Hi there. I'm Ellabee. I'm not sure if this is the right place for me?

*loss triggers*
I'm 1 day post-d&c from the mmc of our 016 peanut. DH and I have a DD who will be 2 in 2 weeks. I've lurked the CAL board, but the newbie blog makes it sound like they frown upon posters including avatars of babies... and I'm not ready to change mine to participate. I also suppose I'm not sure what the difference is between this board and the Parenting after Loss board? Anyhoo, if this is the right place for me, I'd like to join in. I typically posted on GKU and my BMBs, but would like to find more boards to call "home" so I don't gravitate towards staking the bmb I'm not a part of anymore...


How's everyone doing? Physically? Emotionally?
I go from ok to numb to sad to disbelieving. Still processing what happened.

How was your weekend?
It was alright. I had my D&C scheduled for yesterday, so I was just nervous the whole weekend that I wouldn't make it.

Anything new to share?
Not much right now. Trying to get in a better mental state so we can think about the future.

What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week?
Sometimes I'll kiss all over DDs face (cheeks, chin, nose, eyes, forehead) and tell her I love her very much. The morning after we found out about our mmc, DD must have sensed I was sad, so she kissed all over my face and gave me a big hug. It meant the world to me.

GTKY: What was your first concert?
I'm not sure I remember. Maybe DMB in highschool.

Accountability Question:
How did you do last week as far as reaching your goal? What is your goal this week and what are you doing to stay on track? My goal this week is to try and think positively and to be in the moment with DD instead of focusing on the mc.

[chknma]

woodenshoes, glad you are feeling well. Sorry for your frustrations. Hope you and your provider can agree on a plan to get your labs to a range you feel more comfortable with.

ellabee, I'm so sorry for your loss. Big ((hugs)). Take extra good care of yourself during this time.

I participate on this board and PAL. For me this board is helpful in dealing with my recent loss. This check-in has given me a safe space to talk openly about the rollercoaster of emotions I have had after my recent loss. PAL is a little more active and has a lot of great check-ins. I would encouraged you to participate where you feel most comfortable.

[chknma]

How's everyone doing? Physically? Emotionally?
blah on both fronts. I feel like I've really turned into a Debbie-Downer lately and its overlapping into so many areas of my life. I need to try and focus more on the positive things I have and not let the tough times overtake everything. I'm going start a gratitude journal of some sort and focus on positive self-care.

How was your weekend? Busy and good.

Anything new to share? +1 for daylight savings time is kicking our butts this week

What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week?
DD1 has been making up these silly little rhyming songs. It is so much fun to see her imagination.
DD2 started randomly with the "besh you" after people sneeze/

GTKY: What was your first concert?
I think my mom took us to the Beach Boys when we were in elementary school.

Accountability Question:
I've fallen off the wagon, hard. This week I'm focusing on getting back to the gym and back to eating healthy foods.

[ellabee]

I appreciate the explanation chknma! I'll hop over and check out PAL too. Thanks for having me.

[tbonequeen13]

woodenshoes, hope they figure out how to help you get your thyroid under control

ellabee, i'm sorry you find yourself here, but you are definitely welcome. i hope you find this a place of support.

chknma, a gratitude journal sounds like a great idea!


How's everyone doing? Physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm fine. Emotionally, I'm getting there. AF was 2 days late this month and even though we weren't actively trying, we weren't preventing either so I kind of got my hopes up.

How was your weekend? It was good. We went hiking Saturday and then had dinner with the ILs and spend Sunday with my family.

Anything new to share? Nope

What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week? She was sick yesterday, and although I hate her feeling poorly, I loved the extra cuddles

GTKY: What was your first concert? Alan Jackson- my sister and I were huge fans

Accountability Question:
How did you do last week as far as reaching your goal? What is your goal this week and what are you doing to stay on track? I did pretty well with keeping a food journal and getting in a bit of walking on breaks. I'm down 2 lbs in a week and a half, which is huge for me. I'm also down to 50 carbs or less a day, which sux, but I'll do anything to get this extra weight off so I can get off Metformin.

[chknma]

((Hugs)) @ophelianwanders
Glad you and your DD had a nice time out!

[tbonequeen13]

opheliainwaders, she's much better, thank you. I know it's frustrating not to have answers as to what is causing your losses. We don't have answers on our first 2 either.

[madameovary]

How's everyone doing? Physically? Emotionally?

Physically, pretty good. No pain from d&c and only light bleeding. Emotionally still a blubbering mess.

How was your weekend?
Okay, glad my mom was around to help.


Anything new to share?
I got a fitbit!

What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week?
It is so funny to see how excited he gets about going pee pee in the potty.


GTKY: What was your first concert?
Aerosmith in college. It was loud.

Accountability Question:
How did you do last week as far as reaching your goal? What is your goal this week and what are you doing to stay on track?

I've showered daily. That counts for something.

[chknma]

madameovary

Glad you've had some extra help. ((Hugs)) take extra good care of yourself.

[irish14]

@ellabee thanks for asking the questions I was going to ask. sad we're both here - I feel you on the not stalking bmbs. I had to delete my shortcut link.

I hope people don't mind if I jump in here? (Do I need TWs here? If so, **trigger**)
About me: I have a DS who is 15 months, he's ornery but such a joy. We started NTNP in the fall. My cycle returned in Jan (I'm still b'feeding). I found out Friday, at 7w, there was no HB. The mc is going naturally so far. I'm hoping it stays that way because for some reason I have this gut aversion to going in for a d&c. I'll know more when my bloodwork comes back on Monday - took extra time since it's a holiday weekend. If everything continues as is, they'll probably just track my betas down then tell me to wait for a normal cycle.

How's everyone doing? Physically? Emotionally?
It's been rough. I'm still struggling to process what happened, though I think after 3 days I might finally be cried out. Physically it's going better. Fri and Sat had massive cramping and all the other fun parts of a natural mc, but it's let up some today - I got through half the day without Advil.
How was your weekend?
Some fun, mostly f*ing terrible. Obviously Friday was about the worst day ever. (It's weird to say that phrase without exaggerating. It really was probably the worst day of my life so far.) My parents were in staying with us, and I couldn't tell them because my mom has anxiety issues and I really don't think she could have handled hearing about a mc, so pretending everything was ok was really hard. I lied and said I got my period w bad cramps and that at least let me talk about not feeling that well, which helped. Last night was better - it was my birthday (happy birthday to me, right), so we went out with friends, and I laughed a lot and had a drink and good food. Was nice to escape for a bit, and it made me tired enough that I fell asleep without sobbing like the last two nights. I'm sure DH was relieved about that. I think he's worried about me.

Anything new to share?
I've started to curse when talking about my feelings. Maybe that means moving to a new angry stage of grief?

What was your best moment with your LO(s) this week?
we did an Easter egg hunt with DS in our living room. He totall figured it out, and it was so cute watching him spot an egg, get a huge smile, go get it, then hand it to daddy to open.
GTKY: What was your first concert?

John Mellencamp. Freaking great.
Accountability Question:
How did you do last week as far as reaching your goal? What is your goal this week and what are you doing to stay on track?
no goals right now. Just getting through the days.

Thanks for listening. Haven't told anybody in real life yet so has been tough dealing. Seems like this place might be a good fit for where I am right now.
ETA omg sorry for the novel...
ETA2 - crap just realized I posted this in an older thread, sorry again. It's been a week...

[birch113]

irish14 I remember you from D14. I'm so very sorry to see you over here. I'm so sorry for your loss. (((Hugs)))

[irish14]

Mar 27, 2016 19:48:37 GMT -5 birch113 said:

irish14 I remember you from D14. I'm so very sorry to see you over here. I'm so sorry for your loss. (((Hugs)))

I remember you too, hi thanks for the wishes. It's lame any of us have to be here but nice to have a support community that knows exactly where you're coming from...

[birch113]

Mar 27, 2016 21:20:09 GMT -5 irish14 said:

Mar 27, 2016 19:48:37 GMT -5 birch113 said:

irish14 I remember you from D14. I'm so very sorry to see you over here. I'm so sorry for your loss. (((Hugs)))

I remember you too, hi thanks for the wishes. It's lame any of us have to be here but nice to have a support community that knows exactly where you're coming from...

It's the best place nobody wants to be.

[tbonequeen13]

irish14, sorry that you find yourself here. I hope we'll be a source of comfort and support and you deal with this loss.